It is so important to let certain things go from your life, from your memories. To remove them… to cut loose.
People need to understand that here no one playing cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Life is not only winning or losing, it’s more than that. Its emotions, feeling, reactions, efforts, expression, love, peace, illusion, imagination, journey, destination, heart & soul, likes & dislikes, relations, giving…. But, don’t expect to get anything back, don’t expect recognition for your efforts, and don’t expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood.
Don’t expect anything as expectations hurt. Just complete the circles….. not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is that no longer fits in your circle, in your life has to go out of it to create a space for new things to enter in the cycle.
Start out with symbolic things like……Close the door, change the record, clean the house, and get rid of the dust. Throw away those unused clothes, crockery or for that matter anything that is blocking your house, your space, your life.
Stop being who you were and become who you are by let going past memories, clothes etc. and create a vacuum for new ones to arrive.
So today when this year is about to end I am also trying to release all those things that are blocking my path, my life, my thoughts…. With the hope that the new ones shall follow and complete the circle of my existence.
Sayonara…. 2009…. Let go with you all the bad memories …what remains are the good things to cherish….Happiness & contentment is all over as we wait for 2010.....with all that it has to offer.
Goodbye 2009 :o)
Jyoti
Its Party time now and I m gonna party hard today!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Nature at it's best!
Nature is an infinite sphere of which the center is everywhere and the circumference nowhere. Nature teaches more than she preaches. There are no sermons in stones. It is easier to get a spark out of a stone than a moral. Its present all over but still thousands of human eyes cannot grasp nature’s beauty in life time. We all Sees the beauty of nature with awe and oyez. We often fail to see nature’s beauty and to fully appraise. We often Falls short in description of Sunset & sunrise.
I am already struggling to describe my experience in words so here are few glimpses of it.
I am already struggling to describe my experience in words so here are few glimpses of it.
God is the Gardner for sure!
Clouds above, clouds below, path ahead!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Merry Christmas!
.
It’s Christmas Eve and like every year its loads of fun, Secret Santa gifts, cake, decorations in office and yes Party time….. Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful… as if angles came down to decorate entire earth for Christmas.
Today I thought of writing a letter to Mr. Santa….. My letter to Santa starts off a little something like this: "Dear Santa, I can explain all the mistakes I did this year so please please don’t keep me in the bad list keep me in the Good or at least in naughty list …. Give lots and lots of present with biggest one being peace and love as other things have no value if I don’t have this ………. Blah… Blah…. Blah… Blah… Blah…… (And it continues)
Anyways this time I have finally figured out the colors of Xmas! Red for the blood, sweat and tears we shed, green for the money we spend, and white for the padded room we need.
Christmas is about the joy you spread to others, the gifts that cannot be bought or measured; and the heart in which we give and receive them all! Though I feel that Christmas, isn't only about the presents, it’s about family and watching faces light up when they see what is inside the presents. The Magic of Christmas isn’t present; it’s the time you spend with near and dear ones.
So here I'm wishing everyone that kinda Christmas that everyone always expects……and also those new years that everyone always regrets. My wish is for the unemployed to find employment, families to be together and this next year to be better than the last for everyone.
I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year….. as it is Christmas in the heart that puts Christmas in the air and hopes the same for everyone.
Merry Christmas everyone!
Jyoti
P.S:
And whoever read this have to give me lots of presents…. ;) …. remember Christmas is a time for giving, so give generously; I accept credit cards, cheques and cash precisely everything.
It’s Christmas Eve and like every year its loads of fun, Secret Santa gifts, cake, decorations in office and yes Party time….. Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful… as if angles came down to decorate entire earth for Christmas.
Today I thought of writing a letter to Mr. Santa….. My letter to Santa starts off a little something like this: "Dear Santa, I can explain all the mistakes I did this year so please please don’t keep me in the bad list keep me in the Good or at least in naughty list …. Give lots and lots of present with biggest one being peace and love as other things have no value if I don’t have this ………. Blah… Blah…. Blah… Blah… Blah…… (And it continues)
Anyways this time I have finally figured out the colors of Xmas! Red for the blood, sweat and tears we shed, green for the money we spend, and white for the padded room we need.
Christmas is about the joy you spread to others, the gifts that cannot be bought or measured; and the heart in which we give and receive them all! Though I feel that Christmas, isn't only about the presents, it’s about family and watching faces light up when they see what is inside the presents. The Magic of Christmas isn’t present; it’s the time you spend with near and dear ones.
So here I'm wishing everyone that kinda Christmas that everyone always expects……and also those new years that everyone always regrets. My wish is for the unemployed to find employment, families to be together and this next year to be better than the last for everyone.
I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year….. as it is Christmas in the heart that puts Christmas in the air and hopes the same for everyone.
Merry Christmas everyone!
Jyoti
P.S:
And whoever read this have to give me lots of presents…. ;) …. remember Christmas is a time for giving, so give generously; I accept credit cards, cheques and cash precisely everything.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Piece of music
One thing that touches me every day…… knowingly or unknowingly it has become part of my life. So I thought of writing about it which stays with most of the time, whether its office, home, journey, solitude or with friends… it always finds its space to slip in…Its MUSIC.
Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul. Music is one thing that has the power to transform a person who is ready to devote all his senses to the soul of music. It takes you to a trance and relaxes as if you are in some other world … which is far better, far superior. Good music is not only pleasant to your ears but to your heart, your sub-conscious mind, your soul and create harmony of spheres.
Music has a definite effect on people, animals, and plants. In fact it can have a powerful influence on our body, mind, and emotions.
It can be a very strong influence. Some music can calm us down; some music can make us wild! It brings with it the emotions and life of its own…. When I feel sad and lonely one thing I do is listen to music ….slow and soothing music… whenever I am happy I listen to music…fast, trendy, romantic and my body dance with each beat of it either virtually or literally…..when I am afraid & in confusion…I listen to music…some motivational, and sweet music…..So music stays with me even though the taste changes with my mood…. And it is also other way round. I am sure it’s true for most people….
Good music indeed has a dynamic impact on our everyday lives. In many ways it helps us stay in tune mentally, physically, and spiritually. Music with a ‘beat’ can stimulate your body; music with powerful melodies and harmonies performed with feeling can make you weep or cry out with joy; Music can move the soul. As it is moving mine while I am writing here I can feel various emotions flowing in the air and as the song changes emotions & flow of energy changes…. So are my thoughts.
When you like some music…..it doesn’t matter which language it is using to reach you… As Music knows no language…… Sometimes I end up listening music in a language I never heard before or don’t know….but my heart likes that music and it becomes part of it. … Music can compel us to laugh, to cry, to worship God. It can calm us or whip us into an emotional foot-stomping frenzy.
Playing "our song" can trigger memories and nostalgic moods. At least in my case I do get nostalgic or start crying after some very touchy numbers. Recently it happened with ‘Tare Zameen Pe’ movie’s ‘Maa..’ song or Rang de Basanti’s “Lukha chuppi..” song. There are many more in old songs list. Music really bring out emotions we never really care in our day to day life.
Music is enough for a lifetime, but a lifetime is not enough for music… so there is lot which is still untouched and probably I don’t have words to express it anymore as music can be understood by experience only and not by mere theories. So have your daily dose of music and experience it your way.
Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul. Music is one thing that has the power to transform a person who is ready to devote all his senses to the soul of music. It takes you to a trance and relaxes as if you are in some other world … which is far better, far superior. Good music is not only pleasant to your ears but to your heart, your sub-conscious mind, your soul and create harmony of spheres.
Music has a definite effect on people, animals, and plants. In fact it can have a powerful influence on our body, mind, and emotions.
It can be a very strong influence. Some music can calm us down; some music can make us wild! It brings with it the emotions and life of its own…. When I feel sad and lonely one thing I do is listen to music ….slow and soothing music… whenever I am happy I listen to music…fast, trendy, romantic and my body dance with each beat of it either virtually or literally…..when I am afraid & in confusion…I listen to music…some motivational, and sweet music…..So music stays with me even though the taste changes with my mood…. And it is also other way round. I am sure it’s true for most people….
Good music indeed has a dynamic impact on our everyday lives. In many ways it helps us stay in tune mentally, physically, and spiritually. Music with a ‘beat’ can stimulate your body; music with powerful melodies and harmonies performed with feeling can make you weep or cry out with joy; Music can move the soul. As it is moving mine while I am writing here I can feel various emotions flowing in the air and as the song changes emotions & flow of energy changes…. So are my thoughts.
When you like some music…..it doesn’t matter which language it is using to reach you… As Music knows no language…… Sometimes I end up listening music in a language I never heard before or don’t know….but my heart likes that music and it becomes part of it. … Music can compel us to laugh, to cry, to worship God. It can calm us or whip us into an emotional foot-stomping frenzy.
Playing "our song" can trigger memories and nostalgic moods. At least in my case I do get nostalgic or start crying after some very touchy numbers. Recently it happened with ‘Tare Zameen Pe’ movie’s ‘Maa..’ song or Rang de Basanti’s “Lukha chuppi..” song. There are many more in old songs list. Music really bring out emotions we never really care in our day to day life.
Music is enough for a lifetime, but a lifetime is not enough for music… so there is lot which is still untouched and probably I don’t have words to express it anymore as music can be understood by experience only and not by mere theories. So have your daily dose of music and experience it your way.
Friday, December 18, 2009
The Collective Focus Syndrome
When we are interested in something… and not only our mind but our soul also thinks of it….then everything around us appears to refer to that thing.
The Mystics call these phenomena ‘Signs’, the Septic ‘Coincidence’ and psychologist ‘Concentrated focus’. Although I have no idea what Pragmatic people call it…. And I being bit of inventive prefer to call it ‘The Collective focus Syndrome’.
As this happens when different thoughts, things, people etc, etc… ends up showing us the same thing which our subconscious mind is thinking. Every thing ends up at that very thought. Its like where ever you go these signs, reminders whatever you prefer to call it always reminds you of the that thing.
I have experienced this so many times…let me give you very simple example of nail paint. Recently I thought of buying few nail enamels and I ended up picking few very tricky shades of green & blue (which I had never seen before)... so thought of trying something different. And guess what from that day onwards every day I see someone or the other with same shade…. It seems as if all girls in the city bought same colors overnight. But it can be a fashion of difference you never know…. Some models or actress might have promoted those shades that night which I missed. Never know…. So here I am with one more incident not as silly as my nail polish incident… but only a lil bit like me :o)
Few months back I joined dance class & at the end of the course we have to perform on a particular song in the show. So our instructor selected a song for us….. Ours was a peppy number but bit old…. But to my surprise every day either on radio or while browsing channels on TV, in cab, neighbor’s house, caller tunes, ipods…. From some where or the other that songs comes to my ear as if whole world around me is listening the same thing….. It seems that some one directing things towards me.
Some thing similar happened yesterday which provoked me to write this post......Few days back I made my mind about something very important about my career but had little confusion about my decision and guess what yesterday while walking in office lobby I read a sign which says what I was thinking and in 2 years of my job I never notice it that way... and then to my surprise I went back to read it again and this time it was not the same sign... at first instance I read only few words of the sign and it was exactly what my subconcious told me but that sign board actually says something else. And since I am a believer in these things I realized that it might be an omen, a sign..... and now I have no doubt about my decision its crystal clear... and will act upon it very soon.
These are just small things but believe me, if you start believing these unspoken signs will appear like unspoken language of Mother Nature. And yes, every thing can’t be coincidence…..& if it is then they are all planned.
Hence, this Collective focus syndrome theory works when you focus on something wholeheartedly, nature will give you enough chances to grab it….Its up to you to understand those signs & grab the opportunity… and if you do so, you will surely get what you aspire for.
Like the famous saying goes;
“When you want something from bottom of your heart,
Whole universe conspires to make you achieve it”
So get ready to grab your chance, but before that check symptoms of your Collective focus syndrome.
Luv & Peace
Jyoti
P.S: Similar thing happened when I decided to write Blog, everything I do, think or read gives me idea of my blog…. In this process I cooked so many blogs in my mind….. some of them got conceptualized & are posted here, some are in my diary and some are still cooking :)
The Mystics call these phenomena ‘Signs’, the Septic ‘Coincidence’ and psychologist ‘Concentrated focus’. Although I have no idea what Pragmatic people call it…. And I being bit of inventive prefer to call it ‘The Collective focus Syndrome’.
As this happens when different thoughts, things, people etc, etc… ends up showing us the same thing which our subconscious mind is thinking. Every thing ends up at that very thought. Its like where ever you go these signs, reminders whatever you prefer to call it always reminds you of the that thing.
I have experienced this so many times…let me give you very simple example of nail paint. Recently I thought of buying few nail enamels and I ended up picking few very tricky shades of green & blue (which I had never seen before)... so thought of trying something different. And guess what from that day onwards every day I see someone or the other with same shade…. It seems as if all girls in the city bought same colors overnight. But it can be a fashion of difference you never know…. Some models or actress might have promoted those shades that night which I missed. Never know…. So here I am with one more incident not as silly as my nail polish incident… but only a lil bit like me :o)
Few months back I joined dance class & at the end of the course we have to perform on a particular song in the show. So our instructor selected a song for us….. Ours was a peppy number but bit old…. But to my surprise every day either on radio or while browsing channels on TV, in cab, neighbor’s house, caller tunes, ipods…. From some where or the other that songs comes to my ear as if whole world around me is listening the same thing….. It seems that some one directing things towards me.
Some thing similar happened yesterday which provoked me to write this post......Few days back I made my mind about something very important about my career but had little confusion about my decision and guess what yesterday while walking in office lobby I read a sign which says what I was thinking and in 2 years of my job I never notice it that way... and then to my surprise I went back to read it again and this time it was not the same sign... at first instance I read only few words of the sign and it was exactly what my subconcious told me but that sign board actually says something else. And since I am a believer in these things I realized that it might be an omen, a sign..... and now I have no doubt about my decision its crystal clear... and will act upon it very soon.
These are just small things but believe me, if you start believing these unspoken signs will appear like unspoken language of Mother Nature. And yes, every thing can’t be coincidence…..& if it is then they are all planned.
Hence, this Collective focus syndrome theory works when you focus on something wholeheartedly, nature will give you enough chances to grab it….Its up to you to understand those signs & grab the opportunity… and if you do so, you will surely get what you aspire for.
Like the famous saying goes;
“When you want something from bottom of your heart,
Whole universe conspires to make you achieve it”
So get ready to grab your chance, but before that check symptoms of your Collective focus syndrome.
Luv & Peace
Jyoti
P.S: Similar thing happened when I decided to write Blog, everything I do, think or read gives me idea of my blog…. In this process I cooked so many blogs in my mind….. some of them got conceptualized & are posted here, some are in my diary and some are still cooking :)
Thursday, December 17, 2009
I'm just too shy!
Recently I read a poem which touched my heart and taught me a lesson that ...…Life is too short to share everything and still often we hide our feeling, expressions for a later date but that day never comes and life moves on and when we realize it’s already too late to act….. Really luvhly.
As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me
She was my so called 'best friend '
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it...
After class, she walked up to me and
asked me for the notes
she had missed the day before
I handed them to her
She said 'thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
11th Grade....... ......... ......... ......... ....
The phone rang...On the other end,
it was her...She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her
love had broke her heart
She asked me to come over because
she didn't want to be alone, So I did
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine
After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips, she decided to go home
She looked at me, said 'thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
Senior year........ ......... ......... ......... .........
One fine day she walked to my locker
"My date is sick" she said, "hes not gonna go well",
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as 'best friends'
So we did...That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step
I stared at her as She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes
Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!" and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
Graduation.. ......... ......... ......... ......... ..
A day passed, then a week, then a month
Before I could blink, it was graduation day
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma
I wanted her to be mine-but
she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
and said- 'you're my best friend, thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
Marriage.... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......
Now I sit in the pews of the church
That girl is getting married now
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it...
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said 'you came! '
She said 'thanks' and left...
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
Death....... ......... ......... ......... ......... .......
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years
This is what it read:
"I stare at him wishing he was mine;
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him,
I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
I wish he would tell me he loved me ! "
...'I wish I did too'...
I thought to myself, and I cried...
"Do yourself a favour, tell her/him you love them...
They won't be there...Forever!
We never know what God has in store for us....but he surely does love each one of us.....we must never feel shy to show our feeling.
Jyoti
As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me
She was my so called 'best friend '
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it...
After class, she walked up to me and
asked me for the notes
she had missed the day before
I handed them to her
She said 'thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
11th Grade....... ......... ......... ......... ....
The phone rang...On the other end,
it was her...She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her
love had broke her heart
She asked me to come over because
she didn't want to be alone, So I did
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine
After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips, she decided to go home
She looked at me, said 'thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
Senior year........ ......... ......... ......... .........
One fine day she walked to my locker
"My date is sick" she said, "hes not gonna go well",
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as 'best friends'
So we did...That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step
I stared at her as She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes
Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!" and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
Graduation.. ......... ......... ......... ......... ..
A day passed, then a week, then a month
Before I could blink, it was graduation day
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma
I wanted her to be mine-but
she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
and said- 'you're my best friend, thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
Marriage.... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......
Now I sit in the pews of the church
That girl is getting married now
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it...
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said 'you came! '
She said 'thanks' and left...
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
Death....... ......... ......... ......... ......... .......
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years
This is what it read:
"I stare at him wishing he was mine;
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him,
I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
I wish he would tell me he loved me ! "
...'I wish I did too'...
I thought to myself, and I cried...
"Do yourself a favour, tell her/him you love them...
They won't be there...Forever!
We never know what God has in store for us....but he surely does love each one of us.....we must never feel shy to show our feeling.
Jyoti
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Winter Funk- 09: Khuch Khaas hai!
Dancing is always exciting, fun and lots of masti, recently we performed in winter funk organized by SDIPA. It was indeed a great experience to share platform with professional dancers & choreographers. Here are few glimpse of the event….
But now since the show is over and next session will start after a short break… I am missing my dance classes that early Sunday morning sessions when I used to drag myself out of bed just to dance and live life for that very moment. Though I never liked that at that time but now when everything is over I am craving for more. Missing my dance classes…. Hope it will start soon ;o(
Jyoti
But now since the show is over and next session will start after a short break… I am missing my dance classes that early Sunday morning sessions when I used to drag myself out of bed just to dance and live life for that very moment. Though I never liked that at that time but now when everything is over I am craving for more. Missing my dance classes…. Hope it will start soon ;o(
Jyoti
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Just say sorry, and pay up!
It’s a tale of two tragedies, both man made disasters barely separated by month, which shattered the nation 25 years ago.
Two tragedies – The Bhopal gas disaster & the anti-Sikh riots. One happened in Bhopal & other in national capital. Both claimed approximately an equal number of lives- 3,000, though Bhopal toll grew in leaps & bound to touch 20,000 figures.
But that’s not all it’s also a tale of a blundering system, which failed to deliver adequate judgment…. even for tragedies of this magnitude. Despite the scale of tragedy, we failed to render justice to the victims in both the cases even after two & half decades.
Delhi massacre which was the consequence on Sikhs after Indira Gandhi was shot dead by one of her Sikh bodyguard. Bhopal tragedy on the other hand, was due to the leakage of deadly Methyl isocynate gas from Union Carbide Corp.
None of the leaders & officials accused of complicity in Delhi violence has been convicted. All that they did was created a sorry figure & moved ahead…. Only 20 people were convicted in mass murder held in the capital. Still that is more than what could be said about the Bhopal incident, where trial is supposed to be still going on.
So, as there are several similarities in both the case…. In terms of... Lack of judgment, Scale of the disaster, Minority involvement….. But all similarities vanishes when it comes to compensation for victims of the two man made disasters. While victims of anti- Sikh riots received Rs 7 lakh those of Bhopal disaster got merely Rs 12,410 even though data shows that the incident claimed 20,000 deaths & even today many are still suffering.
Is this the law of the land, where most of the time government has only one thing to do, Just say sorry and pay up. And trust me its not just government....we common people… have we ever thought of our responsibilities as an Indian, as a Human. If not, then just think… Is there nothing beyond power, money, and selfishness? Do you think in any way our acts as a society are justifiable in the court of humanity?
Jyoti
Ref: TOI
Two tragedies – The Bhopal gas disaster & the anti-Sikh riots. One happened in Bhopal & other in national capital. Both claimed approximately an equal number of lives- 3,000, though Bhopal toll grew in leaps & bound to touch 20,000 figures.
But that’s not all it’s also a tale of a blundering system, which failed to deliver adequate judgment…. even for tragedies of this magnitude. Despite the scale of tragedy, we failed to render justice to the victims in both the cases even after two & half decades.
Delhi massacre which was the consequence on Sikhs after Indira Gandhi was shot dead by one of her Sikh bodyguard. Bhopal tragedy on the other hand, was due to the leakage of deadly Methyl isocynate gas from Union Carbide Corp.
None of the leaders & officials accused of complicity in Delhi violence has been convicted. All that they did was created a sorry figure & moved ahead…. Only 20 people were convicted in mass murder held in the capital. Still that is more than what could be said about the Bhopal incident, where trial is supposed to be still going on.
So, as there are several similarities in both the case…. In terms of... Lack of judgment, Scale of the disaster, Minority involvement….. But all similarities vanishes when it comes to compensation for victims of the two man made disasters. While victims of anti- Sikh riots received Rs 7 lakh those of Bhopal disaster got merely Rs 12,410 even though data shows that the incident claimed 20,000 deaths & even today many are still suffering.
Is this the law of the land, where most of the time government has only one thing to do, Just say sorry and pay up. And trust me its not just government....we common people… have we ever thought of our responsibilities as an Indian, as a Human. If not, then just think… Is there nothing beyond power, money, and selfishness? Do you think in any way our acts as a society are justifiable in the court of humanity?
Jyoti
Ref: TOI
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Fingers crossed
“I am a very positive person & always believe in the ‘Glass half full' philosophy in life. I strongly believe that happiness is not something readymade. It comes from your own actions… And today somehow I made a wrong choice about my day… So it came up with lots of negative feelings. Some shades of it are also visible here in my post. So please bear with me….. I had a bad day” :(
It was a confusing and a creepy day… For few hours I had no clue about my state of mind….It all started in the morning when I was confused, then became upset, then confused, then angry with almost everything … then came this intuition that something somewhere is not correct.... And now still confused with don’t know what, but I am confused about being confused... and that makes me more confused... is that confusing or what?
Precisely I don’t quite know how I meant to feel!
Or is it because the most obvious answers are most often the ones we refuse to consider, as we always seem to see a trick in the question. Don't really know.
My body & soul were in disconnect…. But there was clear sign that something is not correct or something bad is going to happen….At one moment I felt that my head would burst into several small pieces….my body was shaking ....It was neither fear nor winter effect, I am sure... Maybe a residue of shock and or something else (I really don't know the word for it)...... And it took me 3-4 hours to finally stop shaking.
It was something unpredictable, but thankfully it is under control now.
Anyways... I am keeping my fingers crossed for the evening.
Please pray for me.
Jyoti
It was a confusing and a creepy day… For few hours I had no clue about my state of mind….It all started in the morning when I was confused, then became upset, then confused, then angry with almost everything … then came this intuition that something somewhere is not correct.... And now still confused with don’t know what, but I am confused about being confused... and that makes me more confused... is that confusing or what?
Precisely I don’t quite know how I meant to feel!
Or is it because the most obvious answers are most often the ones we refuse to consider, as we always seem to see a trick in the question. Don't really know.
My body & soul were in disconnect…. But there was clear sign that something is not correct or something bad is going to happen….At one moment I felt that my head would burst into several small pieces….my body was shaking ....It was neither fear nor winter effect, I am sure... Maybe a residue of shock and or something else (I really don't know the word for it)...... And it took me 3-4 hours to finally stop shaking.
It was something unpredictable, but thankfully it is under control now.
Anyways... I am keeping my fingers crossed for the evening.
Please pray for me.
Jyoti
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
It's Complicated
When I was a kid just having a chocolate or a small teddy bear was enough to make me happy. Now, to achieve the same level of happiness I guess I will require a number of intangible and tangible things which do not include that chocolate or a small teddy.
As we grow old we widen our horizons. We start demanding and needing more. As taught in marketing, we discover (or made to) our hidden needs. Wants become so much profound over our needs that we consider them equivalent to needs. There is an old saying about the frog inside the well. He knows just about the well and has no idea about the outside world. This is, as taught to us, a bad thing. But can't we compare this frog to the kids who know nothing but are happier than the supremely knowledgeable human beings treading this planet.
Goodness! I want to be back in School again and want to learn and be tested and be told to follow a discipline and to take orders. It was just so so endearing and wonderful to spend time with your friends…those long pointless talks, those silly arguments, all that fun and frolic, that purity & innocence, … I am missing it.
Being grown up is not that bad but I guess, in this phase we start taking life and ourselves too seriously. We become the victim of our own needs. Needs which are supposed to bring happiness. Which in the short run do bring happiness but evaporate soon enough. Thus one is bound to slog hard throughout his/her life for that blissful state of mind. In the process we become responsible not only for ourselves but also for others. Then begins the cycle of compromises and subduing of aspirations.
But people will argue this is how life is. Hard, cruel, multifaceted and it's complicated.... So I guess God should send us with a manual of Life to find a way around for this complicated thing.
Jyoti
As we grow old we widen our horizons. We start demanding and needing more. As taught in marketing, we discover (or made to) our hidden needs. Wants become so much profound over our needs that we consider them equivalent to needs. There is an old saying about the frog inside the well. He knows just about the well and has no idea about the outside world. This is, as taught to us, a bad thing. But can't we compare this frog to the kids who know nothing but are happier than the supremely knowledgeable human beings treading this planet.
Goodness! I want to be back in School again and want to learn and be tested and be told to follow a discipline and to take orders. It was just so so endearing and wonderful to spend time with your friends…those long pointless talks, those silly arguments, all that fun and frolic, that purity & innocence, … I am missing it.
Being grown up is not that bad but I guess, in this phase we start taking life and ourselves too seriously. We become the victim of our own needs. Needs which are supposed to bring happiness. Which in the short run do bring happiness but evaporate soon enough. Thus one is bound to slog hard throughout his/her life for that blissful state of mind. In the process we become responsible not only for ourselves but also for others. Then begins the cycle of compromises and subduing of aspirations.
But people will argue this is how life is. Hard, cruel, multifaceted and it's complicated.... So I guess God should send us with a manual of Life to find a way around for this complicated thing.
Jyoti
Thursday, November 26, 2009
The Pepsi Culture
Recently I was watching something about generation gap…… And after that I figured out few traits emblematic to this generation …….
Ours is a Fast generation with cell phones, internet and all sort of technological boons. Things which were next to impossible few years ago are part of our day to day life. All these things has definately made things simpler & made this world to shrink.
As far as Indian youngsters are concerned many things have changed for them in last decade………..
Typical heavy Indian Paranthas & Sabzi are now replaced by Pizzas, burgers, sandwiches, cold drinks, Pasta, Maggi…..‘Bas do minute’ that’s what our mantra is... we have adopted the so called "Pepsi Culture"…. And Like Fast foods life has become so fast….. We are the fast talkers, fast texters, selective listeners, less tolerant, more aggressive, fast movers…...(Literally also).
We have become ‘Surfilicious’ with new things to get addicted with….these addiction includes Facebook, Twitter, Orkut, Blogging, You tube……Email is by far an old thing now. All these things are also useful for creating our so called ‘Social network’ ;)
My version of this Pepsi Culture may seem bit funny but I guess these small things are related to our generation and we can definitely associate ourselves with these. So, be proud of this 'Pepsi Culture' ;)
Luv
Jyoti
Ours is a Fast generation with cell phones, internet and all sort of technological boons. Things which were next to impossible few years ago are part of our day to day life. All these things has definately made things simpler & made this world to shrink.
As far as Indian youngsters are concerned many things have changed for them in last decade………..
Typical heavy Indian Paranthas & Sabzi are now replaced by Pizzas, burgers, sandwiches, cold drinks, Pasta, Maggi…..‘Bas do minute’ that’s what our mantra is... we have adopted the so called "Pepsi Culture"…. And Like Fast foods life has become so fast….. We are the fast talkers, fast texters, selective listeners, less tolerant, more aggressive, fast movers…...(Literally also).
We have become ‘Surfilicious’ with new things to get addicted with….these addiction includes Facebook, Twitter, Orkut, Blogging, You tube……Email is by far an old thing now. All these things are also useful for creating our so called ‘Social network’ ;)
My version of this Pepsi Culture may seem bit funny but I guess these small things are related to our generation and we can definitely associate ourselves with these. So, be proud of this 'Pepsi Culture' ;)
Luv
Jyoti
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
London Trip
Before the excitement of a memorable place dies away in my mind; I decided to write something about my first visit, to London here and create some space in my hard drive.
I had seen London so many times thanks to Yash Raj and Karan Johar… they made Europe so closed to every Indian by showing every nook and corner of these places in their movies. But this was really REAL. And it was hundred times beautiful then any movie I have ever seen. It’s a wonderful feeling no doubt. I guess reality can only fascinating if it is dreamy. I am in that dream so far.
First of all, I can’t believe I was there. It’s like being fascinated with a certain idea, but not giving a thought that the idea could be reality some day. Now, that it was reality (I pinched myself and have confirmed this), it seems all surreal. That big bridge over that huge Thames River, those huge buildings of all shapes and sizes…from that small window on my flight….that was the only scene visible to me… I was so excited about the whole idea of visiting London.
But before I could enjoy this wonderful city… Destiny had few surprises for me. I LOST MY LUGGAGE… everything money, cloths, food, camera…. I lost it all in this absolutely new & strange city. And I was in complete shock… this can’t happen to me… Why me??? Were the questions all around me…. Excitement, enthusiasm, happiness, eagerness…. All has suddenly changed into……Complains, sadness, tears, confusion….
But elegance and beauty of this city didn’t allow me to stay in that status for long time…. And I just forgot everything about that bad incidence…….
Walking in the streets of London was a joy. It’s a relief, in a way, that you stop existing and everything outside of you takes your attention. It’s like being a part of the play and a spectator at the same time. Yes, and it would definitely help if your shoes are comfortable too…. Since I lost everything but my snickers… which were so comfortable that I loved those long long walks.
All the buildings look colonial. In the evening with the dim lightings, the buildings look grander. I don’t know whether it is to match the architectural beauty or not, but if you are not looking at the buildings you can look at people around and boys in particular… lol. I guess it could also be the other way round. The buildings have a certain disadvantage with the folk of London around. When you pass by the buildings you don’t smell lovely perfumes.
Talking of spirits, that’s one thing that you would not fall short of. Beer is available in plenty in even the ‘General Stores’. People with me prefer beer over water and I pity on myself…. Poor me, is still searching for that plain… tasteless… colorless Water.
It’s hard to walk for five minutes without having seen a pub. The pubs are peculiar in one respect though. They will have fancy Menu Cards being displayed on their windows boasting about their food varieties. But, the kitchen closes at 5 in the evening. I guess, people have their dinner during the lunch time.
Hmm ... Food. Well, I would say, what’s the point of being in such a lovely place if you have to die of hunger? It’s impossible to survive on the English food. Well, you could survive actually, just that you would need to add a lot of ketchup to it. The food is cold and bland. But it has certain advantages which are quite evident. Having such qualities that I have mentioned, English don’t eat a lot. Since they don’t eat a lot, they don’t become sloppy, it does wonder to their work efficiency. Since the meals are not elaborate, they could be had while doing your work. But actually, I don’t mind the English Breakfasts and their salads….. n butter. But after that for lunch and dinner Subway was my only option. Thank God they were there otherwise I don’t know how I would have survived.
Transportation is something that the English should be proud of. Be it bus (the red Hiphops for tourists) or train transport, a literate man could read his way through to any part of London. Travelling in a tube is also an experience. I am sure, if I was to ask each and every person in the tube, their country of origin, I would get more than 5 distinct answers. The instructions and directions have put in place assuming that it’s your first day in London. Tube stations also offer another important facet. People playing music for money. They don’t seem like beggars at all. I could not help but stand in awe at the music they played. It’s not just the normal guitar but the electric guitar with set of speakers.
London Eye, Museums (having things from all over the world including famous Khoinoor replica, Natraj statue, Mummies from Egypt and lot more), Bridges with unique functionalities, Madam Tussaud statues, Beautiful churches, Wonderful gardens…. Those maple leaves (I still have them in my diary)…. All just perfect.
I saw all these when we were lost in that big city…. only three of us....With map in our hand (it was not great help as I have to rely on my judgement only as other two were bad with Maps & directions)….. so collectively we decided to explore the entire city and use this opportunity of being lost. We just followed our conscious and yes map of course.
The weather being so nice, walking being so comfortable, the landscape so beautiful and the convenience thought of at each and every point … the mind remains clear. It’s simple, when you are outside walking on the road, and you don’t see any poverty, any traffic or any kind of pollution, the mind remains at rest. You don’t carry any of it home where things are as comfortable: - Carpeted houses with heaters, Windows that don’t make noises when the wind blows, not a gap where the cold from the outside leaks inside. In such circumstances, when your physical self is at rest, the only problems that would bother you are the ones that you have created for yourself. But it may be quite to the extent where you might start feeling lonely.
Well, tried to note everything that came to mind down here, but one part remains. The people of London. Unfortunately, the only interaction that I have had is asking people for directions, where they have been very polite. Or talking to the Hotel receptionist where she has been very helpful. As for now, they seem to be a witty lot who would keep a certain distance always.
There are certain interesting facts that I have noted so far.
People here don’t drink water. There are no beggars on the streets. People with vehicles don’t honk without any reason. People come to office with foldable cycles. Girls like to get pierced on all sorts of places on the face. There were more girls than guys in a tube compartment. At least, I didn’t like that. People walk fast with no reason at all. There are no stray dogs. You get free newspapers which come with single headlines of somebody being stabbed or getting drunk. The cost of repair may exceed the cost of the equipment itself. It rains any time. They don’t frisk bags while coming or going out of offices. Showrooms don’t keep your luggage bags as you do shopping. Eat fish n chips, and you know chips taste better than the fish. You realize you are not born here. You forget that not less 65 years ago, these guys were still ruling your country.
All said and done, I think it’s hard not to appreciate the fact that it’s a wonderful city that these guys have built and right now I am just happy of having got the chance to come here.
And Like most of Hindi movies I got my luggage bag which I can never expect in India…. And with all cash in hand I did some shopping……and purchased lots of chocolates for everyone. It was indeed a great experience.
Luv, Jyoti
I had seen London so many times thanks to Yash Raj and Karan Johar… they made Europe so closed to every Indian by showing every nook and corner of these places in their movies. But this was really REAL. And it was hundred times beautiful then any movie I have ever seen. It’s a wonderful feeling no doubt. I guess reality can only fascinating if it is dreamy. I am in that dream so far.
First of all, I can’t believe I was there. It’s like being fascinated with a certain idea, but not giving a thought that the idea could be reality some day. Now, that it was reality (I pinched myself and have confirmed this), it seems all surreal. That big bridge over that huge Thames River, those huge buildings of all shapes and sizes…from that small window on my flight….that was the only scene visible to me… I was so excited about the whole idea of visiting London.
But before I could enjoy this wonderful city… Destiny had few surprises for me. I LOST MY LUGGAGE… everything money, cloths, food, camera…. I lost it all in this absolutely new & strange city. And I was in complete shock… this can’t happen to me… Why me??? Were the questions all around me…. Excitement, enthusiasm, happiness, eagerness…. All has suddenly changed into……Complains, sadness, tears, confusion….
But elegance and beauty of this city didn’t allow me to stay in that status for long time…. And I just forgot everything about that bad incidence…….
Walking in the streets of London was a joy. It’s a relief, in a way, that you stop existing and everything outside of you takes your attention. It’s like being a part of the play and a spectator at the same time. Yes, and it would definitely help if your shoes are comfortable too…. Since I lost everything but my snickers… which were so comfortable that I loved those long long walks.
All the buildings look colonial. In the evening with the dim lightings, the buildings look grander. I don’t know whether it is to match the architectural beauty or not, but if you are not looking at the buildings you can look at people around and boys in particular… lol. I guess it could also be the other way round. The buildings have a certain disadvantage with the folk of London around. When you pass by the buildings you don’t smell lovely perfumes.
Talking of spirits, that’s one thing that you would not fall short of. Beer is available in plenty in even the ‘General Stores’. People with me prefer beer over water and I pity on myself…. Poor me, is still searching for that plain… tasteless… colorless Water.
It’s hard to walk for five minutes without having seen a pub. The pubs are peculiar in one respect though. They will have fancy Menu Cards being displayed on their windows boasting about their food varieties. But, the kitchen closes at 5 in the evening. I guess, people have their dinner during the lunch time.
Hmm ... Food. Well, I would say, what’s the point of being in such a lovely place if you have to die of hunger? It’s impossible to survive on the English food. Well, you could survive actually, just that you would need to add a lot of ketchup to it. The food is cold and bland. But it has certain advantages which are quite evident. Having such qualities that I have mentioned, English don’t eat a lot. Since they don’t eat a lot, they don’t become sloppy, it does wonder to their work efficiency. Since the meals are not elaborate, they could be had while doing your work. But actually, I don’t mind the English Breakfasts and their salads….. n butter. But after that for lunch and dinner Subway was my only option. Thank God they were there otherwise I don’t know how I would have survived.
Transportation is something that the English should be proud of. Be it bus (the red Hiphops for tourists) or train transport, a literate man could read his way through to any part of London. Travelling in a tube is also an experience. I am sure, if I was to ask each and every person in the tube, their country of origin, I would get more than 5 distinct answers. The instructions and directions have put in place assuming that it’s your first day in London. Tube stations also offer another important facet. People playing music for money. They don’t seem like beggars at all. I could not help but stand in awe at the music they played. It’s not just the normal guitar but the electric guitar with set of speakers.
London Eye, Museums (having things from all over the world including famous Khoinoor replica, Natraj statue, Mummies from Egypt and lot more), Bridges with unique functionalities, Madam Tussaud statues, Beautiful churches, Wonderful gardens…. Those maple leaves (I still have them in my diary)…. All just perfect.
I saw all these when we were lost in that big city…. only three of us....With map in our hand (it was not great help as I have to rely on my judgement only as other two were bad with Maps & directions)….. so collectively we decided to explore the entire city and use this opportunity of being lost. We just followed our conscious and yes map of course.
The weather being so nice, walking being so comfortable, the landscape so beautiful and the convenience thought of at each and every point … the mind remains clear. It’s simple, when you are outside walking on the road, and you don’t see any poverty, any traffic or any kind of pollution, the mind remains at rest. You don’t carry any of it home where things are as comfortable: - Carpeted houses with heaters, Windows that don’t make noises when the wind blows, not a gap where the cold from the outside leaks inside. In such circumstances, when your physical self is at rest, the only problems that would bother you are the ones that you have created for yourself. But it may be quite to the extent where you might start feeling lonely.
Well, tried to note everything that came to mind down here, but one part remains. The people of London. Unfortunately, the only interaction that I have had is asking people for directions, where they have been very polite. Or talking to the Hotel receptionist where she has been very helpful. As for now, they seem to be a witty lot who would keep a certain distance always.
There are certain interesting facts that I have noted so far.
People here don’t drink water. There are no beggars on the streets. People with vehicles don’t honk without any reason. People come to office with foldable cycles. Girls like to get pierced on all sorts of places on the face. There were more girls than guys in a tube compartment. At least, I didn’t like that. People walk fast with no reason at all. There are no stray dogs. You get free newspapers which come with single headlines of somebody being stabbed or getting drunk. The cost of repair may exceed the cost of the equipment itself. It rains any time. They don’t frisk bags while coming or going out of offices. Showrooms don’t keep your luggage bags as you do shopping. Eat fish n chips, and you know chips taste better than the fish. You realize you are not born here. You forget that not less 65 years ago, these guys were still ruling your country.
All said and done, I think it’s hard not to appreciate the fact that it’s a wonderful city that these guys have built and right now I am just happy of having got the chance to come here.
And Like most of Hindi movies I got my luggage bag which I can never expect in India…. And with all cash in hand I did some shopping……and purchased lots of chocolates for everyone. It was indeed a great experience.
Luv, Jyoti
Friday, November 20, 2009
The Pilgrimage
I started reading Paulo Caulo’s books few months ago after recommendation by a friend. First book that I started with was ‘Brida’ and it has left a great impact on me and in two days I finished and read it again & again… It was simply ultimate…. A master piece.
‘Brida’ forced me to read all books of the author each an ultimate gift in itself. I finished Pilgrimage few hours ago and it had, like ‘The Alchemist’, ‘The Valkyrines’ ,‘Veronica decides to die’……. left a very profound effect on my spiritual life.
I connected with experiences written in the book... its exercises…shadow approach for decision making… the fear of failure….the cruelty exercise....the legion…the messenger... the omens. My favorite ‘The Burial exercise’ was really breathtaking…. I felt Goosebumps because of the amazing experience, the description of the scene was simply awesome. Though sword and magic were secondary things for people like me. But the entire journey of ‘The Road of Santigo’ by ‘the common man’ had lots of teaching to offer.
It’s a great feeling to experience teaching with imagination…. It feels amazing when a book reveals its secrets in front of you as if things are just happening right there. I imagine myself singing, getting into trance & walking the path to discover my sword. When I read ‘The Pilgrimage’ it filled me with the feeling of joy, consciousness, courage and hopes to follow my heart.
I feel incredibly enriched and renewed after each read. It stirs my soul and my mind up. It’s indeed a source of inspiration and illumination. Really lovely.
Just want to say thanks to author for this encouraging, outstanding, enriching experience... of 'The Pilgrimage'... like The Pilgrim!
Inspired :)
Jyoti
‘Brida’ forced me to read all books of the author each an ultimate gift in itself. I finished Pilgrimage few hours ago and it had, like ‘The Alchemist’, ‘The Valkyrines’ ,‘Veronica decides to die’……. left a very profound effect on my spiritual life.
I connected with experiences written in the book... its exercises…shadow approach for decision making… the fear of failure….the cruelty exercise....the legion…the messenger... the omens. My favorite ‘The Burial exercise’ was really breathtaking…. I felt Goosebumps because of the amazing experience, the description of the scene was simply awesome. Though sword and magic were secondary things for people like me. But the entire journey of ‘The Road of Santigo’ by ‘the common man’ had lots of teaching to offer.
It’s a great feeling to experience teaching with imagination…. It feels amazing when a book reveals its secrets in front of you as if things are just happening right there. I imagine myself singing, getting into trance & walking the path to discover my sword. When I read ‘The Pilgrimage’ it filled me with the feeling of joy, consciousness, courage and hopes to follow my heart.
I feel incredibly enriched and renewed after each read. It stirs my soul and my mind up. It’s indeed a source of inspiration and illumination. Really lovely.
Just want to say thanks to author for this encouraging, outstanding, enriching experience... of 'The Pilgrimage'... like The Pilgrim!
Inspired :)
Jyoti
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Legion
Legion, a sea…of People....which is present in every nook and corner. And 'the One thing' which I know I can never understand… I am really a dumb when it comes to dealing with people… they sometimes seems to be so complicated.
I am not perfect - I have my faults - one of my faults is not being able to tolerate others faults. But today I am just wondering how many chances you need to give to someone until they notice they are doing something wrong?
Some of them are so good with words that they can make you believe anything...however what matters are their actions. That's what bother me.... Neither the word nor the action seems to compliment each other & I become clueless in front of them.
Some people would not remember the times they've been far from perfect, before they are so quick to criticize others for their faults. Why the hell they don’t see their faults….. And if they say so for the sake of being honest to everyone except to themselves ….. Then I guess they should know that, if people were as brutally honest as mirrors and scales, none of us would have any friends.
And there are some totally opposite, they appears to be very sweet n friendly as if they are the biggest well wisher one can ever have. It makes me think that, how have some people got the nerve to be so nice to your face knowing they have done you so very wrong? That’s the Face off which I just can’t tolerate.
But then all these are the traits of people everywhere….. You can’t ignore all this… you have to face it whether you like it or not.... As for all negatives there is always a positive so search for the positivety!
It's up to you to make a choice.....
Should you find yourself a victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities remember things could be worse ~ You could be one of them!
OR........ Keep smiling- Sometimes the people you are smiling at don't return the gesture, they are the ones who need a smile the most. So smile because you can't please all of the people all of the time... so Fuck Them All and please yourself!!!
Positivity is key, live it, love it, embrace it!
“Jealousy is tacky. Instead, admire another's beauty & let it inspire you because tearing them down will only show others just how ugly you really are."
Peace & Luv
Jyoti :)
I am not perfect - I have my faults - one of my faults is not being able to tolerate others faults. But today I am just wondering how many chances you need to give to someone until they notice they are doing something wrong?
Some of them are so good with words that they can make you believe anything...however what matters are their actions. That's what bother me.... Neither the word nor the action seems to compliment each other & I become clueless in front of them.
Some people would not remember the times they've been far from perfect, before they are so quick to criticize others for their faults. Why the hell they don’t see their faults….. And if they say so for the sake of being honest to everyone except to themselves ….. Then I guess they should know that, if people were as brutally honest as mirrors and scales, none of us would have any friends.
And there are some totally opposite, they appears to be very sweet n friendly as if they are the biggest well wisher one can ever have. It makes me think that, how have some people got the nerve to be so nice to your face knowing they have done you so very wrong? That’s the Face off which I just can’t tolerate.
But then all these are the traits of people everywhere….. You can’t ignore all this… you have to face it whether you like it or not.... As for all negatives there is always a positive so search for the positivety!
It's up to you to make a choice.....
Should you find yourself a victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities remember things could be worse ~ You could be one of them!
OR........ Keep smiling- Sometimes the people you are smiling at don't return the gesture, they are the ones who need a smile the most. So smile because you can't please all of the people all of the time... so Fuck Them All and please yourself!!!
Positivity is key, live it, love it, embrace it!
“Jealousy is tacky. Instead, admire another's beauty & let it inspire you because tearing them down will only show others just how ugly you really are."
Peace & Luv
Jyoti :)
Monday, November 16, 2009
With Smiles :) :)
College Life has been a real challenge for me. Not the studies, but people. People I lived with, ate with, enjoyed for these years have been mysterious to me sometimes. The way they would act at situations, which I would completely get crazy at…are most surprising. And so is vice-verse. I've met people with brains, a lot of brains. So much of that thinking liquid in their skull, enough to flood a village full of happiness…. And people for whom even a simple plus minus calculation seems to be the toughest job of there life…. Extremes.
People would think what other may think of them. And then each step is preplanned, as if they aren't living, they are fighting. Don't know what they fought for, but it was sure enough that I was becoming one of them. Leastwise I could understand what's going on! Sometimes even I got caught between fights of my own friends.
And in all this I found someone, who wasn't corrupt yet. No mind games. Just heart…. Do what ever you feel has been the mantra. I'm talking about a kid who stays with in me; yeah she surely is…..
It's not everybody's cup of tea to let loose them even if they aren't drunk! Big thing! But one thing she's always sure of is that she's not sure of anything. Clueless!!! I mean how can someone be so cool and confusing at the same time? You should see her work when she's thought of doing it. Perfect.
Adding to this she's an actor, a dance, a painter, an extravagant, a fun loving kid celebrating magical festive season called life… a truly innocent soul away from all gimmicks of this earth…
Time changed!! The outside world has corrupted her…. my sweet little angle… She has started thinking, saving, and stop having fun, clean fun that those years gave her. What has not changed yet are those eyes they are still the truth, they still has that child like eagerness to explore things. But don't know for how long…. People around her are forcing her to change every moment. Any ways She is still the angel with little thinking brain now :)
Look I almost forgot the idea with which I started this post…
Anyways day before yesterday when I was going to office I saw these two college girls they were standing near the road and doing some gossips…. Giggling... and I felt that they have this golden period when they can enjoy there life to fullest & today when I passed from the same route I saw these two girls fighting…. And I felt so bad because even I had a big fight with one of my friend and after that we lost touch…. Though things got better and we met almost after 3-4 years… but we really regretted that fight for some stupid thing. I wish these two girls also resolve their differences soon as friends are very special one can't afford to loose them…. Really waiting for tomorrow when I can see them again…. But this time with smiles on their faces!!
Luv
Jyoti
People would think what other may think of them. And then each step is preplanned, as if they aren't living, they are fighting. Don't know what they fought for, but it was sure enough that I was becoming one of them. Leastwise I could understand what's going on! Sometimes even I got caught between fights of my own friends.
And in all this I found someone, who wasn't corrupt yet. No mind games. Just heart…. Do what ever you feel has been the mantra. I'm talking about a kid who stays with in me; yeah she surely is…..
It's not everybody's cup of tea to let loose them even if they aren't drunk! Big thing! But one thing she's always sure of is that she's not sure of anything. Clueless!!! I mean how can someone be so cool and confusing at the same time? You should see her work when she's thought of doing it. Perfect.
Adding to this she's an actor, a dance, a painter, an extravagant, a fun loving kid celebrating magical festive season called life… a truly innocent soul away from all gimmicks of this earth…
Time changed!! The outside world has corrupted her…. my sweet little angle… She has started thinking, saving, and stop having fun, clean fun that those years gave her. What has not changed yet are those eyes they are still the truth, they still has that child like eagerness to explore things. But don't know for how long…. People around her are forcing her to change every moment. Any ways She is still the angel with little thinking brain now :)
Look I almost forgot the idea with which I started this post…
Anyways day before yesterday when I was going to office I saw these two college girls they were standing near the road and doing some gossips…. Giggling... and I felt that they have this golden period when they can enjoy there life to fullest & today when I passed from the same route I saw these two girls fighting…. And I felt so bad because even I had a big fight with one of my friend and after that we lost touch…. Though things got better and we met almost after 3-4 years… but we really regretted that fight for some stupid thing. I wish these two girls also resolve their differences soon as friends are very special one can't afford to loose them…. Really waiting for tomorrow when I can see them again…. But this time with smiles on their faces!!
Luv
Jyoti
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Wonderful World :o)
I m smiling, singing ♥ ♥ and feeling like sitting on a rainbow and the sun is shining on me. And I think to myself: what a wonderful woooooorld :o).
It’s not because of any reason… it’s just that… I'm a believer in chasing rainbows, because the biggest accomplishments always start as impossible dreams.
And am planning for something similar these days…. Just that final touch is left. As we say for life, that “Life is like a rose bush, you have to cut of the dead parts that hold you back so you can blossom.” So, I am also cutting few of these for me to blossom once again. And while doing this Life seems to be a treat for me.
One thing which I learned in past few days which I feel worth sharing out here is that, “Happiness is not about getting what we want....it's about appreciating what we have” and I m finally appreciating mine… & it’s such a nice feeling.It's indeed a Wonderful World :o)
Luv, Jyoti
It’s not because of any reason… it’s just that… I'm a believer in chasing rainbows, because the biggest accomplishments always start as impossible dreams.
And am planning for something similar these days…. Just that final touch is left. As we say for life, that “Life is like a rose bush, you have to cut of the dead parts that hold you back so you can blossom.” So, I am also cutting few of these for me to blossom once again. And while doing this Life seems to be a treat for me.
One thing which I learned in past few days which I feel worth sharing out here is that, “Happiness is not about getting what we want....it's about appreciating what we have” and I m finally appreciating mine… & it’s such a nice feeling.It's indeed a Wonderful World :o)
Luv, Jyoti
Friday, November 13, 2009
Thank God for Fridays!
Got up late today, couldn't cook……. it was a crazy day at work… was piled up with many things… participated in collage art at office that was weird……. system was acting crazy… Lotus Notes Mail acting spooky …… Lost my keys …… Broke my sandal!
Looks like Friday the 13th has started its spell!!!!
Yet... it's Friday, and I am happy all over again.
And that's all that matters, No matter what happens, it's your choice... Own the day!!!!
& I choose to be happy today... coz it's a Friday!!! :D :D
Peace
Jyoti
Looks like Friday the 13th has started its spell!!!!
Yet... it's Friday, and I am happy all over again.
And that's all that matters, No matter what happens, it's your choice... Own the day!!!!
& I choose to be happy today... coz it's a Friday!!! :D :D
Peace
Jyoti
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Emotions...
Emotions & Memories sometimes plays a very confusing game… they makes you laugh, When you remember the time you cried together….. But makes you cry when you remember the time you laughed together!!!
When the heart takes over the mind. When a rush of emotion penetrates the being. When warmth pass through the flush on our skin. But still you feel that snowstorm of morning cold. When dew shaped invisible sea begin to grow under the eyes & reach to suffocate the throat. When the hair tingles upon the arms and wrists. When a strange feeling appears in stomach as if someone is churning it. When words fail to form…….Then can we safely say that we have been overtaken by emotion!!
Failure, negativity, obtuse comment, wrongful accusation, suffering physicality, mental and real, anger, annoyance and distress, frustration and anxiety and all possible manifestations of disruption, irritation and dislike, all pale in this uncontrollable feel of emotion!!!
I am still not able to understand this mysterious feeling called EMOTIONS... even though it happens with me very often :)
Jyoti... with Luv
When the heart takes over the mind. When a rush of emotion penetrates the being. When warmth pass through the flush on our skin. But still you feel that snowstorm of morning cold. When dew shaped invisible sea begin to grow under the eyes & reach to suffocate the throat. When the hair tingles upon the arms and wrists. When a strange feeling appears in stomach as if someone is churning it. When words fail to form…….Then can we safely say that we have been overtaken by emotion!!
Failure, negativity, obtuse comment, wrongful accusation, suffering physicality, mental and real, anger, annoyance and distress, frustration and anxiety and all possible manifestations of disruption, irritation and dislike, all pale in this uncontrollable feel of emotion!!!
I am still not able to understand this mysterious feeling called EMOTIONS... even though it happens with me very often :)
Jyoti... with Luv
Sunday, November 8, 2009
My new treasure ;)
As I mentioned earlier in my blog that I wanted to buy a camera for myself to cherish my dreams of doing photography… however it never happened. :))
Guess what, Finally I bought one after trying for almost a year or I guess two …It was not a planned effort, coz whenever I planned, it never happened… So this time I just went, I saw & I conquered.
This final triumph was of my heart above my over judgmental mind!!!
I was very excited about this new treasure of mine….. Photo session as expected…. happened and result of the same can be trailed on facebook on the very same day. ;)
But I was not happy I wanted something more, some thing really nice, which could make me more cheerful. I thought of going somewhere & capture some nice snaps… but where? A near by historical place, beach, forest… totally confused.
And I decided to stay at home…….. That’s when I looked outside and saw this marvelous creation in the Garden of Eden just in front of my eyes. Yes I got my first model it’s none other then Mother Nature, at its best.
Every thing around me was just too perfect to capture in this tiny camera with amateur hands of mine… nevertheless I tried my best & took some pictures as a foretaste of nature…..these may seem totally useless for others but, they has this special place in my heart & in my blog as well.
I guess its nothing wrong in saying that, Best things in the life are for free… and so was my experience with this wonderful nature around me.
Furthermore, now days I am taking so many pictures & I m just loving this new hobby which my new treasure has inculcated in me.
Guess what, Finally I bought one after trying for almost a year or I guess two …It was not a planned effort, coz whenever I planned, it never happened… So this time I just went, I saw & I conquered.
This final triumph was of my heart above my over judgmental mind!!!
I was very excited about this new treasure of mine….. Photo session as expected…. happened and result of the same can be trailed on facebook on the very same day. ;)
But I was not happy I wanted something more, some thing really nice, which could make me more cheerful. I thought of going somewhere & capture some nice snaps… but where? A near by historical place, beach, forest… totally confused.
And I decided to stay at home…….. That’s when I looked outside and saw this marvelous creation in the Garden of Eden just in front of my eyes. Yes I got my first model it’s none other then Mother Nature, at its best.
Every thing around me was just too perfect to capture in this tiny camera with amateur hands of mine… nevertheless I tried my best & took some pictures as a foretaste of nature…..these may seem totally useless for others but, they has this special place in my heart & in my blog as well.
I guess its nothing wrong in saying that, Best things in the life are for free… and so was my experience with this wonderful nature around me.
Furthermore, now days I am taking so many pictures & I m just loving this new hobby which my new treasure has inculcated in me.
Friday, November 6, 2009
..... ;)
Plants doesn't grow because they has an answer for Sun,
They grow because they have life.
Seasons doesn't change because they has an answer for others,
They change because that is the reality!!
Clouds doesn't rain because it has an answer for summers,
It rains because it has water.
A bird doesn't sings because it has an answer for nature,
It sings because it has a song!!
Dancers doesn't dance because they has an answer for the world,
They dance because they have passion.
I don't write because I have an answer for all this,
I write because I have Obsession!!
Poet: Jyoti......... lol
They grow because they have life.
Seasons doesn't change because they has an answer for others,
They change because that is the reality!!
Clouds doesn't rain because it has an answer for summers,
It rains because it has water.
A bird doesn't sings because it has an answer for nature,
It sings because it has a song!!
Dancers doesn't dance because they has an answer for the world,
They dance because they have passion.
I don't write because I have an answer for all this,
I write because I have Obsession!!
Poet: Jyoti......... lol
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Master Blaster!!!
Was watching Match today India vs. Australia, result was certainly disappointing as India Lost by just 3 runs... :(( but after dam good chase…. Of 350 Runs and defeat by only 3 runs… it was just amazing. It was really good Cricket.
But the main attraction of the match was Sachin… one of the greatest batsmen in the history of cricket, crossed the 17,000 milestone during his 435th game…..Master Blaster is highest scorer in both one day & test cricket as of now.
Superb shots by Mr. Perfect have kept every one glued up in front of idiot box. That was the moment when I felt that Cricket is still a religion here in my India.
These days though I don't watch too much cricket, because of various reasons. But it was not the case earlier, I have grown up watching Sachin playing cricket, for me he is another name of cricket. Bunking lectures in college just to watch India playing and Sachin's batting in particular. Those fantabulous sixes and amazing fours, that passion for cricket, this little man is indeed a great creation of God.
And as far as Cricket is concern, in real terms he is the God for cricket. I just can't imagine Indian team without him.
It was one of the amazing games and certainly one of the best innings ever from Sachin. He has once again conquered all hearts. Mr. Man of the match of many games is in real sense is "THE MAN OF THE CRICKET"…. I wish his innings in Cricket never ends!!
Kudos to Mr. Little Master Blaster!!!
Jyoti
But the main attraction of the match was Sachin… one of the greatest batsmen in the history of cricket, crossed the 17,000 milestone during his 435th game…..Master Blaster is highest scorer in both one day & test cricket as of now.
Superb shots by Mr. Perfect have kept every one glued up in front of idiot box. That was the moment when I felt that Cricket is still a religion here in my India.
These days though I don't watch too much cricket, because of various reasons. But it was not the case earlier, I have grown up watching Sachin playing cricket, for me he is another name of cricket. Bunking lectures in college just to watch India playing and Sachin's batting in particular. Those fantabulous sixes and amazing fours, that passion for cricket, this little man is indeed a great creation of God.
And as far as Cricket is concern, in real terms he is the God for cricket. I just can't imagine Indian team without him.
It was one of the amazing games and certainly one of the best innings ever from Sachin. He has once again conquered all hearts. Mr. Man of the match of many games is in real sense is "THE MAN OF THE CRICKET"…. I wish his innings in Cricket never ends!!
Kudos to Mr. Little Master Blaster!!!
Jyoti
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Winter has arrived!
My blanket is more contented these days…. Showing attitude to me. Those shorts of mine on the other hand have a feeling of negligence. Fans & AC's are bit relaxed like my mom after seeing that electricity bill. Gardens are greener…. Flowers started blooming and I for a change am happy to take that long long walk by road side without covering my face with that two three coats of suns cream….. Hurray!!! Winter has arrived!
Time for those woolen clothes, those overcoats… those chilled nights, long sleeps, small days, good fruits, lots of masti without caring for those suntans… those sticky cold creams, Lovely flowers, beautiful mornings, fires….. And yes as Bangalore's weather has a complimentary offer of rain with winter so an additional colorful umbrella, morning tea in that cozy room with 'Rajai' on.……… Yes, Winter has arrived!
And Yes, "I am on a sneezing spree"……. Another sign that winters has arrived!!!
Me again :D
Time for those woolen clothes, those overcoats… those chilled nights, long sleeps, small days, good fruits, lots of masti without caring for those suntans… those sticky cold creams, Lovely flowers, beautiful mornings, fires….. And yes as Bangalore's weather has a complimentary offer of rain with winter so an additional colorful umbrella, morning tea in that cozy room with 'Rajai' on.……… Yes, Winter has arrived!
And Yes, "I am on a sneezing spree"……. Another sign that winters has arrived!!!
Me again :D
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
CrossRoads
At the crossroads of my life
past forgotten,
I stand with a heavy heart
future so uncertain!
As the glow in my eyes
fades away,
I wonder if the dreams are gone
or are here to stay!
I follow my heart like a gypsy
to the pole star ,
The world mocks at me
my happiness mars!
My spirit struggles
to be set free,
All the while screaming
let me be me!
And then someone
comes along,
Bringing music
like a long forgotten song!
A melody I've never
heard before,
As I sing along and then
together in encore!
Where did I find the words
that I say?
Why do the stars twinkle in the day?
Then the stranger comes
along the way,
Whispering in the wind
now that I came.
I am here to stay !!!
My eyes see the world anew,
I promise,
to give my life to you!!!!
past forgotten,
I stand with a heavy heart
future so uncertain!
As the glow in my eyes
fades away,
I wonder if the dreams are gone
or are here to stay!
I follow my heart like a gypsy
to the pole star ,
The world mocks at me
my happiness mars!
My spirit struggles
to be set free,
All the while screaming
let me be me!
And then someone
comes along,
Bringing music
like a long forgotten song!
A melody I've never
heard before,
As I sing along and then
together in encore!
Where did I find the words
that I say?
Why do the stars twinkle in the day?
Then the stranger comes
along the way,
Whispering in the wind
now that I came.
I am here to stay !!!
My eyes see the world anew,
I promise,
to give my life to you!!!!
Luv Jyoti
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Serendipity!
When I was a kid I used to write things on a currency note just before giving it to someone... with a belief that it will come to me after all that rotational motion… moving from hands of different people without knowing their caste and creed, their culture and country, from rich to poor, from black to white, from old to young…… and finally it will come to me and show me a sign that signs does exist.
It's needless to say that I never got any of those back…. but I still believe in fate and will always do; because I feel that He always gives signs to us it's just that we need to see them and understand these sign.
Serendipity…….. Signs……. Fate…… Fortune……. Coincidence……. Chance …. Destiny! What ever you call it, you consider in it or not but I have always believed in it….. and hope future won't shatter my belief and trust. Amen!
Love
Jyoti
It's needless to say that I never got any of those back…. but I still believe in fate and will always do; because I feel that He always gives signs to us it's just that we need to see them and understand these sign.
Serendipity…….. Signs……. Fate…… Fortune……. Coincidence……. Chance …. Destiny! What ever you call it, you consider in it or not but I have always believed in it….. and hope future won't shatter my belief and trust. Amen!
Love
Jyoti
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Dark Nights
Some of the great pleasures of life are to bask in the glory of the sun. Most of us wish that we could bask in our own glory, but basking in the glory of the sun is apt and sufficient for me. The early morning sun they say is the sun which is most preferred, simply because the properties it exudes then are most beneficial. So benefit it did I hope, as I swung on netted hammock bridging two coconut palms, on the lawns of my temporary stay……. at my dreamland... in my dreams.
A gentle breeze, the pendulum like movement, the chirping of the early morning birds and undisturbed solitude could pollute even the most rigid schedules and coax them for a change, but alas that was not to be. I had to restrict my little moment of relief and rush off to catch up for office and dream shatter here…..as no one pays for staying in dreams…. So it can't continue…..and there is neither morning sun to make it a reality….. Its already afternoon n sun is at its peak…… nothing new for a nightshift person like me.
But today after so many days I had this feeling that I am hurting my self…. Rather torturing myself in all possible way by working in night and missing everything that nature has for me… that beautiful morning sunshine, relaxing evenings!!! Though when I had that opportunity to enjoy all of this, I never valued it… and as it is said that "Morning sunrays are special for those who has spent time in darkness"….. in true sense this dark night has taught me to value my possessions.
Today I am just missing sun rays outside my office window, that evening tea at home, those night sleeps … and deep in my heart I promised myself to stop this agony.... to end this darkness in my life and see rays of happiness ones again!
Jyoti
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
It so happened!
Light is considered to be the fastest, but there is something which can even work faster than light….. any guesses?
It it's our brain …… recently some incidents happened with in a single day which reinforced by belief on this…. I was getting bored in office with different activities happening around me…. I was just lost in my world of dreams & imagination… thinking something… and to my surprise it all happened as I imagined after some time…. not once or twice but almost four to five time in few hours…. may be a silent prayer got approved, or just prediction or mind has become influential …. Don't really know what term is appropriate for it…. But it so happened!
I look behind and after
And find that all is right,
In my deepest head
There is a soul of light….. a soul of my imagination…… I felt that someone has already told me this before actual occurrence.
Is it supremacy of brain? Or a natural phenomenon? A fallacy???? What ever it was… astonishment, actuality, imagination, hallucination….. But, it so happened!
Still in illusion!
Jyoti
Monday, October 26, 2009
Body vs Mind
After a long vacation it was my first day at work which ended up as an irksome day...... overworked and underlaid ….. with lots of presentation, lectures precisely a full of ennui ……and as I lounge here in my bed where in my body has already refused to indulge in any kind of activity….. but my mind is super active……. Tired body could not stop my mind to go n follow its path ……. And as it usually does…. in my seclusion….. it went to the place where it belongs to…. YES…. HOME…..Sweet HOME!
Away from the confines of…… home, loved ones, caring, safety and hearth…….in spite of a hint of fatigue…. Mind is hugely impressed and pleased by the moments of association and times spent together in happiness and joy with family. Moments spent sharing what was ours with them and what was theirs with us…….
I believe, that a mind that once did love, that once did show affection would never be able to entirely remove those endearing moments from within. There may never ever be an occasion to relive them. But somewhere deep inside our system there is a safe compartment that houses all these feelings……even it body seems to be left alone…mind can never get detached with these moments, feelings, emotions.
I guess……if the body cannot respond to the joys of nature and mind, it is best not to have a body at all……. I feel a bit despondent and tempted towards the latter. When all else around you buzzes with activity and achievement, when the mind is ready to soar involuntarily, when it lovingly coaxes you into acts of creative ingenious levels and you discover that there is no ‘body’ to acknowledge it, then it is that you want to disassociate yourself with all else and succumb to the misery that has been implanted upon you.
And even now when my brain is a free bird….. ready to fly even higher…. My body is loosing it all… I am but too exhausted to continue any further. And retire. But this is not the end of the matter…..Basically this is all because I m missing everything bout home, family... Wish time can be controlled or even bribed…..
Any ways.....I shall return and fulfill all that is desired of me, or else …
Till then Love
Jyoti
Away from the confines of…… home, loved ones, caring, safety and hearth…….in spite of a hint of fatigue…. Mind is hugely impressed and pleased by the moments of association and times spent together in happiness and joy with family. Moments spent sharing what was ours with them and what was theirs with us…….
I believe, that a mind that once did love, that once did show affection would never be able to entirely remove those endearing moments from within. There may never ever be an occasion to relive them. But somewhere deep inside our system there is a safe compartment that houses all these feelings……even it body seems to be left alone…mind can never get detached with these moments, feelings, emotions.
I guess……if the body cannot respond to the joys of nature and mind, it is best not to have a body at all……. I feel a bit despondent and tempted towards the latter. When all else around you buzzes with activity and achievement, when the mind is ready to soar involuntarily, when it lovingly coaxes you into acts of creative ingenious levels and you discover that there is no ‘body’ to acknowledge it, then it is that you want to disassociate yourself with all else and succumb to the misery that has been implanted upon you.
And even now when my brain is a free bird….. ready to fly even higher…. My body is loosing it all… I am but too exhausted to continue any further. And retire. But this is not the end of the matter…..Basically this is all because I m missing everything bout home, family... Wish time can be controlled or even bribed…..
Any ways.....I shall return and fulfill all that is desired of me, or else …
Till then Love
Jyoti
Friday, October 23, 2009
New girl in the city!
Went to see Wake up Sid yesterday and title above is inspired from the movie but body is undoubtedly a new-fangled…. I have written things about my two years stay in Bangalore but never published it…. Partly because of time, clarity & mostly because of laziness (this always comes haunting me)….. But before I make my mind for the next step in my life I wanted to pen down some of my experience here (rest for diary only).
I landed in Bangalore because of a college friend…. It was my first visit to southern part of the country….The first thing I noticed was that most of the people were dark complexioned (plz avoid my triviality) and above that many of them had blobbed talcum or something similar on there forehead which left a grey texture. I understood why Fair & Lovely was invented and still in market even after a decade. Most of the women were fat with flashy saries and lots of gold… but that’s not all it was just one side of the coin… there were people who appears to be extra modern for a newcomer like me… it seems they have just landed from abroad…. Even a kid as small as one year old was speaking in english this was quite unusual for a ‘Gujju land’ from where I was coming…. There people find speaking in hindi also bit difficult…. Though it was also true here.
That’s not all we came out of airport to take auto my friend told some unpronounceable name that’s where we have to go….… “Benagan….gali.. haaa…li”…. “Khagga…dasa..pura”... Oophs so difficult….. Ok after some discussion auto diver agreed on twenty bucks extra… it took 20 min to reach his place…… on the way I saw some big poster of politicians & movies. Political parties have kept poster like many people were forced to stand in a row and I don’t know which political party it was as neither the symbol nor the individuals were familiar to me……. As far a movie poster were concern there was fat hero with mustache which made me sick and I felt that all my friends & uncles can be actor in South Indian movies…. Anyways……..finally we reached…and driver asked for 200 bucks …. And then again a long argument… I was just a spectator with no clue….some english words and rest all Greek n Latin for me… 200 pay maadi… something something…… meter…. something something….. ask maadi….something something. And after a long fight we settled at 150. After all this I came to know few facts about the city that autowalas are like dacoits here……. And they are always ready to fool new North Indians... and there are many unpronounceable names which I have to encounter with…. I regretted my decision for sometime to come to this place… but amateur buccaneer in me took over & made me ready to face things…..
And this is still true even after two years… autowalas are still the same even those posters, those fat aunties and uncles with grey forehead…. And even me who still don’t know the language and all South Indian languages still sounds similar to me….. something something …. ‘Inder… pinder… Ponder’… (my sister’s version)….something something. But life has changed and things which used to be excited earlier now seems to me monotonous and boring for me… and I guess it’s the time for me to be a new girl in some other new city and challenge my self again…and explore new things.
Jyoti
Inspired by Two states.
I landed in Bangalore because of a college friend…. It was my first visit to southern part of the country….The first thing I noticed was that most of the people were dark complexioned (plz avoid my triviality) and above that many of them had blobbed talcum or something similar on there forehead which left a grey texture. I understood why Fair & Lovely was invented and still in market even after a decade. Most of the women were fat with flashy saries and lots of gold… but that’s not all it was just one side of the coin… there were people who appears to be extra modern for a newcomer like me… it seems they have just landed from abroad…. Even a kid as small as one year old was speaking in english this was quite unusual for a ‘Gujju land’ from where I was coming…. There people find speaking in hindi also bit difficult…. Though it was also true here.
That’s not all we came out of airport to take auto my friend told some unpronounceable name that’s where we have to go….… “Benagan….gali.. haaa…li”…. “Khagga…dasa..pura”... Oophs so difficult….. Ok after some discussion auto diver agreed on twenty bucks extra… it took 20 min to reach his place…… on the way I saw some big poster of politicians & movies. Political parties have kept poster like many people were forced to stand in a row and I don’t know which political party it was as neither the symbol nor the individuals were familiar to me……. As far a movie poster were concern there was fat hero with mustache which made me sick and I felt that all my friends & uncles can be actor in South Indian movies…. Anyways……..finally we reached…and driver asked for 200 bucks …. And then again a long argument… I was just a spectator with no clue….some english words and rest all Greek n Latin for me… 200 pay maadi… something something…… meter…. something something….. ask maadi….something something. And after a long fight we settled at 150. After all this I came to know few facts about the city that autowalas are like dacoits here……. And they are always ready to fool new North Indians... and there are many unpronounceable names which I have to encounter with…. I regretted my decision for sometime to come to this place… but amateur buccaneer in me took over & made me ready to face things…..
And this is still true even after two years… autowalas are still the same even those posters, those fat aunties and uncles with grey forehead…. And even me who still don’t know the language and all South Indian languages still sounds similar to me….. something something …. ‘Inder… pinder… Ponder’… (my sister’s version)….something something. But life has changed and things which used to be excited earlier now seems to me monotonous and boring for me… and I guess it’s the time for me to be a new girl in some other new city and challenge my self again…and explore new things.
Jyoti
Inspired by Two states.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Singing birds
Always keep hoping for the good. As the Chinese say - ‘Keep a green tree in your heart, the singing bird will surely come!!
I got this magazine which had this proverb...... as we lounged around in the day, not doing anything of particular importance. Hope and its manifestation in the Chinese proverb came across with some strength and character. Lucky are they that keep hope so positively alive. The good fortune of always being able to hope for the good may sound utopian in its belief, but if the Chinese are saying it they must have reason to say so. One does not necessarily argue with the Chinese.
But yes, the green tree of hope is symbolically within its right to expect the singing bird to arrive. For a perennial pessimist like me, the above may not make adequate sense and neither would it be acceptable to most that spend devotion with me, but it is an admirable twist of fate that despite these handicaps, the song of the singing bird has always been most sweet and melodious within my construct. Perhaps it was destiny, perhaps fate, but it did accomplish and reward.
I wish tree in my heart will soon be embrace by singing birds. Amen!
Peace
Jyoti.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Angels
These days I am reading a lot about guardian angels, Soulmate, Valkyrines, seraph, archangel and things like that….. after reading all these I just wonder if these things really exist or its just an imagination, a fiction… Don’t know but I always believe in things like these..... as I used to blv in fairy tales when I was a kid.
Anyways, when ever I think of angel I question myself…… Do they really exist? What are they for? How they look like? Do they have wings? Are they really messengers? And after all this I feel that where can I find mine...... in dreams, in my wonderland or in this world?
But if one tries to find his/her angel in this pragmatic world more often than not he or she will find a individual who resembles his/her angel…. Who will help her at every point… shows path like a guiding star and when you triumph he/she is always there to cherish your achievements and make your success even more meaningful.
So I guess its not wrong if we say that, we are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another. We all have angels in our life; some people just don't recognize them even when they are standing right in front of them.
Hope so I can see mine soon n able to recognise ... :))
Jyoti
Anyways, when ever I think of angel I question myself…… Do they really exist? What are they for? How they look like? Do they have wings? Are they really messengers? And after all this I feel that where can I find mine...... in dreams, in my wonderland or in this world?
But if one tries to find his/her angel in this pragmatic world more often than not he or she will find a individual who resembles his/her angel…. Who will help her at every point… shows path like a guiding star and when you triumph he/she is always there to cherish your achievements and make your success even more meaningful.
So I guess its not wrong if we say that, we are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another. We all have angels in our life; some people just don't recognize them even when they are standing right in front of them.
Hope so I can see mine soon n able to recognise ... :))
Jyoti
Saturday, October 17, 2009
The festival of light!
Happy & a prosperous Deepavali to all…. wish this deepavali brings lots of happiness n love in ur life...bright lights,brighter smiles….. Health, peace and good will. Laughter, joy and success. All these I wish for all my friends & family, for their loved ones and friends. May we all remain together in an endless bond. May we respect and admire our individuality. May we give strength to each other, be in compassion and love. And may all of this be with you for eternity.
This festival of lights, diyas, rangoli's is one of the most sought to be festival....... Messages, Phones are coming like anything. The decorative lights of Diwali are all up in every home, in every corner. The firecrackers explode all over the city, people are out in celebration on the streets, traffic is horrendous, but an air of festive spirit abounds. It is the hour of gaiety and laughter and expressing affection and cheer to one and all. Blessings are sought from the elders, gifts and sweet delicacies are exchanged.
There is warmth throughout and the Goddess of Wealth, Lakshmi is remembered in prayer and thought. The ‘diyas’ that are lit around the house, the lights that illuminate every abode are an invitation to the goddess to enter into our humble homes and bless us with her benevolence. Card games, mostly flush, are played in the evenings with guests that visit. Lakshmi is sought in all the winnings and they become an indicator of what and how the rest of the year will turn out for them.
May this festival of light brings us clearer air to breathe and less electricty bills...say NO to crackers and try switching off the lights after a certain point and keep the volume low! Plz ppl its my humble request...make an effort..it isn't that hard... Happy Diwali!
Luv
Jyoti
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Mystified
Ever since the first time I met you the sun has shined brighter and the flowers smelt better...Oh Chocolate! You are my true love….. This was a childhood expression that I guess most of the chocolate lovers like me must have thought........
Now I guess, one should not ask "What is God's will for my life?" ask "What is God's will." It's not about your life, but about what God wants.......Because only that matters........
Hope something good will is there for me in God’s treasure…..
Jyoti
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Miss confused
I am a little miss sad, little miss confused, little miss lonely, little miss lost + a whole heap of others coz I cant put into words how I feels right now.
I guess I should take out few things from my mind today as its over loaded.......n shows syntax error!
Jyoti
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
My new Art
I am becoming an artist these days…. (One of my friends told me)…… I some how agree with what she has said…. Poetry (bad hi sahi poet to hu), painter, Dancer, some times a singer (though only bathroom singer)….. But I love doing all these.
And here is my new art session this time instead of paper I tried it on my hand and see what I got…..
Love
Jyoti
Monday, October 12, 2009
SHOPPING
"Consumerism is all about selling stuff to people which they don't need but are made to want by fancy marketing".
I guess this one statement makes me shop over cautiously and judging the value of a goods over and over again before buying. This might sound to be a very prudent habit but it's not and now it does create a lot of problem.
Like a typical girl I just love shopping and till last few months I used to buy things like crazy… Every weekend one can find me in one of those big malls in Bangalore… shopping… some thing or the other. Every week I found something missing in my wardrobe and hence a shopping .... and like any female I ended up buying almost double the list. It happened so many times and after all those shopping's I had that guilty feeling. But it doesn't last long so I repeat it again and again and again... shamelessly.
Till one day when I was cleaning my wardrobe and realized that, "I have so many thing with me which I don't use… almost 70% of my cupboard is filled with these kinds of stuff". Some not even tried once…. Earlier Mom used to scold me for this but this was the first time I realized this and I felt so bad that after that I haven't done any shopping (I mean big shopping) till date. And now I just hesitate to go for one……
Yesterday I went to buy a digital camera.... as I got this new hobby of photography..... But I guess I was living in Stone Age with respect to the price range of cameras which I expected. I thought would buy a Sony/ Samsung camera with a max budget of 7 to 8,000 INR. All my hopes came crumbling down like I hope Modi's government will in the near future. I mean all decent Camera started at that range.
The ones I liked: 2 Sony, 1 Nikon and a Samsung ranged from 9,000 to 20,000. So being the ever so cautious and judgmental buyer… (At least now) I came back (for the 3rd time in a space of 7 months) without a Camera. Sigh.....
But today I again went as a gallant Viking to conquer the castle (here, Camera;)) and again came back empty handed. Found a Kodak camera with a great look but an equally disappointing picels @11000INC.
This was not the end though since I managed to blow up more than 10k of my Dad's hard earned money in other items. Which now sounds so irrelevant.
1) A business Suit from Peter England
2) Jeans from Levis
3) Nike Shoes
4) Costly Spectacles
5) Oriflame Perfumes & Lipsticks
6) Some funky handbags
7) Lakme Lipsticks & Liners
OMG! The list is so long that I really feel embarrassed to write it… But, Frankly speaking….I am quite satisfied and happy today. As Mom took me for Diwali shopping.... It's been ages since I bought so much things in a small span of time without thinking about its value and worth and prospects in future and this and that... And it felt great.
I hope I can show the same immaculate form while buying a Camera next time.
Wish me luck...
Jiya....
I guess this one statement makes me shop over cautiously and judging the value of a goods over and over again before buying. This might sound to be a very prudent habit but it's not and now it does create a lot of problem.
Like a typical girl I just love shopping and till last few months I used to buy things like crazy… Every weekend one can find me in one of those big malls in Bangalore… shopping… some thing or the other. Every week I found something missing in my wardrobe and hence a shopping .... and like any female I ended up buying almost double the list. It happened so many times and after all those shopping's I had that guilty feeling. But it doesn't last long so I repeat it again and again and again... shamelessly.
Till one day when I was cleaning my wardrobe and realized that, "I have so many thing with me which I don't use… almost 70% of my cupboard is filled with these kinds of stuff". Some not even tried once…. Earlier Mom used to scold me for this but this was the first time I realized this and I felt so bad that after that I haven't done any shopping (I mean big shopping) till date. And now I just hesitate to go for one……
Yesterday I went to buy a digital camera.... as I got this new hobby of photography..... But I guess I was living in Stone Age with respect to the price range of cameras which I expected. I thought would buy a Sony/ Samsung camera with a max budget of 7 to 8,000 INR. All my hopes came crumbling down like I hope Modi's government will in the near future. I mean all decent Camera started at that range.
The ones I liked: 2 Sony, 1 Nikon and a Samsung ranged from 9,000 to 20,000. So being the ever so cautious and judgmental buyer… (At least now) I came back (for the 3rd time in a space of 7 months) without a Camera. Sigh.....
But today I again went as a gallant Viking to conquer the castle (here, Camera;)) and again came back empty handed. Found a Kodak camera with a great look but an equally disappointing picels @11000INC.
This was not the end though since I managed to blow up more than 10k of my Dad's hard earned money in other items. Which now sounds so irrelevant.
1) A business Suit from Peter England
2) Jeans from Levis
3) Nike Shoes
4) Costly Spectacles
5) Oriflame Perfumes & Lipsticks
6) Some funky handbags
7) Lakme Lipsticks & Liners
OMG! The list is so long that I really feel embarrassed to write it… But, Frankly speaking….I am quite satisfied and happy today. As Mom took me for Diwali shopping.... It's been ages since I bought so much things in a small span of time without thinking about its value and worth and prospects in future and this and that... And it felt great.
I hope I can show the same immaculate form while buying a Camera next time.
Wish me luck...
Jiya....
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Home
The flight to Ahmedabad was peaceful till I slept to catch up on lost sleep. A kind and considerate friend took care of all my belonging while I was in deep slumber; it was a bit cold in the flight. Closer home there were feelings, thoughts, flashbacks…. and then home. Again.
Most of the day was spent in catching up on what the others were up to.
Everyone (especially …AUNTIES) was interested in knowing everything……I must say….. Women are like the police. They can have all the evidence in the World, but they still want a confession. But any ways, after so many months all this is acceptable.
It's a relief to be back at your home after all those tiring months…nothing can make you so comfortable. Enjoying everything about home. Hope this time never ends.
Luv
Jyoti
Almost missed it!
Tomorrow..... oopsh Today....... I have to catch flight @ 10 AM so need to leave early from here around 5.30 as airport is very far, & due to excitment (or may be fear I don't know which one to blame) my adrenaline level is shooting up..... I am not able to sleep.... I tried sleeping twice but all in vein...
Excited!!...obviously, for going home after a long time and Fear.......of missing flight... either because of sleep or traffic or something like that.... I don't know why but this is killing me.... everytime I have to catch an early morning or late evening flights/train I find myself stuck in this fear... and an incident comes in my mind...which make this fear double.....
As I can't sleep any ways so let me put that incident out here as it happened...........
"14 August night as we all know is one of the longest one in Indian history….n it also became a longest of my life also in 2008. It was a very exciting night, one which I can never ever forget in my life……….C'oz I almost missed my flight
On 14 August 2008 entire Bangalore seems to come on roads. Not that they were celebrating Pakistan’s independence or staging a dharna against it, but they were all rushing to their nests in their hometowns. It was that long weekend, which each employee eagerly wait for…. And the preparation for the same starts months before. Same also happened with me, I planned to go home.
As on all vacations, trains seems to be running high on waiting list and the travel agents mint money with people ready to dole out huge sums for that tatkal ticket… so in order to avoid all these last minute mess and train issues….I booked my flight ticket in advance……..and….started my shopping…….packing……..as I was really very excited because was going home after 5 months this time……….AND Finally, came the D-day the 14th August. My Flight was at 9:00 pm and I heard a lot about Bangalore traffic but luckily never encountered it.... (lucky me).....so, thought of leaving early………..
I started my day early @ 9.30 am as I was left with some end moment activities…some shopping, visiting a parlor, some office work and all that. Went to office finished off my work around 1 pm. Then went for shopping and other stuff and guess what I could not get things which I needed....... so had to browse some more shops......and then when I step out of parlor after all last minute things it was already 5.15 and I was sure that I can not reach home before 6.00.
By the time I got ready and was done with the final packing the clock struck 6.15. It was at this moment that I realized I had misplaced my flight ticket. And while I was searching for this, I happened to stumble across the older ticket and pocketed it, else even that I would have left back. Then When I came out to take auto I realized that I don't have money so need to go to ATM first. And then finally I started my journey towards airport. Half an hour passed and I was still pretty close to my house. Another half and hour gone and still the airport was not to be seen. Half an hour passed and I was still pretty close to my house. Another half and hour gone and still the airport was not to be seen. The best they could help me was to refund me something in case I missed my flight!! Done with all this, my watch told me it was 9.00 and I should press the Panic button.
Finally I was off auto and running like a mad…it was raining heavily and with my best of luck my shoe cracked at that very moment I had no time to take out other one from the bag so I was just running without shoes. It was so embarrassing running without shoes on that dirty road but trust me it was real..... I haven't thought of this in my wildest dream...
And all around me I could see cars, autos everywhere but none of them could move. And when my legs gave up and I could see the turn for the airport. I just forgot everything, and gather all my energy and started running even faster. Finally reached there at 9.15, I was treated as a VIP on that day…and then at last after security check when I board the flight I was sure that Ok I am finally going after all that mess. And called everyone at home informing that I am finally coming. "
Alas! What a day…things sometimes goes out of control.... and make you believe in Him even more.
And I am still here struggling to sleep and its already 3:50 AM....so I guess I should do my packing...and get ready for my journey.
Jyoti
Excited!!...obviously, for going home after a long time and Fear.......of missing flight... either because of sleep or traffic or something like that.... I don't know why but this is killing me.... everytime I have to catch an early morning or late evening flights/train I find myself stuck in this fear... and an incident comes in my mind...which make this fear double.....
As I can't sleep any ways so let me put that incident out here as it happened...........
"14 August night as we all know is one of the longest one in Indian history….n it also became a longest of my life also in 2008. It was a very exciting night, one which I can never ever forget in my life……….C'oz I almost missed my flight
On 14 August 2008 entire Bangalore seems to come on roads. Not that they were celebrating Pakistan’s independence or staging a dharna against it, but they were all rushing to their nests in their hometowns. It was that long weekend, which each employee eagerly wait for…. And the preparation for the same starts months before. Same also happened with me, I planned to go home.
As on all vacations, trains seems to be running high on waiting list and the travel agents mint money with people ready to dole out huge sums for that tatkal ticket… so in order to avoid all these last minute mess and train issues….I booked my flight ticket in advance……..and….started my shopping…….packing……..as I was really very excited because was going home after 5 months this time……….AND Finally, came the D-day the 14th August. My Flight was at 9:00 pm and I heard a lot about Bangalore traffic but luckily never encountered it.... (lucky me).....so, thought of leaving early………..
I started my day early @ 9.30 am as I was left with some end moment activities…some shopping, visiting a parlor, some office work and all that. Went to office finished off my work around 1 pm. Then went for shopping and other stuff and guess what I could not get things which I needed....... so had to browse some more shops......and then when I step out of parlor after all last minute things it was already 5.15 and I was sure that I can not reach home before 6.00.
By the time I got ready and was done with the final packing the clock struck 6.15. It was at this moment that I realized I had misplaced my flight ticket. And while I was searching for this, I happened to stumble across the older ticket and pocketed it, else even that I would have left back. Then When I came out to take auto I realized that I don't have money so need to go to ATM first. And then finally I started my journey towards airport. Half an hour passed and I was still pretty close to my house. Another half and hour gone and still the airport was not to be seen. Half an hour passed and I was still pretty close to my house. Another half and hour gone and still the airport was not to be seen. The best they could help me was to refund me something in case I missed my flight!! Done with all this, my watch told me it was 9.00 and I should press the Panic button.
Finally I was off auto and running like a mad…it was raining heavily and with my best of luck my shoe cracked at that very moment I had no time to take out other one from the bag so I was just running without shoes. It was so embarrassing running without shoes on that dirty road but trust me it was real..... I haven't thought of this in my wildest dream...
And all around me I could see cars, autos everywhere but none of them could move. And when my legs gave up and I could see the turn for the airport. I just forgot everything, and gather all my energy and started running even faster. Finally reached there at 9.15, I was treated as a VIP on that day…and then at last after security check when I board the flight I was sure that Ok I am finally going after all that mess. And called everyone at home informing that I am finally coming. "
Alas! What a day…things sometimes goes out of control.... and make you believe in Him even more.
And I am still here struggling to sleep and its already 3:50 AM....so I guess I should do my packing...and get ready for my journey.
Jyoti
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Magical Festive season called, LIFE!
"Life is not a rehearsal. Each day is a new show. No repeat no rewind, so give your best short in all your worthy acts as the show goes on & on…"
These are the words sent by someone very special…. And it left me in questioning mode… Questions about life in general, my life, past life of people including me, future life, mysteries of life, decisions in life, relations in life, Attitude towards & in life, Ups & downs in life………. And so many it just seems endless. There are so many things about this life which are still unanswered.
In life one faces different situations and each situations seems to be unique in its own way….Sometimes you feel that everything is in your control and nothing can go wrong from here…. You are the master of your life…….. And the very next moment destiny plays its part…and takes all control from you and you feel it was just a dream.
It makes you feel that, Life is sometimes never fair, but what you fail to understand that the times that is never fair you learn the most. Unlike our schools where we learn a lesson and then give exam, Life always takes your exam in its own unique way and after that teaches you a lesson….. for situations where every one of us arrive, at that time of life where one have to learn which bridges to cross and which ones to burn.
Sometimes when you want something the only person stopping you from taking it is you because life has its own means and mediums for every accomplishment. Everyone wants lots of things in his/her life….and while doing so most of the times we find that life does not gives us everything we wanted but trust me it will always give you things you need and even more than that……
Having a place to go is home, having someone to love is family, and having both is a blessing…. And if life has given you this blessing then you should be thankful as everyone on this earth is not so lucky to have this. So, make sure to thank Almighty for all the blessing He has given to you.
I am a no philosopher or poet or saint or a politician…. so I can not memorize all these philosophical things in real life… So there is only one thing which I keep in mind to assist all my actions……i.e.….. "Life is like a coin, it's your choice how you spend it, but you should remember you can only spend it once"….. So live your life with no regrets, only happiness & memories of the lessons you learned and time you spent with loved ones. This is the way I see this magical festive season called, LIFE!
Peace & Happiness!
Jyoti
These are the words sent by someone very special…. And it left me in questioning mode… Questions about life in general, my life, past life of people including me, future life, mysteries of life, decisions in life, relations in life, Attitude towards & in life, Ups & downs in life………. And so many it just seems endless. There are so many things about this life which are still unanswered.
In life one faces different situations and each situations seems to be unique in its own way….Sometimes you feel that everything is in your control and nothing can go wrong from here…. You are the master of your life…….. And the very next moment destiny plays its part…and takes all control from you and you feel it was just a dream.
It makes you feel that, Life is sometimes never fair, but what you fail to understand that the times that is never fair you learn the most. Unlike our schools where we learn a lesson and then give exam, Life always takes your exam in its own unique way and after that teaches you a lesson….. for situations where every one of us arrive, at that time of life where one have to learn which bridges to cross and which ones to burn.
Sometimes when you want something the only person stopping you from taking it is you because life has its own means and mediums for every accomplishment. Everyone wants lots of things in his/her life….and while doing so most of the times we find that life does not gives us everything we wanted but trust me it will always give you things you need and even more than that……
Having a place to go is home, having someone to love is family, and having both is a blessing…. And if life has given you this blessing then you should be thankful as everyone on this earth is not so lucky to have this. So, make sure to thank Almighty for all the blessing He has given to you.
I am a no philosopher or poet or saint or a politician…. so I can not memorize all these philosophical things in real life… So there is only one thing which I keep in mind to assist all my actions……i.e.….. "Life is like a coin, it's your choice how you spend it, but you should remember you can only spend it once"….. So live your life with no regrets, only happiness & memories of the lessons you learned and time you spent with loved ones. This is the way I see this magical festive season called, LIFE!
Peace & Happiness!
Jyoti
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Ooopssh!
Ooopssh! …… I nearly fell asleep in today's long long meeting cum training cum lecture cum downloading session…. (I have lot more to add to it)…. And that's why I just hate these business meeting with lots of downloads.
And Here I am in the office and blogging… just after that boring meeting…. But then, hats off to Google. At least blog is one thing which can make me contented even in office.
Hmmm… I now have a reason to stay back. Stay back longer ... of course.
Now only one more thing could make me happier, if someone read this. :-)
jYoTi
And Here I am in the office and blogging… just after that boring meeting…. But then, hats off to Google. At least blog is one thing which can make me contented even in office.
Hmmm… I now have a reason to stay back. Stay back longer ... of course.
Now only one more thing could make me happier, if someone read this. :-)
jYoTi
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Uncluttered
I deleted all the conversations from my mailbox & Orkut today….everything…the good….the bad….the best….the worst …without any partiality… I removed all unwanted stuff from my cupboard, my kitchen…. All unwanted new, old, good, bad everything which is now useless for me…… and I have so much space now….. every where in my cupboard, my kitchen, my inbox and even in my mind…… it seems I have uncluttered my mind & thoughts….. It feels great!
In meeting today, I started sketching something in my notepad, though there was nothing in my mind……. I just started drawing...I finally ended up drawing a few squares and a few absurd figures which I do not recognize. Then I picked up the pen and started shading it. My friend found it a useless piece. She said “You are drawing like a kid!” “That is what I wanted to feel like for now”- I said.
I bought few poster colors, few brushes and few sheets which I bought few days back planning to do something with them. There is nothing in my mind lets see what I get this time...
Peace
Jyoti
P.S: Gmail says- “No conversations in the Trash. Who needs to delete when you have over 2000 MB of storage?! “ But believe me, it is still advisable to throw the garbage!"
Monday, October 5, 2009
Retro music
I was listening to some old Hindi movie songs and was simply carried away by the music, lyrics, voices…. It was a great feeling. As such I love music any music that makes my soul happy, but I have this special corner for old Hindi movie songs… especially retro music. Not only retro music every thing about retro is so nice. Those flowery dress, bellbottoms, eye catchy makeup & hair styles…. Dance moves, which in today's era seems so weird... But you just can't stop yourself dancing on that music.
Even I feel like dancing….. its such a fun to have a flashback even for music.
Jyoti
Even I feel like dancing….. its such a fun to have a flashback even for music.
Jyoti
Friday, October 2, 2009
Monsoon Girl!
This was a great week in terms of weather out here in Bangalore …Every day in morning it rained and by the time lazy people like me wake up sun comes out and its rays coming out of those dark black clouds looks beautiful as if some one has put that silver cover on sun and its trying to escape…. Then by afternoon Sun starts this hide and seeks game with us… some times shining brightly and the very next moment it's just lost behind those clouds…..
At the hours of daylight when Sun should be at its peak, Sun is just no where and it appears as if morning has just changed to evening leaving daylight far behind…. And I just wonder who kidnapped the sun and replaced it with a river of rain?!
Gust of cold wind replaces the light of sun… cloudburst and it starts raining…and I feel like slipping in my blanket and enjoy a hot coffee…. ALAS! …. Dam this office ruins my entire dream…. I wish I could just bunk it like college and spent this breathtaking moments in the lap of nature….But unfortunately I can't….HUH
However I am happy today because I know better days are coming. They're called Saturday and Sunday. Hurray, I can enjoy every moment of this magnificent weather….. I simply love walking when it drizzles… dancing in rain… In short I just love everything about rain….. I guess I am a Monsoon Girl!
Luv
Jyoti
At the hours of daylight when Sun should be at its peak, Sun is just no where and it appears as if morning has just changed to evening leaving daylight far behind…. And I just wonder who kidnapped the sun and replaced it with a river of rain?!
Gust of cold wind replaces the light of sun… cloudburst and it starts raining…and I feel like slipping in my blanket and enjoy a hot coffee…. ALAS! …. Dam this office ruins my entire dream…. I wish I could just bunk it like college and spent this breathtaking moments in the lap of nature….But unfortunately I can't….HUH
However I am happy today because I know better days are coming. They're called Saturday and Sunday. Hurray, I can enjoy every moment of this magnificent weather….. I simply love walking when it drizzles… dancing in rain… In short I just love everything about rain….. I guess I am a Monsoon Girl!
Luv
Jyoti
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