US

A guy and girl can be just friends but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other... maybe temporarily... maybe at the wrong time... maybe too late... or maybe... just maybe forever...!


FROM US:-

From College to E&Y, we finally decided that it's the perfect time to get married...


First and foremost, we both like to thank those who has been with us through our 5 years of courtship. With your support, we have both been able to overcome what life has thrown towards us.


We want to thank you all for being so supportive. Your love and prayers means a lot to us.

Once upon a wedding day

Once upon a time..... aawwhh...... thats how all nice stories that i remember from my childhood used to start.... and its my wedding day so i want my beautiful story to start in some what similar way...... but its not all that happy happy as of now....... m really nervous and my heart seems to be running in a marathon and in no time it will jump and come out so i am holding it very tightly..... my thoughts are going crazy..... everything seems to be wrong.... dam it...... in short I am really really nervous...... !




My heart is racing 
I am very nervous
Checking to make sure everything is just right. 
I look in the mirror
And see my reflection staring back at me
But I look different today

I am very nervous
My palms start to sweat as I am shaking from head to toe
I pull myself together
blood is rushing on my face
and more then my dress my face is red at this moment

I am very nervous
As I walk down the aisle, they all stare
And I keep on walking
With a terrified but happy grin on my face
I look up ahead

There he is in all of his glory
The man I have known forever
The best friend I ever had
The man who has always been there
The man I am about to marry
I am very nervous
I stand next to him and faces him with a smile
He holds my hand in his and looks into my eyes
All of a sudden everything feels right
The nerves disappear, As I know that it's going to be perfect. 

And thats how this, 'Once upon a wedding day....' beginning ended in a beautiful one for me.  Now hope "They lived Happily ever after" remains the same.       Amen ;)

11/18/2010

Our engagement!

Down on one knee a ring was given, "YES" I would say,
its always been my dream to get engaged in this way
But my fairytale has just begun in a strange way,
But this is not a dream I'm in, this is love that's true,
So now it hardly matters how knot is tied.

 We had started our journey as strangers
And then we became friends to best buddies,
Now this is a new step in our relationship,
Our engagement!


It's so great to find that one special person,
you want to annoy for the rest of your life.
May our engagement be the beginning
of a lifetime filled with special
love and happiness.


Now all await with eagerness
for the day when bells will ring!
I will get complete control to annoy someone!

14/10/10

Drama wedding for me :)

I've been asked many times

how do you want your
wedding to be like
I smile and laugh
cause I know my wedding
is not going to be a normal one.

I do not want a dull dress
fore dull is just not me
instead I want a touch of
red and green involved some how.

I'm not a temple person
so I would not really have it there
instead I want in under the sky
in the Fall during a beautiful night
all bright and nice with twinkling stars

and full moon on my head.

My wedding will not be
traditional that is for sure
but i never said I was normal
and even want it that way.

So as you ask me
about the wedding I want
I'll just smile and laugh
as I answer happily.

And thats how its going to be in just few days 

Happy Happy like me 

with a touch of excitement and loads of drama.

So like me!!

Simple pleasure

There are days and then there are some days. Today was one of those. You wish for nothing to happen and nothing happens. It is not lethargy, or a lazy demeanor, its just that nothing happens. From the time you realize that the morning hour approaches, you begin to wonder what the day would be like. You look forward to nothing, for nothing is happening. You wonder whether it would be desirable to take a shower, change the clothing, look fresh and clean and the answer comes in loud and clear from within - NO !

But then suddenly things starts changing and the day which was earlier a lazy day now becomes Another day of uncertainty, of unknown circumstances and idle wanderings. So many things starts all of a sudden some in this world and some in your head.... and in notime Feeling of nothingness is replaced by the mess.

I felt somewhat similar today...... Feeling of mess... as if so many things going on in my mind....don't know where to start......how I wish I could ctrl+alt+del things that aren't important. But I know it won't go anywhere..... I wish I could climb inside my head to sort out the mess. But I was scared of loosing it all... and fear of going to a blackhole of emotions made it even worse.

But then again with some external force things around me seems to be bit calm and peaceful. And after travelling from nothingness to confusion now I landed in this beautiful feeling of goodness. Now it has turn out to be a day when the sun shone for that one short moment. And grasping the opportunity I sat out, taking in all that it could offer through passing light monsoon clouds. The burn on the face and skin felt good. Cold wind seems to pass my body giving a tight hug and taking away all the tension and blackness.... in no time I was relaxed..... I have to admit nature has a power to heal the soul and I was witnessing it.

 I sat there for more than an hour. Just looking towards the sun, eyes shut, taking in the vitamin, Hope, Light whatever.... Until the dark presence of rain sent me scuttling in...... it really healed me.

Simple pleasures of life.... are difficult to explain but they are always there... just that we don't notice.

;O) By your side ;O)

You made me smile,
you made me blush,
you made me laugh
but now you just made me cry.

I loved you with all my heart
but was not sure of it.
Now when I realized
it made me feel sad.

Today when we are far away
to hold hands,
Just close your eyes
and I will be by your side.

:) :) :)

Every king was once a crying baby.
Every great building was once a blueprint.
Its not where you are today but where you'll reach tomorrow that matters.

Memories

After going through goodbyes and farewells recently I have learnt that, Goodbyes aren't the one that hurts,But the Flashbacks that follows. You tend to miss things you once hated... all good and bad memories becomes part of your treasure. You fight with yourself every single moment to get out of those memories and move ahead but somethings holds you back.... You keep on struggling and destroying yourself but, your heart can't erase memories like your mind does.

So, after going through all this myself I have decided to give up. After that I realized that those memories which were initially making me weak are now giving me strength to move ahead.... With every struggle, I have grown...I have accepted there is no such thing as perfect, there will be good days, there will be bad days, but I'll make it through. As each chapter in life comes to a close, it's not always a happy thing. But as long as there's more story, it means another chapter begins. So, I guess I am beginning new chapter of my life after all this mess =)

:)

They say we're too old to play hide and seek. but wouldn't it be so nice to hear someone say, "I found you!" =) I cherish those days when life was so much more simple when the only drama you had to worry about was who got the sharpest crayon : )

Awwww I want to play like that free soul once again.

THANK YOU!

This one is for all well wishers who took time and made my day so special today. Luv you all and Thanks so much for being in my life... Mwaaahhh!!


Thank you for the moments; Thank you for the years
Thanks for always cushioning my worries and my fears
Thank you for the inspiration; Thank you for the hope
Thank you for making it so effortless to cope

Thank you for the conversations; Thank you for the love
And for taking me to special places I've been dreaming of

Thank you for supporting love, whether near of far
Thank you just for being the sister that you are

My heart is just rejoicing, it's jumping up and down
It's dancing in the meadows and it's spinning all around

My heart is doing somersaults, and flip-flops in the air
It's doing rolling cartwheels and jumping jacks with flair

My heart is doing little swirling spirals in the breeze
It's fluttering and twirling and it's tumbling with ease

My heart is doing wheelies, it's relishing in fun
So grateful is my little heart for all that you have done!

                                                  -Anonymous

Happy B'day Angy

Wishing my dearo Angy a Happy B'day .....its another month, another year, another smile, another tear, another winter & summer too, but there will never be another u. Keep Smiling Sweetu :)) Muah!!! X<3X

Wish

Life would be perfect if: some girls had mute buttons, some guys had edit buttons, bad times had fast forward buttons, and good times had pause buttons. And I had a special access of changing everyones mind, feelings.... life would have been so easy then.... and things would have been turn out as I desire!! I really Wish this comes true.

No words to say

Its been ages since I wrote my last blog and in this time gap so many things happened. I changed so many things some knowingly and some happened by itself.....I left my city,  my friends, my job. Saw my old relations from a completely different angle.... which made bonds even stronger. So many truth came in front of me which earlier I was ignoring...Life was becoming easy... but u can't trust it and so it has something esle in mind for me......to cut the story short... so many things and things got complicated.

And now, I guess all this is making me crazy.... It seems as if I am in a state of confusion... my emotions are not clear.... I smiles the world away, but inside I cry everyday. I laughs out load at every joke, at night tears fall on my pillow. Some times I feel like dancing and the very next moment I doesn't feel like smiling.... Sometimes I wants to cry but is frightened of drowning in my own tears.

Sometimes, I feel like I am a bird trapped in a cage and struggling to get free. I lost my positivity in recent past and everything about this place, its people almost everything appears to be negative to me. I feel as if my true face hidden, My emotions locked away, My mind screams, With words I'll never say.... b'coz words can't explain how I feel.

But, If you cling on to the PAST, the PRESENT becomes Difficult and the FUTURE becomes Impossible, so I am trying hard to make things work.... And I guess it's time to lower my expectations.. Because I'm sick of disappointments.

Lonely

I want to take a walk in the dark with nothing but the moon, the stars, and the chirping of little animals to guide me… But, These wobbly legs, thumping heart beats, restless demeanor, tears rolling down, gloomy voice, and blurred vision is making it extremely difficult ……is it a nightmare or a reality! No it’s not a nightmare… then what is it?


This Feeling of being invisible, People coming and going without any reaction. Is it really their behavior or it’s something in my head which has kept me occupied? Whatever it is but it’s really painful. There is no sadder feeling in this world than to feel lonely and unwanted. Why is it that when you want people the most, no one’s there for you? Even in the crowd, you feel so damn lonely! I’m missing a lot of people right now... the past looks so much better.


But I guess nothing is going to change in this way. So, it’s time to put on a happy face and pretend everything is fine and dandy... B’coz Life is like a cut on your finger. If gets worse before it gets better, and leaves a scar to remind you of your courage! So I am trying control this emotional outburst. I put on a mask, I hide the pain. I force a smile, I shove the sadness away. I walk around on the outside, while I die on the inside.

I guess I am Just a little lonely today and little miss sad today ~x~ SO let this pass and I will be back with new engery :O)

That Smile

In the middle of crowd I saw you,
You were lost, searching everywhere,
I smiled,
Then you found me,
Don't know how but you found me.
And we both smiled!

And from that day,
A glimpse of you… Dazzle me!
You fill my senses
Like sleepy blue ocean
Like a smoky forest
And that overwhelming smile
Still makes me crazy!


                       -Jyoti

Luv ya Bangalore

Two and half year ago when I came to Bangalore I was a completely a new girl in the city… Somewhat scared, a little nervous, extremely excited with lots of dreams. And now after such a long time when I am quitting my first job I have this bloodcurdling feeling again. A bit of perplexity, speck of anxiety and lots of emotional overflow. It’s not that I am regretting my decision but it’s just that I am in love with this city and that’s making it all difficult.

If Ahmedabad is the city which has some special memories of my childhood and London has that feeling of beauty & exploring the world for the first time then, Bangalore for me holds the moments when I started my career and became independent. It’s the city when I redefined myself by doing things I never expected I would ever do. Working in MNC, Taking dance classes, Shopping like crazy, Becoming an extrovert from a completely introvert person are just few of these.

It’s the city which mesmerizes me with its unique charm, its greenery, its people, big shopping areas, its Gardens laden with those Orange and yellow flowers everywhere, yummy food, breathtaking weather, number of CCDs which made me coffee addicted, Those exciting dance classes and disc which makes me go wild, Friends who helped me see new horizons… Ahhh I guess everything about it is just so nice that I don’t feel like leaving it.

I am really going to miss this place like hell…. It’s just too special for me. Luv ya Bangalore.

Twinge

In the darkness of the night I sit and cry,

Wondering what happened.

In the bright light of the day,

I act as if I am the happiest one!

There’s a smile on my face

Like it’s been touch by a grace…

But there is a ray of emotion it can’t blow.

There’s an ache in my heart,

Like it’s been hit by a dart...

An ever growing pain that just won’t go.

There’s water in my eyes,

Like it’s been raining from the skies…

That’s the only way I let my emotions flow.

There’s a sorrow in my tone,

So I am sitting here alone…

I won’t talk else my sadness would show.

There’s secret I have kept,

And there’s a reason, I wept…

But that’s something I won’t let anyone, ever know!

                                                                               - Jyoti

The Second twist

There are times when u stop, to take stock of what life has piled up for you.......an audio cassette of your first English compilation, a dusty old love letter you wrote but never cared to deliver it....for your love only lasted till you were writing it, sepia toned photographs without any description of how u felt when those were taken and a shelf full of books, each one looking more like a collector's edition with each passing moment.

Then when u add all of them ......metaphorically , spiritually using the most complicated equations of life that can’t be derived in a set of formulas, you end up looking at a clean slate. It feels as if one is a palette, with all the colored flavors that life has to offer, mixed together. So that in the end only discernible color is white.

When I was taking my little baby steps, after my neck problem few days back.....It’s kind of how I felt. Like life is coming around again.......even my gait feels different now… memories have transcended to be categorized as happy or sad, The tune-humming has become louder....star gazing is so much more peaceful... the harmonica feels cold in my hand ...ready to be harped on.

Time to learn new lessons and old ones in a different way. The only reminder of my previous existence is this tingling semblance of pain.....which sometimes comes around. And suddenly I am beginning to absolutely adore the title of one particular blue book in my shelf. "Oophss, I fell in love" and I fell in love all over again with myself!!! And I got this painful lesson that Life is traveled only once... Today's moment becomes tomorrow's memory..Enjoy every moment; good, bad, happy, or sad; because the gift of life is LIFE itself.

It hurts

I was smiling
My eyes were glowing
But you knew I was Sad
You asked me what was wrong,
I smiled and said nothing,
As you turned and walked away,
A tear ran down my cheek
As I whispered to myself...everything!


I try to stay strong,
Try to hold out,
But sometimes I break...

Into small, small pieces.

Years moved out, but even today,

I listen to loud music,

Because I'm scared of hearing

What’s going on in my head

I laugh and smile more
So that I can hide tears in my eyes.


But trust me, I am not afraid
Just tell me to my face,
Don’t make me wonder,
Don’t make me hope.
Just tell me, hurt me,
So I can move on...
It hurts more not knowing,
It hurts more to hope.
It really hurts!


                 - Jyoti

Mera Bharat Mahaan

Recently I got this forward from a friend.... It was worth sharing because many items here are the realities we see around us but we never thought about it..... I don't know what to say about it as many of these items were shock for myself... I never knew that I can be so ignorant.

Read it ...... take few minutes and think about it.



We live in a nation

Where Pizza reaches home faster than Ambulance & police,

Where you get car loan @ 5% and education loan @ 12%,

Where rice is Rs 40/- per kg but sim card is free,

Where a millionaire can buy a cricket team instead of donating the money to any charity,

Where the footwear, we wear, are sold in AC showrooms, but vegetables, that we eat, are sold on the footpath,

Where everybody wants to be famous but nobody wants to follow the path to be famous,

Where we make lemon juices with artificial flavours and dish wash liquids with real lemon.

Where people are standing at tea stalls reading an article about child labor from a newspaper and say, "yaar bachhonse kaam karvane wale ko to phansi par chadha dena chahiye" and then they shout "Oye chhotu 2 chaii laao....."

:O)

I guess there are just things in life
that sometimes you cannot just have
and sometimes you worked so hard
but you cannot have it.

Artistic Wish

These days I am reading novels of different authors… starting from Ayn Rand to Dan Brown to Jeffery Archer to Sidney Sheldon…. to understand their writing styles and pattern… All of them have different writing styles which make a similar scene look completely differently…. I might not like all of their creations but I certainly admire all of them for this differentiation and variation which they bring with their writing… They are in true sense Creative people.

As per my experience I can safely say that, Creative writing skill is very rare and only few have this gift. Writing requires plenty of imagination, observation and the innate ability to paint word-pictures out of anything under the sun…. All works of fiction, poetry, drama and other non-journalistic writings feature an amalgamation of these attributes. If there is a Wordsmith dwelling inside the confines of your heart, set him free so that he can engage his ingenuous talents in creative writing. However, you also need to learn when not to use a liberal sprinkling of words and when to use your imaginative power in order to make your work of art an enjoyable experience for the readers and yourself.

Even though I might have written so much on Writing but I myself is still a struggling to get these basics correct… but never mind.. It gives me immense pleasure to write so I won’t mind taking this pain again and again…. so that one day I can also acquire ability to lend color to his thoughts…and complete one of my Artistic Wish. Wish me luck!

Sad

In every decision, there are actions, and with every action there are results, the results will become experiences that will shape us to who we are. But sometimes they can even shatter a small budding mind with all those dreams…. Is that what we meant to do with this action- reaction funda….at least I don’t understand this big talks and opposite actions.

I was taught that, Life doesn't always look or smell likes a rose. There are times when fallen petals need to be picked up and crushed before the fragrance is set free once more…. But, what if petals are detached intentionally and then crushed so that they can never ever give that fragrance... Is that what freedom we are defining here… don’t we all want things to get better rather than making them worse? Then why this happens that, just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.

Why everything is so confusing in this adult world… why can’t we continue with our perception as kids…. Perception which makes us believes that nothing can go wrong and it never goes wrong. But once that mirror breaks and we land in this world of adults not even a small thing happens in the way we want it to be… and we have this excuse that something even better is waiting for us…. At this moment I feel like saying…. “To hell with your something better I want what I want and nothing better can make me happy.”

I am sad and teary eyed :o( x … guess need to stop here and fight out in reality.

Nonentity

Memories are the best thing in life to have they never change while everything else around you can. This little poem is for those lost childhood memories.

You were my life,
I was only a chapter in yours

You were my eyes,
I was simply an image for you

You were my dream,
I was no more than a lost memory for you

You were my past,
I was nonentity for you.

       -Jyoti

A butterfly

Today I was tangled in my own confused little world where doubts had taken over…. Things look different from yesterday… life looks mystified. Present seems to be more perplexed. And as they say past is past but past brought you to your present that made you busy thinking about the future. Past makes me laugh and cry… future is still a mystery but present is what worries me the most. Things I wished from bottom of my heart never became part of my present....And what ended up becoming today's reality was never in my dreams... And that's where complications arises. What earlier seems to be an easy path, now appears to be confusing. The road ahead give the impression of a maze from where I stand, and I have nowhere to go but to move ahead in the mess without any destination.

But even at this crossroad of life there is something which gives me power to stand power to think….The power of HOPE... power to believe in something great, something superior within me. Something that clears all my doubts, all confusion and gives me clarity of thoughts after removing the ambiguity.

As I speak up my mind I realized that, not all things happen the way you want them to be, some are mere coincidence and others well they happen because of fate…. You may not always end up where you thought you were going but you will always end up where you were meant to be. So, it’s OK to reflect upon yesterday’s memories, but it's far better to live for today's joys and tomorrow's dreams. And if you don't get something you want, you might get something better…. And this is the way life behaves, when everything appears to be wrong something right definitely happen…As they say, Just when the caterpillar thinks the world is coming to an end, God makes it a butterfly!

Hope my chance of becoming a butterfly comes soon… and this world expands in front of me… so that I can also fly with those colorful wings! - Amen

WEEKEND

Crappy day, go away…. Let the weekend begin….!

But I know it will come and end soon….. Without any intimation and satisfaction…. Making me to want for more. The ecstasy of arrival could never compensate for the hollowness of departure of WEEKEND

Emotions

In morning I was reading about emotions and throughout the day ‘Emotion’ was the word which dominated. Another example of collective focus syndrome. We say so many times that he/she is very emotional…. What do we mean by that…. What are Emotions after all??

Emotions are our feelings. Literally, we feel them in our bodies as tingles, hot spots and muscular tension. There are cognitive aspects, but the physical sensation is what makes them really different. Throughout the day emotions like Hatred, Love, Like, Dislike Envy, Fear, Anger, Trust, Surprise, Happiness and Sadness, shows us their colors in one form or the other.

Emotions never leaves you. They are much like waves, we can't stop them from coming but we can choose which one to surf.

Having emotions is like riding in a roller coaster...one second you're up and the next one you're crashing to the ground... but wherever you go emotions will always accompany you. And I guess Emotions are the reason we all exist and care for others. It is one of the greatest gifts to all living beings… When you give love to your dog it returns twice as much unconditionally. Talking about plants, Sir Jagadish Chandra Bose has proved that when you care for a plant, shows your affection by a simple hug, it also shows signs of positive growth and reverse is also true. Even a new born baby understands emotions… He cries when he is unhappy and smiles when he is in high spirits… no one teach him that. This is the gift of God which we all should appreciate. And instead of hurting someone’s emotions we should make efforts to spread love & affection to all living being…… SO, spread positive emotions to others…. You will get the same!

An Encounter with nature

I experienced a mixture of feelings on Saturday…. Didn’t slept Friday night and thought of taking a nature walk early morning. It turned out to be an amazing decision for I witnessed the glory of nature bestowed upon the surrounding. As it rained previous night... the trees around my place appears to be clean and it seems as if they are getting laden with new leaves. The symmetrically planted trees with their black branches and light green colored leaves just looked amazing. There were flowers everywhere some trees were covered with those bright yellow and flashy orange flowers while others had that purple, peach, white, pink & red color all over them…. It looks just perfect… To top it off the sunrise from various locations along with the play of brush strokes of various hues ranging from orange to blue across the sky was mesmerizing. The weather was cool which exacerbated my pleasure of having hot CHAI outside.

It was simply picture perfect morning. And to that I had dance class at eight which doubled my spirit of magnificence. It was altogether a great day with nature… And I felt for a second as if I was dancing on the music of nature.

So going forward I will try to be less lazy and try to wake up early as dad says… Early to bed and early to morn...makes a man healthy, weathy and wise... in sab ka toh pata nahi but it definately makes one a photographer... and an admirer of the greates gardner.... so to maximise my encounters with nature...I will try to wake up early... let see... Wish me luck!

Reddie the Teddy

Yesterday I listened this song on radio and loved its lyrics.....so I used some part of it and made a new poem out of it. Copy ka funda aise hi aata hai filmmakers ko now I know egg-xactly! Any ways sometimes chalta hai na... so its my Copy karna chalta hai waali poem :D :D


I was five & he was six
We ride on the horses
Made of sticks
I fell down
And hit the ground
That awful sound
Bang Bang!

He was there smiling
At me with his sound tinkling
And eyes twinkling
I hated him for that moment
And I hit the ground
With my hand and again that awful sound
Bang Bang!

But I couldn’t shout on him
He was my only lover, buddy
He was the love of my life
He was my sweetie
Darling Reddie the Teddy!

       

Friends

Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Sorrows keep you Human,
Trials keep you Strong,
Smile keeps you loveable
Tears keep you alive
Failures keep you Humble,
Success keeps you Glowing,
But Only Friends,
Keep You Going!

Valediction finally!

It takes great courage to stand and fight for something,, but sometimes it can take even more courage to walk away and leave things behind!! And today I have decided to close one beautiful phase of my life… though the actual action will still take some time but just by declaring my decision in public made me feel sad about leaving all of them. Though initially decision was much awaited and bought happiness but as they say when you have something you desire for more and when you lose something that’s when you know the importance of it in true sense...  Today I finally learnt this lesson and I am truly going to miss this place and my blogs will definitely going to show that.

Soulmate

You are mysterious, You are nameless
You are far away but still so near
I may not see you with my eyes
But my heart can recognize you anywhere.
For the reason that,
You make me full of life
Like the morning sun!
You make me spanking new
Like an evening wind!
You make me beautiful
Like the first rain!

You make me full of meanings
Like the deep blue sea!
You make me sweet
Like nightingale’s voice!
You make me peaceful
Like a night in the forest!
You make me alive
Like an oasis in the desert!


You make me bubbly
Like drizzle on the face!
You fill my senses
Like the full moon!
You make me glow
Like that bright star!
And, above all
You make me complete
By being my Soulmate!

        - Jyoti

Doomsday Conspiracy

Today I finished this book called “Doomsday Conspiracy” by Sidney Sheldon. This was the first book I have read of this author and was really impressed by the writing style... Simple but interesting.

Doomsday Conspiracy is story with lots of suspense, excitement, passion, in short a complete package to hold you till the end. The protagonist of the story is Robert Bellamy, a man hired by the NSA to locate the several bus passengers in Switzerland who had accidentally seen a weather balloon with some top secret equipment (later on identified as a UFO) collapsing in the woods. As Robert locates the passengers one by one, they are mysteriously killed. Each murder has been meticulously staged to appear as an accident. Robert's marriage also dissolves, as his wife, starved for attention by Robert, marries a rich business tycoon Monte Banks.

As Commander Robert Bellamy of US naval is in the verge of completion of his mission, he learns that he is being hunted by an unknown lethal force. Robert runs escaping from the attackers from Washington to Zurich, Rome and Paris. As the story unfolds to reveal Bellamy's past - why the women he loves cannot return his love, why is most beloved friends become his deadly enemies. Bellamy finally learns that the investigation ends in the place where he had started it.

Story from a hunter to being hunted was really excited and must read.

Only Right world!

Today I woke up with Stiff neck… can’t see anything on my left… and hell the pain... Making me crazy! My world was only right for the entire day but dam it was not right at all… everything seems wrong with my neck making 60 degree with my right shoulder and my left hand couldn’t even take the weight of a book.

To get rid of this funny posture I went to see a doctor and he asked me few weird questions… I was wondering why doctors ask me what's wrong...if I knew I wouldn't waste my money being here would I...DUH!!! But if these questions can do any good to me I was ready to answer…. Took medicine, applied those sticky creams with pungent smell… but all seems waste. Also tried ‘Nanny ka Nuskha’ and applied hot towel on my neck.

But guess what after all this I’m still struggling with my neck half bent… Just with one hope that when I will wake up tomorrow it will be alright! And instead of only right world I can see both left and right world :))

Missing smile

I am feeling bit depressed today and can’t find anything to write here it seems everything is blank but if it’s really blankness then why is that, my mind has become a crappy mess of so many things. Why things are running so fast without giving any reason and direction. Why life appears to be so difficult with hurdles everywhere and not even one road which I can travel with confidence. Why is that? Why I am feeling so lonely when so many people are around me… Why I am not able to find even a single one who can share things with me and give me some hope of future. Why I am falling apart…Why I only have questions but no answer. Why Why Why????

Am I going crazy??

After all these awful emotions I am thinking why I grew up at first point… If growing up means challenging your own existence, distrusting your own world, if growing up means simply complicating things then I guess life was better as a child. Where I used to love weather, birds, plants! Sunshine and warmth!! Friends and fights. No doubt it had few lows but broken toys were far better than broken hearts and broken dreams.

Wish I could return back with reverse clock of Benjamin button and enjoy my childhood once more leaving all this here far away from me.... My mirror is also missing smile on my face hope this will do good to my mirror as well! Pray for me!

Picture perfect

I saw these pictures recently and just love them as it reminds me of my childhood when my sweet sister was born it was such a wonderful feeling. I always wanted a sister and when I got one I was so happy and I can see same happiness here. Our house also witnessed similar scenes many a times. I just love these pictures.... it shows a picture perfect of my childhood.

Shoo sweet Muuaaah!

I am happy

So-many things are going on in my mind these days... Sometimes I feel as if I am bouncing in the bubble of happiness and at that very moment when everything seems just perfect.... worst happens.... Whoop... and everything just changes and bubble of happiness just burst in front of my eyes…it really hurts.

My visits to home always give everyone one more topic to discuss, marriage and only marriage….  It’s the only thing they know and I hate it  the most... I believe that soulmate is one who gives meaning to life and makes it even more wonderful... and not the one you have to select because of some social pressure....so I am not going to find my soulmate unless it just happen & unless I feel from bottom of my heart that this is my prince…and I am sure that things will be in my favor when this has to happen. A person who will make me even more beautiful by just being a part of my life....because a person is only beautiful, when their own beauty, is reflecting on to others… I know it sounds like a fairytale thing… but I always take life that way…where happy endings still exists.... it seems as if I m off to the land of dreams, where that special someone is waiting with arms wide open...but the very next moment I felt as if I was chasing this beautiful dream, then got whacked in the face.. by REALITY!!! Remember, in the end all we have is ourselves and you can't trust anybody! And this reality checks has made me feel that, dreams are like rainbows: always in sight but not always within reach…and if this is the reality of life then why the hell God make us see all those dreams… he always know from the beginning what is going to happen then why he never stop these useless, meaningless dreams at the very first moment so that these dreams doesn’t hurt.... I guess he also loves seeing people in pain.... with shattered dreams....  But in spite of all these I believe sometime only dreams are what remain.

Things become even worse when you try to ignore things but people around you start asking pointless questions. I hated when old aunts came up to me after weddings or these days even without any occasions and say "u r next"…or when are you going to give the good news.  I have never done same to them after every funeral… Why the hell they don’t let me live… I am more than happy with my life and I am not ready for any new commitments. Please someone make this go in their heads. I am happy!

P.S. Never give up your dreams for someone who isn't willing to give up anything for you

 

First love

Sometimes my mind asks
Why I still care,
Why I miss u,
Why u r all I think about,
Then my heart answers
Because you will always
Be the first love of my life!

My Sweetiepie.... My Teddy!



Now before mind start thinking any further, let me tell you that this is for my first love....my Teddy…. I am missing my old small cute Teddy. Though now I have so many of them in all shapes and sizes… but satisfaction which that small red teddy used to give me… other can’t even take me near to it... I just miss my Reddy the teddy!

I am a Woman

I modified one of my poem for Women's day... here is the editted version which I submitted for the competition.

 Do you know…..I
Say a thousand words with my eyes,
Ask a million questions that arise,
Hide the pain with a smile,
Seek comfort that goes a long while,
Want to smile through my tears,
Need a friend to tell my worst fears,
Share a secret and never regret,
Want to meet someone I've never met,
Am scared of the dark,
Want to begin again, a new start.
I am you, A woman!

My heart feels empty from within,
When night falls and mom doesn't snuggle me in
It hurts and remind me,
When was the last time we had dinner together.
I stifle a scream,
When I see kids holding hand of their dad.
I just hate myself for growing.
I am Child, like you… a daughter everyone wants!


I want to
fly again,
dance to my heart's content in the rain
Lay my head on ma's lap,
and tell her the days' recap.
Feel the caress of a thousand butterflies,
Break the bondage, break all ties
Yes, I am still a child & will always be!


I dream of
Talking nonsense,
A beautiful house and a white picket fence.
Someone who'll amaze,
A warm hearth and a fireplace
A heart where I stay,
Leading life my way,
A gurgling bundle of joy,
To love and bind as the years pass by
I want to hold this love in my hand,
And complete my identity.. by just one word
Mother is all that want to hear…!


And when the time of departure comes
I 'll b at peace in your arms
With my life repeating in front of my eyes
and you by side….. Is all I want.


Yes, I am the most beautiful creation of God,
A daughter, A lover, A wife, A mother
is what they call me….
But whatever they say,
I always make a difference….. in everyone’s life.
I am a Woman!

Spare a moment

It’s time to spare a moment to think about Bhagat Singh, Sukhdev & Rajguru. Three young men who gave their lives for a dream on this very day.… Dream of free India.. A dream which gave us a future and a past to cherish. Life would have been different for all of us if they for a moment thought about their own selfish interest. We should thank God for what they were……A farsighted, passionate, brave, self-sacrificing souls.


Today if we have a small, a tiny fraction of their passion… we really will be an unstoppable nation.

:))

It was a Maniac Monday…. A mad day at work. I had so many things to finish and all at once everything was priority…. I was bamboozled…… Completely lost in everything. It was just horrible….

And then, heard that whining track… from someone’s Youtube ….  or it began in my mind don't really know.

“Gucche hai bhai Gucche hai…Kahaniyo ke Gucche hai…”

And in no time I was singing that, and felt so energized. I felt that things just changed in front of me… I managed to cope up with everything and got some time to post my blog as well.

Felt so nice…. Childhood memories can do wondes :))

Paint it!

Love this painting there is something about it which always catches my attention... Thought of painting something similar but it never matched this one.... so m still trying n hope to put my own painting here some day :))

Home Alone!!!

I am sitting in my flat alone no human voice... no vehicles sound... it seems as if its already midnight. Such a strange killer silence...oophs... I m already scared & to kill this "Sannata" I have kept TV volume at its peak.. I can hear it from all rooms now... but still considering the fact that I am alone is enough to scare me... I m just praying electricity department will show some mercy on me n will not cut the power... Please  Please...!!!!!!

Anyways staying at home alone has some benefits also... u can dance n discover your own weired steps, sing badly (which is always the case with me, considering the kind of singer I m no one let me sing :(( ).... Shout at the top of your voice n no one will stop you...YAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!! Try new looks... experiment in cooking.... so many things yaar... I love them all...... And yup if you are in some serious mood then grab your un-interrupted thinking time. It will help you to de-stress & you might get some great ideas as well never know.

I m feeling bit nostalgic at this moment as I havn't been to home from a long time..... n sitting alone here is triggering a flashback......Thinking that how it felt when I think of HOME…. What a mixed feelings... it makes me smile, it makes me cry… It gives a feeling of completeness..... it gives me an identity its more then just few bricks & RCC for me... its a memory stock... a memory in itself.... my Sweet HOME.

Home was where I used to come from school/college and no matter what happened during the day/month/year, all the worries flew away.. Mom & Papa took care of everything… and we were safe with them besides us.

Then time flew away… we grew up.. left home…. and there is that house we once knew as home. the place where I can find my way in pitch darkness, where my hands and feet had memories of their own....and still has....... the patio where I sat on winter afternoons and learned multiplication tables (I must have paid more attention to those mouth watering dishes Mom used to make for me... especially, The 'Gajar ka halwa' and 'Aloo ka Paratha'  because I still get the multiplication tables wrong but do remember that taste n smell...:P), my study room where I graduated to calculus and loved it........!!!

The small garden which was full of loose earth where we played in mud in sweltering afternoons and made mud toys… the balcony from where we threw our paper planes…. where I learnt to ride a bicyle with dad walking besides me & briefing me those minute details, drive a two wheeler and then eventually a car....
Where I outgrew pinafores and frocks and umbrella ponytails to jeans…… that… was home…my sweet little home.

Just want to fly back home…. I am counting days!!! But days are becoming longer n longer :(( Wish I can strike a fast forward button!

Mujhe Ghar Jana hai..... Abhi!!!!

Human Angle

Today I was checking some online exams to check personality traits of a person and one of the best things about these online is that by and large it is a level playing field. You are judged according to the same parameters as everybody else. But all this objectivity goes to the dolphins (Hitchhiker’s hangover) once the human angle comes into play. Howsoever stringent the parameters might be one can never remove the inherent randomness originating from the complexities of the human mind. Also factors like favoritism, friendship and a range of other groupings ranging from country, religion to even your 'gali- mahaullah' comes into play. Add to this, the preconceived notions which leave an indelible mark upon the decision making neurons of people.


Many times I heard people saying that, “Life is not fair, you make the effort and somebody else reaps the benefits". It’s indeed true many times numbers of uncontrollable variables which influence our life (at least in the materialistic sense) is huge. But then how does one live with this. How does one enjoy a peaceful sleep knowing that he is as good as or even better than his boss (or fellow students / co workers etc) but does not get what he deserves in life?

A simple solution as suggested by a yogi is to realize that all this is maya (now don't get any naughty ideas). Live in a detached manner; observe life and all its happenings as a meek observer. Enjoy the 'Raslila'. Since eventually all of this shall pass away. Do the 'Karma' and accept the results. Don't try to find reasons for all the randomness in this world. Accept that this is how it is.

My Song my way

I have realized that sometimes you don’t realize what you have done until you see the damage. And today I finally realized mine….. from last few years I was living with this regret in my mind that I cannot accomplish one thing in my life. Though it never came upfront but every time I lose something, felt week, depressed….. I had only one decision to blame and after that I used to give several explanations to myself, for not trying it again… and for sometime it did worked. But you can’t fool your soul for long as body is for soul and soul not  for body.
So after continuous trying and failing within myself I have decided to at least give it a try … try for myself…. to accomplish my desire… my goal… in spite of all odds… This time I have decided to listen to my heart for once at least… so that I can live in peace with myself.

As they say, “Life is a song… only lyrics are messed up” so, it’s my try to create my own lyrics and sing my song my way. Wish me luck!

Finally Back

It’s been a long time since I last used my personal space to write something….. And this time I am seriously serious I was busy…..yup I really was… It was a crazy week…. and it’s a liberation that it finally ended.

Any ways, in all this havoc I cooked some ideas in my mind and pictures in my eyes but never got chance to conceptualize them on paper. But I promise to get that done soon. By the way in spite of being busy I managed to write two sweet poems…which I will post soon.

Happy Holi

Colors of life scattered everywhere.... Hop we all can use some of them in our life and make it even more beautiful... colourfull! Happy Holi!

Larger-than-life moment: TEN- DUL- KAR

Sachin TEN * TEN- DoUbLe- KAR has made his name a reality by making a record unbeaten double century. Man lifted his arms in triumph. At 36, he had become the first man to conjure a double hundred in One-Day Internationals. The first double century in ODIs comes after almost 40 years of ODIs being played. The maestro's unbeaten 200 was an impressive effort of focus, flair and dare. Really Larger-than-life moment.

He is the man who created so many records in past and broken so many of them, but this was indeed special when he scored his double century and became the first person to do so in ODI. It was an electrifying moment. In his journey which was started 20 years ago seems to be too short for the man. He is not yet done, man is showing so much action on the field that it makes us think that his best is yet to come.

On Field, He was light on his feet and heavy with his shots. His batsmanship does have an ethereal quality about it. It is also timeless; the ease with which Tendulkar rolls back the years are remarkable. If Cricket is a religion, Sachin is the God of it and there is absolutely no doubt about it.

I am truly privileged to be living in the era that is shared by such a genius. Master Blaster really deserves standing ovation for this. Sachin Paaji Tushi great ho!

SOS

Today when things were not that well… and I felt that terror that something is not well… unknown intuition of something bad made me restless. I was confused and more than that horrified. I felt that hope I could tell this to Mom as she always makes things simpler for me…. Or maybe someone else who might help me.


When I was a kid I learnt that when sailors go in deep sea and if there is any danger they release lights in sky and send messages to lighthouses or any nearby ship to save them. These messages are called SOS (Save our Souls).

I wish that we also had something called ‘Save our Souls’ signals for God... so when we have any trouble we just send those SOS messages and he will send someone to rescue us.

And when things will improve….

He will come to us and says, Your soul is saved now… And ALL IZZZ WELL!

Happily... Happy!

Happiness is what we seek each day....Some of us do find happiness, some of us continue to aspire for it. But very few people know what actually Happiness is. Happiness is happiness..... its not dependable on any achivements... it is absolute. For me each day is just another reason to smile…..and feel Happy..... That was my version of Happiness!

But many a times I have noticed that people around me don’t smile much… it seems as if something is holding them off… is it there stress, problems, age, work….. Or is it they themselves. I also observed that most grown up people seeks reason to be happy…. Why is that SO? Can’t grownups be happy like a kid? Why they need reasons.... Why they don't understand this simple fact that, Happiness is found along the way, not at the end of the journey.


Some believe in Destiny and Some believe in Fate, But I believe that Happiness is something we Create! A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes…. whoever said sunshine brought happiness has never gone dancing in the rain…. And trust me it’s not at all difficult to be happy… just let the child in you come out and you will find that happiness is all around you... It was you who was not able to see it.

If we just learn to be a child….. to give ourselves, to forgive others, and to live with thanks in our heart, we need not seek happiness--------- it will seek us. If you fill your life with goodness, badness fades away. Let's enjoy every moment like there's no one else around, laugh until we cry, and whatever the wind blows, let's just have the time of our lives! :D

So, just be happy and make the world around you happy too!

 (And sing with me........ to show it all :D :D)

"When u are happy n u know it,
Clap your hands,
When u are happy n u know it,
Stamp your feets......"

And I am so happy about being happy that my happiness is happily making me crazy… Oophs.. Touch Wood!

Jyoti

Thought of the day

Thought of the day which I saw while checking an old diary of mine... which I wrote long back but it is still so fresh, n appropriate......


Work as if it was your first day.
 Forgive as soon as possible.
 Love without boundaries.
 Laugh without control
 And never stop smiling.

Because that’s what matters……..

Jyoti

ONE

.
.
Give laugh to all but smile to ONE.

Give Interest to all but passion to ONE.

Give time to all but life to ONE.

Give love to all but heart to ONE.

Give life to all but live for ONE.

You are still a Dream

In my dreams,

You are my Life.

But in life,

You are still a Dream.

In my dreams,

You are always besides me.

But in life,

You are still far away.

In my dreams,

You never say no,

But in life,

You are yet not sure.

In my dreams,

You are still the same.

But in life,

You have turned into a completely different person.

In my dreams,

You are so true and innocent.

But in life,

You have lost that way back.

In my dreams,

You are mine.

But in life,

You appear to be a history.

In my dreams,

You are still alive.

But in life,

I have killed you long back.

Wish dreams can ever,

Ever turns into life.

Because…

In my dreams,

You are my Life.

But in life,

You are still a Dream.

Jyoti

Journey vs Destination?

The Question that cropped into my mind today is --- "Is the journey important or the destination ", "Winning or the effort that one puts in ", "The final Destination or the Path that one treads".

What exactly is life, Is it the constant variation of happiness and sorrow with small and large destinations mingled, is it a path which one has to tread to meet with the inevitable date with "Death " or are we serving some purpose in our life. Whatever it might be we always have goals and aims, aspirations and dreams. Some are able to realize those goals, some are not, but eventually what do we have.

Memories, Vague sights and sounds in our minds, bitter sweet feelings that we associate with our actions and inaction .They say that every end is a new beginning, and then what's our destination. A resting place to think over from where we are coming and where we ought to go , or rather to cherish the moments that we have had till that destination.

People think that they will get happiness after doing some big thing or reaching their goals or finding true love, but if that's so then our moments of happiness must be limited. Comprising of the few goals that we were able to achieve.

Is that what life is for. For those few moments or a constant feeling of happiness.

If that latter is true then the point is proven that that Means are more important. But then can anyone be really happy when one keeps failing to reach ones destination. Or is the combination??

I say, however naive I might be, it's the human spirit. The spirit of not giving up, the spirit of looking into the face of adversity and doing what is right, the spirit of exploring ones limits, the capacity of happiness .The will to go on when you are in the most impossible situation in your life. Eventually does it really matter if you were able to get through the problem or the contentment that you put in your best, you had your chance and you gave your best shot. Refusing to give up without a fight.

One of the most inspiring writers "Shri Ramdhari Singh "Dinkar" " said that "The worst thing that can happen to a person is to realize at the end of his life that he did not act in the right way or backed down because he was not courageous enough ".
Celebrate the Human Spirit.......
Jyoti

Weak

I am feeling weak today… physically and mentally… or it’s the mental weakness leading to physical or vice versa… whatever is the relation but the bottom-line is I am weak today. Weak in action. Weak in thoughts. Weak in circumstance. Weak in memory. Weak with myself.

I am feeling as if my soul is still in my body but its keep on pressing that snooze button and stopping me to start the day as it should be…. And instead it’s making me lazy & weak… n more weak. I feel as if I have no strength, I am completely drained and exhausted….. My weakness could be my exhaustion. An exhaustion not of time or deed. An exhaustion from excessive consumption.

At this moment I have only one thing to say from my childhood fairytale. “Dear sleep, I just wanted to apologize for cheating on you with various excuses. I really miss you! Can you come visit me sometime...soon? ..... Waiting for you :)”

And finally here I am turning the lights out, shutting the door, and ending this day...Good night!

Jyoti

In between

Life has been really strange lately. In a way I am in between destinations. Problem is that I have no idea whether I am coming from or where my next destination is either.


I guess I am at the juncture of a threshold crisis of sorts. Then there is the problem of my mind which has gone into overdrive. It keeps thinking all sorts of things which include some not too happy figments. The worst kinds of nightmares are those which make you come to face to face with reality. Which make you realize that your dreams have vaporized and you will never achieve what you wanted to within your time frame.

But once you have achieved the unthinkable, you start feeling that nothing is impossible. You can get whatever you desire but sadly that's not the case. Success is like time, it goes away in a jiffy. And then you try to hold onto it and relive it but sadly it is just a bunch of memories.

Then you start justifying that what you wanted was not worth it or it was not what you truly desired. You come up with explanations that life is not fair, luck plays probably the most important role and yes all the above is true. But does it pacify the pathetic feeling that you did not even have a shot at trying what you wanted.

I told a friend of mine in the final few days of my undergrad college that life won't be the same as we know it. It will just become one single word "COMPROMISE”.

Thought I never truly believed what I said, I am beginning to realize, painfully, that I was right.

Jyoti

Shock

Last night I stayed up in the state of shock when I come to know that one of my close friend got married all of a sudden……. Without informing any one. I talked to her few days back and there was no clue about her marriage or engagement at that time and today Suddenly…. I got this news, thanks to Social networks. I was not sure if it’s a joke or she really mean it. I felt so bad, she was the first one to get married from college gang and she didn’t even inform…… All short of bad things came in mind… “Bhaag ke Shaadi Ki kya usne”, “She don’t care to inform me…”, “Our friendship doesn’t matter or what??” “how can she do this” “Marriage in 3 days means what… is it a joke??”……Blah Blah……. With all this I felt that my head would explode.


Then I thought of leaving it all… and went to sleep to the sounds of the boggy creek and awoke with the rooster's morning call to arms. The sun is shining and the air is crisp. It's almost as if the city doesn't exist.

....deep thoughts….no signs of last night’s stress…. Everything was just like another story to me….. But may not be for someone….. Before I could even conclude any thing…… I got a call…….

On the other end it was my friend….. she explained the entire situation... half crying, little confused, somewhat uncertain and totally clueless… like an old Hindi movie everything was so filmy… but what appeared so melodramatic for me was a reality for someone.

At that moment I felt that being a girl is not so easy…. Even today you have to fight for your existence……. You have to fulfill every ones expectations….. Its how this world has programmed us…. First see what your parents has to say, then listen to your husband, then kids and by the time you feel you can live by your own ...without any ones interference…. Its life that leaves you and finally you never gets a chance to live for yourself.

Is this chain ever going to end??

Jyoti

One Life to Live

Cooking, Reading, sleeping, Chatting, Gyming……. press up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right…… B, A, Enter key, then right click then press up and down…… That was in nutshell my day!

But despite this non productive day I managed to get some Gyan n now I’m making it public for others… so guys enjoy this Gyan session n hope you take something out of it n make your life even better!!!!!

Have faith in your dreams and some day all of your wishes may come true…… Butterflyyyyyy flyyyy awayyyyy... make your dreams come true in one day, live your life cos you can't stay! Make it happen your own way!! 

LIVE every moment LAUGH every day LOVE beyond words!! n if u feel its complicated to laugh n Love here then just remember that…. God throws pebbles to get your attention and if you ignore those, she throws boulders... so make sure u don’t miss it this time! Don’t hesitate; Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step….. rest will follow…. Don’t wait for others approval, coz if you live to please others, everyone will love you, except yourself!

The key question to keep asking is, Are you spending your time on the right things? Because time is all you have…. don't worry about your past, or the future or the troubles they held just battle through the ones now and you'll be stronger……. Time is your most precious gift, you only have a set amount of it. Time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time…..! SO choose very carefully whom you want to give your precious gift!

And Finally Everything happens for a reason, each reason has meaning…. Its true we don't know what we have until it's gone but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives! 

So, be happy with what you have!

Jyoti

My new Look

I thought of getting a haircut… and tried hard to get a cut which suits me but alas all in vein… more styles I checked more I got confused. In this confusion I went to salon and sat on the magic chair. I gave her my hairs to work on… Because I can’t handle any more planning n confusion state;..... with only one instruction i.e. "work your art on my head and let’s see what you can come up with….." And I closed my eyes with complete faith in her or in confusion!!

I don’t believe in living life in the fast lane, I was taking my time and enjoying every second, I was smiling….. Excited to see my new look.

Yaaayyyyyyyyyy and finally I saw myself….. My new look was just awesome…. for few seconds I was not able to recognize myself.

Small change made me so happy and gave me this refreshing feeling n luk aieeeee.... It was great indeed... every small thing does matter as small can create difference.

Just have little faith, add new things to your life and things will change....... I've realized that life is what u make of it.... As each day is just another reason to smile... and so I am smiling...as life is good.... n this small change really worked for me.... =))











Jyoti

Ride

By far it is a proven fact that my memory is bad enough to remember names, faces and what not but there is one thing it never forgets and that is my childhood because I have stored that piece in my heart instead of my skull. So, here I am once again lost in those beautiful memories… It happened today when I went to airport to pickup Anjali… and thanks to Bangalore new airport facility we have to travel almost one and half hour in bus and till last time I hate this part the most…. But today when I was in that same red glassy ‘Vayurath’ (that’s what they call it here) with all modern amenities… and once again I was surrounded by memories. Which are confusing to understand as they make me cry when I remember times when I was the happiest person on this world but it makes me laugh on my tears… but it makes up my treasure.


When I was a kid, I used to go to school in our school bus. For years I used to get ready in the morning, wait at the bus stop with other kids, buy some chocolates by emotionally blackmailing mom, pick flowers (there was a "Jhadu wala phool ka paied" that I loved and still do. I visited it this time I was in Ahmedabad. It hasn't changed much… Just looked not as big as I remembered it as a kid. (Weirdly the same thing also happened with a tall uncle. I saw him after about 15 years and he didn't seem that tall at all)), play seven up etc. etc while waiting for the bus. With time we even discovered a magic trick to make the bus arrive if it was late. We wrote "bus aa ja" on sand with our shoes (the fact that the shoes got soiled didn't bother us at all. I love childhood). And magically the bus would arrive. I still believe in the power of wanting something to happen collectively. And it still works.

Yeah, so when the bus came, there was usually a scramble for "window seats". I remember the winning feeling when we(from the younger lot) managed to get a window seat. (However, we never actually remained on our seats. As soon as the bus started, the kids lined up along the aisle of the bus to experience the "superjump" on the numerous road bumpers all the way till the school.) And when we used to cross beneath that railway bridge and luckily if any train used to past at that time... then we all used to make wish. Which seems so funny today but I still did that this time when I passed under that bridge and it was fun to behave like a kid once again.... as if my whole childhood came in front of me in just a fraction of second.... Childhood is indeed precious for me among all other memories and thats why it will always stay in my heart :)

Anyways..... as usual, I have pretty much forgotten the thoughts with which I started this post. But it had something to do with the bus rides.

I decided to go in bus today….. It was a very very boring affair. Half asleep people. Nobody shouted or counted red maruti cars. I usually immersed myself in crossword puzzles or sudoku. But there was one sight for which I waited. There was a small cottage on the way. Quite old and shabby. It was built in the wonderful old fashioned design…. It reminds me of old cottage near my home….. Most of them near the camp area.. one near the temple with grass on its slanting roof. Most of them in ruins now. And it had sunflowers growing all around it. Bright yellow pretty sunflowers. A mere sight of them would make my day.

In Bangalore usually, there is no scope for such eye treats. I thought my journeys would be drab and boring. But haha.. I was proven wrong. Weather today was extremely nice and I was lost in dreams…

I love day dreaming.....

So much about bus ride...... OOOppphs...

Luv

Jyoti