Fingers crossed

“I am a very positive person & always believe in the ‘Glass half full' philosophy in life. I strongly believe that happiness is not something readymade. It comes from your own actions… And today somehow I made a wrong choice about my day… So it came up with lots of negative feelings. Some shades of it are also visible here in my post. So please bear with me….. I had a bad day” :(



It was a confusing and a creepy day… For few hours I had no clue about my state of mind….It all started in the morning when I was confused, then became upset, then confused, then angry with almost everything … then came this intuition that something somewhere is not correct.... And now still confused with don’t know what, but I am confused about being confused... and that makes me more confused... is that confusing or what?

Precisely I don’t quite know how I meant to feel!

Or is it because the most obvious answers are most often the ones we refuse to consider, as we always seem to see a trick in the question. Don't really know.

My body & soul were in disconnect…. But there was clear sign that something is not correct or something bad is going to happen….At one moment I felt that my head would burst into several small pieces….my body was shaking ....It was neither fear nor winter effect, I am sure... Maybe a residue of shock and or something else (I really don't know the word for it)...... And it took me 3-4 hours to finally stop shaking.

It was something unpredictable, but thankfully it is under control now.

Anyways... I am keeping my fingers crossed for the evening.

Please pray for me.

Jyoti