My new date!

I am dating my Computer these days....I never thought I would do so...and I never wanted to do so....not in my weirdest of thoughts.....but you know relationships are made in heaven....it is a roller coaster ride, I must admit but....sometimes I feel we can be together……. sometimes I feel I need to call it quits....we are both just being together for the heck of it...no feelings left!

This is the irony of life...you get to do things you don't want to....and what more...it has started affecting me mentally too!! You know what when I sleep and the so called 'sweet dream' starts...I first import it from BO & Analyzer packages!!!...sometimes the background of the dream is "weird highlighted items"...and it was heights today!!!! When I got up today I was searching for 'Run As' option in my mobile!!!

I am losing it all….. Coz of this bad relationship…. Oh God! Please guide me weather to continue this relationship or to call it off…..

Peace & Love!
Jyoti

Imagination

Have you ever looked from the window and wished to see something else…or had that strange urge to see the sun rising at the midnight…

Some times you just feel like writing…like spilling all the colors on a paper….the thoughts that come into your mind…while traveling in a train…peeping out of the window….before going to sleep…these aren’t the best thoughts may be….but if you could just…on only one day record them in the order of their occurrence somewhere….and your own voice playing the narrator part…

Sometimes you think you are almost there….and keep wondering if you actually wanted to reach there…only if you could start back all again make some changes….and had several of such chances….

Have you ever wished that few of your years were not actually being counted….I mean your age remained same…like say consider a point…everything before and after the point is connected….and you could somehow split it into two, stretch them apart and filled something between…and the things before the first point and after the second point are still connected…the middle thing is just a bonus part which you could fill according to you wish…any colour…any length…lived that length…and the closed the points again without anyone knowing what existed between them….

If you could just know what’s inside someone’s heart, your belief that he was doing things for a reason might have changed…may be he was just being random….may be he was just stretching those two points….and will close them without you even knowing that something existed in between…..

OMG! Some time I am just lost… in this weird imagination. But it is such a wonderful journey…. I don't want to come out of it. I am happy to be there… in my imagination.

Peace
Jyoti

P.S.: I am sure my chotu is going to shout on me for this weird thing but can't help it yaar... Just bear with me. Ready for your comments.

Morning

Morning it is….and I am blogging in morning….. Morning one of the breathtaking times of the day when everything seems so fresh….nature at its best. But late risers like me rarely get a day like this to enjoy this beautiful morning. Luckily I got up early so decided to go out for some walk and enjoy this gift of nature.

It rained last night, nothing unusual for Bangalore climate….which made roads & small plants near the road so clean, it seems as if someone has just cleaned everything before some great event….A Post monsoon syndrome. Every little bit of earth and branch and tree and bush, just overflowing with green. In the distance the varieties of long trees uniquely cut building… earlier it used to be those hills…. But now these multi-storey buildings have taken that role. Low misty clouds languishing among the higher peaks, a few diluted groups whistling softly past you almost. Off the street onto diversions and then miles of dirt track on to the location….

All these things may be a usual site for morning walkers passing me….. But for late risers like me it is like a hallucination…. I felt left out among the walkers there…. All were enjoying there walk but I was hypothesize.

I got a cup of tea for myself and enjoying hot tea in this cold weather…. just wonderful. Soon I was among one of the walker…. Competing with myself and challenging again & again.

On my way back home I saw this paper stall by the wayside and an entire bunch of the dailies by your side, mine did not arrive that early. Reading, analyzing, getting informed, forming opinion, educating on current affairs and those international, nodding off for a while and then back to the black ink.

And when I came out of that black ink….. Sun was already shining in the sky….And busy bustle of a people heading towards work. Men and women moving about sincerely, every one has something to do, busy schedule to follow in the entire day …. OOOPHS …so much to handle. But Thank God it’s a Saturday and 'CHUTTI' for me…. So time for some breakfast & small nap… And I wish these weekends never end.......

Luv
Jyoti

Navratri

Old customs have a life through the ages and we follow them diligently because tradition compels us to respect the moment. In the days to come other traditions shall follow. It is that time of the year. During Diwali and Dashehra, the Goddesses, the goddess of powers, wealth & knowledge shall be invoked and later all weaponry in the house shall be brought into ‘puja’.

The Navratri festival is going on….. A festival full of energy…Festivities begin with the ‘dandiya’ dances with mass. Large open areas shall be converted into massive dance floors and thousands shall move to the sounds of popular hits of the day to the rhythm of the ‘garba’. The young couples dressed in traditional costumes of Gujarat holding the dandiya and striking them with opposite numbers in a most intricate dance movement. The constant clashing of the sticks creating an incredible atmosphere of happy revelry.

And really regret this fact that this year as well I will miss the 'dandiya'….…wish I can be there….I wait for this festival like anything as it brings lots of good wipes lots of positivity….. It seems nothing can go wrong in this period every day seems to be wonderful….. and I can feel the presence of all nine goddess very near to me…… it is fasting for nine days, 'puja', that nine days of 'diya', champs… everything is so good hope this never ends.

I just love these auspicious days like anything… everything about it is so marvelous…The Ultimate charisma, Prayers, The music, dance just makes festivity double. So much variety and color and movement in all our traditional dances. Just unimaginable. Long may the festivals exist and long may the atmosphere of music laughter and song prevail in all our lives….. Amen. Wishing every one a happy Navratri!

Jyoti.

STARZ...My Experience!

Haven't written anything in last couple of days…. As schedule was dam busy and I could not make it. Any ways now I am here and can't stop to write about yesterday's event. We had our show in office, FA STARZZ as I mentioned earlier, it was really rocking we enjoyed every moment of it. Though it was a pretty tiring and a long long day, we started our rehearsals around 11.30 am for evening show. I was suppose to handle entire console and it was a new thing for me so was bit nervous in the beginning because if any thing went wrong at my end entire show would be ruined and I would be the one answerable.

As participants were coming for rehearsals they were providing there requirements to me and rest all was based on my judgment. And since there were all kinds of events starting from songs, solo dance, group dances, skit, instrumental etc and each event has its own requirements. Being console head I need to know what's going to happen when… so that I can instruct people to have proper lightings, music, smokes, confetti's etc. and for that I have to remember each everything starting from there dialogues in skit to each and every moment in dance. When which group is doing what step, at which beat they are going to do what, all turns, postures, formations… Oophs…too much for mah small brain man!..... It is much easy to be on stage yaar… at least I can do my part and then enjoy everything else……

It was too much to handle and my heart beatings were increasing… at that moment one thing came to my mind which I read few days ago, don't know where but it has a meaning…."Always believe that you will ultimately succeed at whatever you do, and never forget the value of persistence, discipline, and determination."

And I decided that come what may, I have to handle it and as every relationship rests on three legs: accepting, supporting and challenging, so is your life and attitude towards life. Once you accept the situation and try to support yourself in all possible ways by challenging yourself you can change that negative attitude to positive. That’s what happened with me as well…. And was all set now.

Finally show got started…..as the show started there was no more time to think, everything was so spontaneous that only thing which remember now is mere chaos and feel so good about it now when I am trying to recollect that…. It seems a divine chaos...which you feel to live, love it, and learn from it!

Finally everything ended smoothly with lots of appreciation & enjoyment. At the end I was very tired as it was Navaratri & I didn't had anything from last four days and this long day is now killing me…..but there was a satisfaction in my heart that everything ended well and I overcome one more fear…As fear which doesn't kill you makes you stronger…. So did this one and with this STARZ… I also became STAR in my life...... What a great experience it was.... Just can't forget it!
Cheers!
Jyoti

Koshish karne walon ki haar nahin hoti.

One of my favorite Hindi poem, it's really inspiring. When ever I feel depressed I read this and get motivated. It just makes me revamp. It touches my heart....I get this feeling that I can do anything.... Fully charged up! ..... Just Love it.


Lehron se Darkar nauka paar nahin hoti,
koshish karne walon ki haar nahin hoti

Nanhi cheenti jab daana lekar chalti hai,
chadhti deewaron par, sau bar phisalti hai.
Man ka vishwas ragon mein saahas bharta hai,
chadhkar girna, girkar chadhna na akharta hai.
Akhir uski mehnat bekar nahin hoti,
koshish karne walon ki haar nahin hoti.

Dubkiyan sindhu mein gotakhor lagata hai,
ja ja kar khali haath lautkar aata hai
Milthe nahi sahaj hi moti gehre paani mein,
badhta dugna utsah isi hairani mein.
Muthi uski khali har bar nahin hoti,
koshish karne walon ki haar nahi hoti.

Asaflta ek chunauti hai, ise sweekar karo,
kya kami reh gayi, dekho aur sudhar karo.
Jab tak na safal ho, neend chain ko tyago tum,
Sangharsh ka maidan chhodkar mat bhago tum.
Kuch kiye bina hi jai jaikar nahin hoti,
koshish karne walon ki haar nahin hoti.

– Harivansh Rai Bacchan

In case you didn't get this here is the The translation:

You cannot take your boat across the sea.
If you are afraid of the waves,
The one who tries never fails.
The tiny ant carries a small grain in its mouth,
Climbs up on the wall, slips and falls a hundred times,
The determination in the mind fills your body with courage,
Then climbing up and falling down does not hurt,
Ultimately, its (the ant’s) efforts do not go waste,
The one who tries
Never fails.
The diver dives into the water of the sea,
He returns empty handed a number of times,
Not easy it is to find a pearl in the deep waters,
But this in turn doubles his enthusiasm,
His hands are not empty every time,
The one who tries
Never fails.
Failure is a challenge, accept it,
Recognise your shortcomings, rectify them.
Till you are successful, shun rest and sleep,
Never run away from the battlefield of hard work,
You cannot get praise without working for it,
The one who tries
Never fails.
Lehron se Darkar nauka par nahin hoti (w/Translation)

It makes me believe that all our dreams can come true - if we have the courage to pursue them. If we did the things we are capable of, we would astound ourselves. Have faith in your self as success is never final in life & failure is never fatal. It is courage that counts.

In nutshell, you never fail in life till you have that courage to stand up again and fight with full energy. Because failure is not an end it is a challenge so accept it and prove yourself. And trust yourself, Kyuki.... "Lehron se Darkar nauka par nahin hoti, koshish karne walon ki haar nahin hoti".

Cheers!
Jyoti

Encounters in life

A pretty jobless day… which we changed into a fun day…already in weekend mood… we enjoyed by pulling each others leg as boss was also on leave today so had two reasons to rejoice…we were behaving like school kids… but truly enjoyed this day. And as mind was idle …so as usual it started it's journey........wandering & thinking useless things but this time it went in this so called philosophical thinking phase….And…..came up with something really interesting & hopefully useful as well in future…..Here is the conclusion which came out of all this thoughtfulness…

There are 3 types of cases which one encounters in life.

Case-1: You have complete control---- Studies, Career, What are you going to eat :)
There is a chance of Fate and Luck affecting it, but still you are in control.

Case-2: You don't have Control---- Death, Accidents, Coming into wealth by of an Old Relative ;)

Case-3: You have partial control---- Relationships, love, Team Events.

And-------

You are 100% accountable for Case-1, 0% for Case-2 and 0-100% for Case-3 which depends on a lot of factors.

To be happy and do the right things in life for the cases---------

Case-1: Make all the efforts that are possible according to your capability. Enjoy the Journey and accept the end if you have given your best shot. Else try again.

Case-2: Since you don't have any control, don't worry and stop thinking about what's going to happen, what could have happened and what did not.

Case-3: Think, analyze and then decide if it's in your control or not. Then Make effort or accept the reality and let go off the Past.

And finally forget all this and just Encounter life wholeheartedly, unconditionally, with correct attitude, and your hands wide open to embrace everything that this encounter has for you….rest will just happen. Have a happy Encounter!

Jyoti

Ready to dazzle

A great day, I pampered myself to the most possible way and had this feeling of princess… but as good times ends pretty early and you wonders was that a dream or a reality… so I was in this confusion by the time I could come out of all this it was already time to head to office. I pushed myself to office before I make up my mind to take a planned sick leave and stay at home for some more mollycoddle……hmm missing that yaar.

Before I could come out of that feel good factor I landed up to this audition for the event which is going to be there on Sep 22 in office.....No No… I am not participating or something like that… but this time I am trying my hands on organizing event and I was assigned one big responsibility of entire sound, effects, AV in short the entire JAAN of the show in my hand.. By the way this is an office event, a kind of talent hunts and as we Indians are good in copying things & in spite of being a US firm EY already got some Indian touch so, we have created our own EY got talent. Though we changed the name a bit to get that YO! Factor as one of our boss says…. It's called "STARZ". And we are really waiting to make people dazzle with all the performances.

While I was there in auditions watching each performance…I went in flash back..... time when we used to practice very hard for "Om mangalam" but our instructor never appreciate us they always tell us that it was sweet, you people lack energy, smile & not strong dance.....and this STRONG word always comes haunting me when I see any dance…..but luckily we managed our dance at the end….WELL WELL…. in all this…… Hullabaloo…While watching different performances......Suddenly a thought strikes my mind that, one should sing like no-ones listening and dance like no-ones watching, laugh like your life depends on it and stick two fingers up to those who do this. Because then only you can take your performance to that extra mile which no one can achieve. And once you achieve that extra mile you become winner and you don't need anyone's approval or appreciation, as you are winner from heart.

Anyways, auditions were good some were already perfect, some lacks synchronization, coordination, content, that YO factor, and lot more suggestions but some where in my heart I felt that it is easy to sit and give your comments but it is always tough to be there on the other side. And it gave me a feeling that thank God I got enough chances to experience both these in my life.

Waiting for the STARZ…. Countdown begins.....Only five days to go. Ready to dazzle!

Jyoti.

Mind Shower

Ask people the one natural fragrance they love the most & eight out of ten will tell you that it is the refreshing aroma of wet earth and more precisely after that most awaited first downpour of the season. A whiff of it & you start feeling nostalgic…..You can't help recalling your childhood days when u took long route to home only to get wet in the rain. Or the times when u shared that cup of tea with your friends in your college canteen, while it poured heavily outside. Everyone has some special memories attached to the wonderful days.

Grab your colour crazy umbrella & go for a long walk. Be a silent observer & watch the world around you – take it all in slowly. If you accompany this with some good music it will be great! Don't hold back from jumping in the puddles, giggling when gust of wind overturns your umbrella. Remember how your mom would insist to take a hot shower after the frolicking and that pakodas… hmm mouth watering already... I am already in Heaven...hmmm

Trust me all this is nothing short of medication & refresh your mind miraculously as it does to mother earth. That’s the magic of this "MIND SHOWER" so don't wait experience it because some lessons can't be taught they are just lived.

Luv
Jyoti

At the crossroads

I really don't know how to tag this day... a good one or a bad one??? It was a bright morning.. I started bit early today.. and did few good stuff…. But then slowly it changed to a droning day and I felt as if I can sleep over again and change this boring schedule a bit...…

By Afternoon, I got two big surprises which took all my attention and I felt like dancing….. Life appears to be easy, it seems everything is again becoming perfect. But like movies everything doesn't goes well in reality.

Suddenly like a strong squall of wind has hit my happiness…....WHAM… and I was sad… tears in my eyes and lonely… no one to share my feeling which made it even worse…. And reminded me of my personal space and I am here writing..... so that I can take this burden off.

At times I feel as if I am in crossroad just wondering which direction to take each has its own pros & con.. and some really pertify me…. Life seems to be tough from one side and the other makes me feel that why the hell I am so disturbed, everything will be fine as it has always been. Sometimes I pray to god and leave every thing on him, but on the very next moment I start feeling scared about uncertainty… Sometimes it exhausts me when I say nothing. Sometimes it fills me with energy when I say a lot. I have said nothing today and I have said a lot.

Why do we become like this? Is it the lack of will of wanting to share something, or is it just that at times you want to do something that is not necessarily expected.

It seems these days I am discovering and rediscovering new sides of my personality- Loser, Cynic, zero confidence and with a give up attitude… (which were not part of my dictionary few months back)
This statement is an oxymoron but anyways.........Hope things will change and get better.

But this moment this is what I can say….

At the crossroads of my life
past forgotten
I stand with a heaving heart
f uture so uncertain

As the glow in my eyes
fades away
I wonder if the dreams are gone
or are here to stay…..

Jyoti

Missing You!

You were on my mind when i woke up this morning
remembering your smile
I guess the next time I'll see your face
will take a little while

I was remembering your voice
makes my heart skip a beat
but without you baby
my whole body's weak
I was remembering our times
the good and the bad
the funny times when you cheered me up
and especially the sad
remembering your eyeshow they always meet mine
remembering all the little things you do
to make my life worthwhile
I was wondering when we'll be together
I guess I'm missing you more than I usually do...

{P.S. This is not my Poem... read it some where, don't know who is the writer}

EYES

I know for the consecutive day my blog titles look quite similar, but this is about real eyes. Eyes.. Eyes tell a lot of stories, stories of Love, Fear, Hope, and Apprehension. Sometimes you can look into the soul of a person just by looking into his or her eyes, at other times you get bluffed by them, one might be holding back gallons of tears but won't give away a hint of that, I have seen stories in people's eyes, but there are few which keep reverberating in my mind.It happened on a bus trip I made from Bhavnagar to Ahmedabad during my college days. As usual I was travelling alone and lost in my thoughts….. and with myself….totally unaware about sea of people around me……

I was sitting on first seat just behind the driver…….when I encountered those eyes.She must have been around 70, was of medium built and could have easily mingled with the crowd. But she possessed one thing that set her apart from others (at least for me) from everyone else,,,, her eyes.She was staring straight at me with her big red eyes. Red because her eyes were so big and beautiful but that stare was really ruining its beauty and because of that stare red color is more clearly visible to me….. as if she had cried for a long time…….that's what keeps coming to my mind.

Now….What was the story behind them? Story of sorrow, happiness, dreams, lost opportunities or of hope?

Were they the eyes that generalized the lives of Indians, more specifically the Indians living below the poverty line? The story that all of us know but conveniently forget .The story of a India which still lurks in the shadow of the Brilliance of India's Economic Growth.

I can quibble about what's wrong and what should be done .But does that make any difference unless I go and do something about it?

Meanwhile this lady keeps staring at me, maybe she senses something, but what? . I look at her now and then for the better part of 2 hours she stares back without blinking even once….this made me very conscious…..at one moment I felt as if just go and ask her…. but something stopped me…..

People came and went but this lady keep on staring at me…… in the middle of nowhere, between obscurity and nothingness…… in some time a part of space between is vacated by the crowd, as one being, with those red eyes leading the way !!!!

And just left me speculate till date what that was for? Still searching those Eyes... which speaks.

Jyoti

Mind's eye

IT was a Lazy day, only one thing I enjoyed doing today…Listening music which made me disappear in thoughts…. And that damned place doesn't even have a signpost for people like me to follow and comeback safely, so was just lost for the entire day…..

Sitting here distant and far from home, when you listen to the music you just love, it creates a nostalgia that you wish to remain with for a lot longer than you would perhaps have in normal circumstances. You repeat them again and again…….And then sets in the imagination…..And this Mind's Eye tries to see everything and trust me whole lot of things which in real world you have not even thought of…. And it goes on and on….. And finally leaves you either nostalgic or make you creep for more about future…It can go any where from past to future… It can make you laugh, cry, leaves you expression less or fill you with emotions…. And God know what more.

But, once in the proximity of home with loved ones and in the midst of the finished work one wonders where all that nostalgia disappears. As if nothing ever happened and you just wonder.

But nothing… nothing comes anywhere close to what you felt as you reviewed the product in the quiet and solitary presence of yourself. Nothing and nobody shall be able to replace the sentiment of that one moment when you sat by yourself and by your creativity. Nothing.

And so I say to myself today. Let me be with my moment, absorb it the way I wish to, live and imagine its presence in the way I expected it to and remain satiated with its wonders with my eyes closed and seeing through my Mind's eye. For tomorrow when real world will come we may never be able to enjoy it with as great zeal as we do now because we will have lot more important things to take care of.

So just enjoy your imagination and let your mind's eye see everything while your eyes take its lazy day off.

Luv
Jyoti...

When the time is right and the night is bright
We will see the things we've come to find
I've been searching for just a little more
but the days girl just slip away
And the red sunset that we just met
I can see forever

Come and see the mind's eye
We can find it if we try
Come and see the mind's eye
Transfixed upon the why
Come and see the mind's eye

We can find it if we try
Well they say it's right if it feels alright
When your love burns up in the mire
So I burnt a fire for a lost desire
See it burning higher

Come and see the mind's eye
We can find it if we try
Come and see the mind's eye
Transfixed upon the why
Come and see the mind's eye
We can find it if we try

P.S: Input by Nisheeth, thanks buddy lovely poem

Between The Miles

It was a hectic day….. No time to think…fully exhausted but I just love these kinds of days….. In evening when things got bit easier and I thought of my personal space.....n OMG.... nothing came into my mind.... what to write? Blankness again in spite of so many things…… So I decided to put a poem which I read few days back and just loved it. Although not written by me (as my thinking phase was quite away today it was entirely a working phase) but its really good..... Here it is, for all my loved ones…. Missing you all… :)

Because existence can become severe
in one day,
just sense me and I'll be there.
In the minds eye, I'm not so far away.
If you hold out your hand,
in the whispers,
I'll become the zephyr.
And besiege you.
If your eye's upon the stars,
in the crystalline darkness,
I'll become the moon.
And the light shall guide you.
If you rest upon the ground,
in the warmth,
I'll become the grass.
And embrace you.
If you turn outside,
in the wetness,
I'll become the rain.
An upon your forehead, kiss you.
If you free the air,
in the light of day,
I'll become the sun.
And smile for you.

Between the miles-
if you need me.
If you need a friend.
Let me be the friend, I want to be.

Luv n more
Jyoti

Soul mate

Soul mate, it's such a truism, that most of us never stop and ponder its actual meaning. And most of the time it's used to show a fake expression as we don't know what it exactly means….. It is so frivolously used by college students, in movies and expressions of love on Archie's greetings that it has just become an extension of the words which actually has nothing to do with it…. The power and significance behind calling a person your soul mate has perhaps lost its meaning in these days and age. It's almost being used as a decorative word.

The stories passed on from generations is that when a person dies, sometimes his ‘soul’ is split in two, and each goes into a different person – a male and a female. (thats how initially there were only few souls but now they got multiplied)..... Then starts the journey of each finding the other person with same soul, leading to a long search, reincarnations, beliefs & disbeliefs. But I guess it seems to be fairytale story for many but for me it’s a truth…because I believe in this…. I don't know what made me think all these…. And somehow I felt that this is a truth….but for me at least it is don't know why.

Yesterday I was reading the spell binding new novel ‘Brida’ by Paulo Coelho, which reinforces my thinking and once again my childhood thoughts started questioning me… It is a tale of love, passion, mystery and spirituality.....it puts forward a very interesting and disturbing concept. The magician in the book believes that the soul splits in 7 ways. So a person has 6 other people in this wide world that could be his/her soul mate. The whole idea of soul mate revolves around your other half, split right down the middle, so it’s an open ended questions…Can we have more than one soul mates?

I know it definitely makes the search easier, but trust me it is not that easy. As in once life one can find only one soul mate and if you are lucky you can get another chance but once you loose your chance you have to wait for another life…. And another disturbing fact is that, even if you meet your soul mate nothing in this world can tell you that your search completes here………except your heart.... which always play secretively, clandestinely.

There is a very simple story I had read some time ago. A story defining what love is. A youth in his prime asks his master what love is. The master asks him to go to the garden and pick the most beautiful flower he can find. But once he has passed a flower, he is not allowed to turn back to it. The youth, though wondering how this is going to answer his question, obeys his master. He goes from flower to flower looking for the best one. But every time he finds an amazing one, he thinks to himself, "What if I find a better on in the next row" and leaves the flower and moves on. This happens a couple of times, before he reaches the end of the flower bed. This is when he realizes, the flower at the beginning was the most beautiful he had ever seen. Dejected, he goes to the master. The master says "This boy is love. When we are lucky enough to find the love of our life, we give it away or let it slip away from our hands thinking it was never meant to happen, and someone made for us is just around the corner. A few, very few possess the courage, spirit and fierce love to truly acknowledge the fact that they have met their soul mate and their search has ended. That they would fight any circumstance, temptation and storm to be with their soul. That my son is loved....Eternal and forever."

The youth, still having his doubts asks "Then what my lord is marriage?" The master smiles and asks the youth to again go to the garden and pick the best flower he can find and as usual, he is not supposed to turn back to a flower once he has passed it. The youth confident this time, picks the first beautiful flower that he finds and brings it back to the master. The master says, "This is marriage my son. Where we choose the person we want to spend the rest of our life with and then spend the rest our life making it work.

But we also find another kind, who find their soul mate and are destined to spend their life in togetherness and love, where each day is a celebration and each year a milestone of eternal harmony and peace. Do you think such stories are only found in movies and Mills n Boon romances? Each relationship has its ups, a down, the effort, determination and sacrifices in blood to make it happen is what makes all the difference, which can only stem from the intensity of love for each other. I have been fortunate in my life to have known people like that, seen what it feels like to share your life with your soul mate and understood the true meaning of a partner. For that, I humbly bow before god because it cannot be described in words, as is true for the most innocent and fiercest of human emotions. The true nature of it stands the test of time, consequences, temptation, greed and lust.

As the saying goes, "You should not marry the person who you can live with, but who you can't live without".

My search for soul mate is still going on. Hope so this search ends soon…Are you searching for yours??....Happy Hunting!!

Jyoti :)

FRIENDS

I got one Fwd>> Fwd…. email few days back and just love the thoughts and also flowers as usual….. Here you go…..Enjoy

Luv

Jiya!

Happy Teachers Day!

September 05, Reminds me of all my sweet and great teachers who taught me so many thing…. Love them and miss them…. Happy teachers day!

Love n more...
Jyoti

Lazy Me!

Dear, Friday.....You and Your friends, Saturday & Sunday, need to come more often...I've ....... missed you........ Luv......Your biggest fan, me. :)

This comes in my mind every working day, just wait for weekends like anything… even 5 days working schedule seems to be very hard for me sometimes…. And sometimes I wonder how dad managed to work for so many years and like him many others…. For me it's just a second year in professional world but, it seems as if I am working from ages……. And I wish I could go back and become a student once again…….. With no tension, Mom to take care of every thing, Dad to provide all learning and masti……….no office for sure, at least I can bunk classes yaar when I don't like to attend……

Any ways it’s a long long weekend this time…Time for masti and plenty of siestas….. Thank God it’s a Weekend….. And lazy me again.

Lethargic….. Sluggish……..Slothful……..Lazy Me!
Jyoti

Brightness…Darkness… Brightness

Title in itself doesn't need any explanation… It makes things quite clear…. But how often has it happened to you?

When life seems to be going along at immaculate pace like seasoned actors playing the perfect roles in a smooth screenplay in a phenomenally crafted script. The apt word to describe your existence and current state of being is --- Insouciant.

Then suddenly out of oblivion ---WHAM, a thunderbolt strikes you and sends you twirling into a downward bottomless spiral. A spiral where the depth is directly proportional to the misery, hopelessness and loneliness you experience.

Subdued by the dual burden of present problems and emotional attachment and memories of the glorious past, the process of fighting back is worsening.

So what does one do....

A possible answer can be summed up in the following lines from the poem by Lord Tennyson.....

We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven,
that which we are, we are,--
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.

And again you are in hoping for the brightness and trust me it will come surely…. Just you need to do your part to make it happen… And it goes one from Brightness… to…Darkness….Hope….efforts….And Brightness shall come.

Celebrate the Human Spirit .......
Jyoti.

Forgive & Forget!

It’s a great challenge to forgive people who have hurt us. In the first instance, we feel that they don’t deserve to be forgiven. Yet, unless we forgive, we can’t forget. And, unless we forget, we can’t free ourselves from their influence. In a sense they still have us trapped from a distance.

Perhaps we could start with the question “Do I deserve to be free from that person or situation?” The answer of course is, “Yes, because I was innocent”. Forgiveness is really an attitude that frees the self and enables us to forget. It doesn’t need to be spoken or written unless you find this helps. Although it may not affect or change those that hurt you, it finishes their ongoing power over your well-being. In the strangest of ways, if you learn this lesson, then the person who hurt you has made you stronger.

Today, let us aim to free ourselves from the influence of those who have hurt us, by mentally forgiving them and reclaiming our power over our well-being... Because, Forgiveness is like the fragrance a flower gives after it's been stepped on.... So lets Forgive & forget and move ahead!

Tranquility......
Jyoti