Missing smile

I am feeling bit depressed today and can’t find anything to write here it seems everything is blank but if it’s really blankness then why is that, my mind has become a crappy mess of so many things. Why things are running so fast without giving any reason and direction. Why life appears to be so difficult with hurdles everywhere and not even one road which I can travel with confidence. Why is that? Why I am feeling so lonely when so many people are around me… Why I am not able to find even a single one who can share things with me and give me some hope of future. Why I am falling apart…Why I only have questions but no answer. Why Why Why????

Am I going crazy??

After all these awful emotions I am thinking why I grew up at first point… If growing up means challenging your own existence, distrusting your own world, if growing up means simply complicating things then I guess life was better as a child. Where I used to love weather, birds, plants! Sunshine and warmth!! Friends and fights. No doubt it had few lows but broken toys were far better than broken hearts and broken dreams.

Wish I could return back with reverse clock of Benjamin button and enjoy my childhood once more leaving all this here far away from me.... My mirror is also missing smile on my face hope this will do good to my mirror as well! Pray for me!