Eureka Moment

As I mentioned in my previous blog that, I will be out of this place for sometime but just can't stop myself to write here as so many things are coming into my mind these days… Hundreds of thoughts each worth mentioning…….. Lots of thinking going on, sometime destructive and some times constructive and my mind changes from fully baffled & from lots of chaos to a straight path…...

I was reading few case studies yesterday, which gave food to my brain to feel…. And think even harder… It was about some famous corporate and how they got there idea and struggled to make that 'THE IDEA' of their life……Passion to do things…. Farsightedness … Fighting spirit… all just made me crazy and made me think that when my Eureka moment will come…

When will I get my centre point around which my life will move…. This made me awake for entire night….. But as big things doesn't happen so quickly and without any effort…. So I am working on this and hopefully I will get my EUREKA MOMENT one day!

Jyoti... :)

Lonesome

Yesterdays feeling continues even today….. And along with that, today I am Feeling dam Lonesome … Exhausted…. Abandoned…. Pissed off…. I guess I need a break to rejuvenate and get my positivity back… so will be off for next few days……….. But in this non productive phase I can't think of any thing optimistic n constructive……. And finally landed with this………...

I float in a pool of darkness
Cold presses in on me
I am alone
Floating aimlessly
I reach for sparks of hope
But rather than warm
They only burn

I ache with sorrow
I hunger to leave
To escape
To leave this prison
I crave to be free
To be heard
To be loved

Peace!
Jyoti

Everything will be fine…

Each time I face a days like this one….. I feel to just run away somewhere. This phase is non productive phase…when my mind wanders in the entire world with no perfect direction…Life seems to be so difficult…..No direction… No surety….. It seems as if I am in deep s***t… and don't know how to get out of this.

But each time I lose and feel completely dazzle…… something in me says with an air of wisdom……. “Everything will be fine …."
And when I hear this, it makes me feel as if I am learning more, growing more, nothing bad can happen and if it does I can surely fight back……

Each day I will overcome that ache inside me, I realize that life is good….
And one day I will start loving that one corner of my heart that ‘aches’.
After all it has taught me so much…to let go…to move ahead….to be positive…
At times I tend to derive a strange sadistic pleasure out of those low moments…. a pleasure of ambivalence….

And in this trial and tribulations I find myself, the one who is calm and deep, one who introspects and retrospect's, one who forgives and forgets, and the one who knows that “Everything will be fine…."

Peace
Jyoti

Who is Right?

Today I was discussing something with a friend and before we can realize what's going on we were literally arguing and just a line away from actual fight. But fortunately it didn't happen…. But this made me think that why we were arguing, because both of us were correct in the way we were looking at things. And this thought disturbed me, and was lost…to find an answer………. And finally this is what I came up with…..

"I see what I see; You see what you see….. But from where I am seeing, I see that you are wrong." Same is true in other way round and this is in nutshell the cause of issues, fights, misunderstanding…… If people understand others point of view things will be so simple and this world will be indeed a better place to live. And there will be no more arguments, fights, wars….. to prove....."who is right?"
Peace!
Jyoti

Point

Sometimes it happens that after doing something you wonder what the point in doing this is. And then again you are lost in searching that very point and then come the point to make you point less again. 'Point' and 'No Point' leaves you to nothing. And then you try to find this 'nothing'…… hmmm……….... May be because everything has a point or rather should have a point. If the universe originated from 'nothing', a 'point' must surely have succeeded. A 'point' comes after a 'nothing' and 'nothing' comes after a 'point'.

Confused? So am I. This point has always baffled me and I have been constantly asking myself questions like ' What is the point?' But let me try to explain. We try to search for a point or a sense of purpose to remove the pointlessness in our life, but what worries us more is the pointlessness that follows after the point is reached.

It has been years when our geometry teacher taught us how a fixed point is necessary to draw a circle. And yes it has been years that I have been searching for the same point about which my life could revolve.

There are times when you have to face 'it'. They call 'it' as 'a deafening silence'. This deafening silence is not just an oxymoron but is strangely palpable. It brings you to pointlessness and then you start wondering if 'pointlessness' is the only 'point'. And again you are at the starting question…….. Makes me wonder that 'what is the point?'

There are many like me who ask this question to themselves daily. But this has to remain unanswered, for if it is answered than what is the point? Point.....For me to talk all this or for me and many like me think on this small 'Point'......

I am amazed how a 'point' can be so important that people keep searching for it throughout there life. I amazed how a 'point' can lead you from the infinitesimal to the infinite. I am amazed how a 'point' can take you to another 'point' and you could thus move on a continuous graph of life. The infinite is full of points but then you have to search yours and complete your circle........

Peace!
Jyoti

Searching Self!!

Have you ever experienced a lightness of being splendid and sweet, when you felt completely liberated- limber on your feet; clear in your mind & pure at heart? Perhaps not, because most of us allow our senses to become clogged, do what we are programmed to do & are unaware of even the life force that keep us alive. We are rarely totally in the moment.

If we watch ourselves & are mindful, we'll realize that most of our reactions do not arise from our core, our true being. We may be mistakenly led to believe that we are free & so are our gestures, thoughts, emotions, attitudes & beliefs. But more often than not, they come from someone else living inside us, perhaps our parents, or someone we've been deeply influenced by, whose opinions are so deeply ingrained in us hat they become part of our DNA. Not every such impression serves to benefit us. In fact a lot of what we imbibe ends up being detrimental to our growth & inimical to the expansion of our minds & we are oblivious to it. We would surprise ourselves if we ever make a mental checklist of the obsolete in us, or the morass that needs to be cleared, or what we actually want.

Most of us do what we do to gain approval & to satiate our innermost need to be loved. But in the bargain, we get pulled in all directions, pay heavily, make the most difficult compromises & trade our self respect meekly, merely for approbation. When that happens, we love ourselves even less, become increasingly different & lose out not just on self respect but the very validation we seek from others.

Obsessing over love or dwelling too much on the lack of it can make us a distraught that it dictates the way we think, work, communicate and lot more. Sometimes we are convinced that we don't deserve love & if we do, we are not getting enough of it. Then we go on overdrive, mollycoddling ourselves with others supplements & try to compensation for vacuum that we desperately want to fill.

So make decision of your own fate. And then reload yourself to lead a life on your terms, with your head held high…. I m still fighting to get this corrected for myself….to find the way to cherish & love myself, feel whole & open heart to receive love in the whole world.

Love & more...
Jyoti

Simply Smile :)

There can be just anything that makes you smile ....it can be the silliest or weirdest thing….like something written on T-shirts, one liners written at the back of a truck, something said by someone n god knows what all.....

Here are few which I read & heard recently----

A day without sunshine is like, night.
Did anyone see my lost carrier?
All men are idiots, and I married their King.
'horan pelease' and 'buri nazar wale, tera muh kala', 'latak mat, patak dunga! '
Test the depth of the water with both feet.
".....he came to my home, where I stay....."

Seriously, smiling and being happy doesn't always need a reason. Sometime these small things seems weird, but they are not......trust me as it makes u happy which means a lot..... So Keep smiling & be reason for others to smile.

"Simple music can make you sing, a simple hug can make you feel better, simple things can make you happy; I hope these simple thing will make everyone smile and fill this world with Smile"

Smile :)

Jyoti

My First Love

I was barely 10 when I saw him. He was all dressed up in the latest trends of that season. I am thankful to my mama for uniting us. I wonder at his color, his masculine body which seemed to fit into my hands as if he was not a discrete entity, rather my extension.

Though Mama introduced him to me, she got rather touchy about my growing involvement with my Sweet Heart. What Maa thought would be a casual friendship, a few hours of fun and frolic, turned into something beyond the sense of space and time. Our Relationship transcended reality. We spent hours on end, together; sometimes snuggle together in bed, sometimes sitting on the bench beneath the tree. Sharing laughs and anguish, victories and defeats. Lost in our common dreams, visiting far off planets, making new friends, flying through space……

It was brilliant. But I guess Fate had other plans ....We were separated….. It was the worst feeling I had ever experienced in my life.. His disease won.. He lost.. We lost....

I tried to send him to his place of birth, Japan, with hope and tears in my eyes..That was the last I saw of him..

All I got was a regret letter and a final Photograph of him... Some Entities give you calmness and happiness even after their death... He was a perfect example..

I still Dream of him.. He left me but not his Spirit... I loved him and will continue doing so…..

Miss him even today after so many years...I wish I can go back and hug him once again...

Forever and ever..

My love.. My first Hand Held Video Game.......... ;)

Viewpoint

Today in all news papers, news channels…everyone is talking about Jaswant & Jinnah. It seems as if Jinnah's ghost is haunting BJP these days earlier Advani and now a new name…………and from Bhartiya Janata Party it has changed to Bhartiya Jinnah Party as rightly quoted by one of the Congress personnel… But any ways I am not going to support any one of them here…

As I read in the paper today, which says…….

" In his book - whose launch was conspicuously shunned by his fellow saffronites - Jaswant claims that far from having to be wrested from India, Pakistan was more or less handed over to Jinnah by Congress leaders like Nehru and Sardar Patel. In a TV interview, the former external affairs minister said, "Gandhi himself called Jinnah a great Indian", and went on to add that Indian Muslims have been treated like 'aliens'….."

And as a result he was removed from the party; his book has been banned in some states…..My question is why people ban things? If they don't like someones view...........if they don't want to read or see some things just don't read it or close your TV for that matter…. Or give your argument if you can't resist yourself by reading/watching…............But why putting ban on something and preventing a different idea to float in the society (in general)….and depriving others from the same. If this is the kind of India we want to create, then why not stop right to express our views itself? Why we are being diplomatic on things. Trust me prolonged diplomatic dead-ends can be tiring, worst still, 'contagious' for future. This is high time, we should really correct things at the grass root level.

Peace n Love!
Jyoti

No more Sufferings!!!

Inert shall we all be, when effort and passion and commitment to excel shall abate. Just when all is lost and dark an opportunity shall arise, a will shall prevail. The joy in overcoming that episode of life, that moment of uncertainty shall imbed itself. It shall come uncalled, without notice. It shall impress upon you strive and deliver. And when we shall succumb to the trial and emerge victorious, then shall we look back in anger and say why we were so despondent earlier on in the first place.

Easier said than done. Those that shall be privileged to suffer shall cherish the experience. That’s what suffering does. But if it is ordained that recognition and success shall come, but not without hard struggle and pain, then welcome it with golden arms; wide, warm and enveloping.

My arms are spread to imbibe and envelop.. Even as I lie.....

Give me my due, dear Lord, in accordance with the pain of suffering. Else do not allow me to suffer!!.....No more Sufferings!!!

Peace!
Jyoti

Missing You Mom :-(

I am sitting in front of my computor with dashboard open….. But nothing comes to my mind……. Because my mind is not with me today, its wandering………to my childhood, school, home………….and god knows where……..????

I imagine you mama, opening the door, smiling and calling my nick name... you could see the flesh I have lost, the dark circles under my eyes and that I haven't eaten anything since morning......and all it takes you is just one look at me....And then you run to the kitchen to ensure that the boiling milk doesn’t spill out of the pan…..cooking and that smell just ultimate……….that is enough to make me hungry and then finger licking food makes me contented…….

I imagine mama oiling my hairs….which even my hairs are missing these days…hahahahaha…..And her knitting, scolding, those long exam nights when she used to wake up for me……..

While my eyes fill with tears…….I imagine opening my cub board that contains my school books, drawing copy ,water colors….., letters from friends…the old sweaters, discarded shirts and school jacket….the hair clips and bangles…. all just messed up as usual and mama shouting……but this time I just love her for shouting on me…

I imagine lying under the sun, on the cot, till I feel dizzy…doing nothing for the whole day and still feeling great!......... I guess I am missing home….and can't write any more as I can't see anything now…..emotions has taken over all imagination and I am in my mama's lap crying…. But this time I can't find her to wipe my tears…….

Missing ma……. and missing home.

Weeping, Filled with Emotions!
Jyoti

" ये दुरिया...... इन रहो की दुरिया.... निगाहों की दुरिया....रहो की दुरिया....फ़ना हो सब दुरिया.........ये दुरिया ये दुरिया......."

Follow Me

Take my hand and follow me
to that place I long to be.
Take my hand and trust my way,
in that place forever stay.
Follow me toward the sand;
we'll run and play, hand in hand.
Take my heart and hold it true;
forever I'll stay close to you.
Seize my words and listen well,
then forever I will tell.
Release your heart and feelings too,
just as I will do for you.
Trust your heart and follow me,
to that place we long to be.........

Love
Jyoti

Last Class :(

Dance and dance and more dance was in short the day……….danced for almost 3-4 hours today and now I am just exhausted. Today was my last class for this season and had done lots of dancing today…thou was sad coz presentation got cancelled because of swine flu..(hell)........but still we danced a lot to show zest, smile, steps, clarity, coordination and strong dance.....Oh! after lots of bhashan from Anita....sorry dear...... But I am really going to miss these classes till October…..after that classes again....Hurray! Going to miss you Anita, Neha, Simran, Ashish, Harsha, and everyone from the batch. But not an issue will meet in October......till then happy dancing!!

Dance & Glow!
Jyoti

Happy Independence Day!

August 15th 1947 – the year that gave us our freedom from the British rule was a watershed year for our forefathers, who witnessed history being made. While some were a part of the freedom struggle, others listened with bated breath to sagas of heroism of Indians who laid their lives. To them, independence meant tremendous effort coupled with unshakable determination to break free from the British rule.

As we are celebrating 62nd Independence Day, Flags will fly high proudly all over, reminding everyone about the fight for freedom. The sacrifice of the millions that gave us our independence and making us believe that, "If there is nothing worth dying for, there is nothing worth living for." How noble their contribution to our Motherland…..They gave their lives so our generation could breathe freely. To not be subjected to the tyranny of a foreign rule, enslaved and dominated by another power. They are the one who sacrificed everything & taught us the lesson that, Freedom is another word for nothing left to lose.

We take it for granted don't we? Our "Independence". But so many things about freedom and independence are taken away every day if not fought for. We have to remember the reason that why we celebrate it. Be thankful to our forefathers behind it, the ones brave and strong enough that fought for what they believed in. None of us should ever forget this. What times they were…The passion. The determination, the fire of "INQUILAB". We salute them that provided us the India of today and we should pledge that we make this India worthy of the sacrifice that was made for it.

My heartfelt condolences to the family of the brave soldiers who lost their lives leading from the front to take on our enemies, in war or even during peace for fighting terrorist... who are continously trying to destroy our beloved nation. And on the other hand, I dread to think of how various political parties are now going to try and use tragedies like Mumbai attack, Serial blasts, Kashmir issue and for that matter any such issue to promote their political careers. At least now they should learn to not divide people and instead become responsible leaders. As incidents like Mumbai blast really exposes how ill-equipped we are as a society as far as proper leaders go. We desperately need young, dynamic, honest, intelligent and upright leaders, who actually care for the country, Improve law order and further more so that at every nook and corner we don't see women being embarrassed with inhuman acts by disease of the society, people being cheated, poverty, children being deprived of education & exploited,……and the list is endless.

Let us all come together and fight all these evils and make us free again this time from evils in the society, corrupted leaders, and terrorism. Let us take a moment to appreciate our brave soldiers. And pray for those who have given their lives for this land and a pray for the land to acknowledge their "QURBANI" (sacrifice) and prosper beyond imagination. "May we look after our poor and wanting and may we be no longer a developing nation but one that is developed and not ever referred to as a Third World country, but the First."

LONG LIVE INDIA. LONG LIVE ITS INDEPENDENCE!

Jyoti

Happy Janmashtami!

Today the 14th of August and its Janmashtami; The birth of Lord Krishna, it is celebrated with great devotion in India. Temples and homes are beautifully decorated and lit. Most of people keep fast on this auspicious day… (Which indeed seems a bit tough for me…)

An attractive feature of the celebrations are cribs & other decorations depicting stories of Lord Krishna's childhood. I love night arti when people wait for Krishna's birth its really so nice to hear it….."badi der bhai nand lala"………."nand mai anand" and many more……..& Dahi handi. It’s a great fun to watch…..enthusiasm for people waiting to break Dahi handi.

Krishna is always shown with his flute. He is considered to be the Hindu God of Music and is the patron god of Indian musicians of the traditional schools; irrespective of their religion…..Hopefully he will bring music, rhythm, peace, harmony & luv to everyone's life……Wishing every one a Happy Janmashtami!

Jyoti

Petrified!

I just can't stop myself by writing on Swine flu…..which has created panic all over, in all metro you can see people wearing mask… I was shocked today when I entered office and saw all lift men with mask…….people in eating zone, at workplace……..with those green mask …… all this make me think as if I am in some hospital or what…….but can't help it... earlier is was just a news but today I felt…OMG it has hit every one of us either literally or mentally but flu has created an impact. Every day 4-5 emails for precaution, Liquid soap every where in office…..no malls, no movies, no celebration of Janamasthmi.

Has anybody thought why these recent "viral" diseases have all of a sudden started affecting Livestock? Mad Cow Bird Flu now Swine flu Have these deadly diseases just accord out of nature, or are they product of some genetic manipulation?? What ever is the case but today's reality is that the countrywide swine flu toll has now touched 19, more then 1000 people found positive till date and expected to rise. Has anyone investigated if these could be deaths due to inadequate treatment by doctors? The government and hospitals will blame it on the nature of the virus. The government by the way is busy telling people not to panic. Until their own relatives start dying, people will for them be only statistics.

Reports of flu from colleges, schools, offices is now a common thing….every day different name has created a Havoc in Schools, colleges, offices……precisely among every one. ……..Why are then schools across the country waiting for swine flu to spread before they declare holiday??? Is one week enough to prevent small children for getting the disease??? Why can't the government have a more rightful approach instead of reacting stupidly on a back foot???......OK I understand closing is not the solution but now as medical facilities are not that strong so isn't it better to take precaution before hand rather then outcry later. If the government can't close schools, then parents should, and slow down the spread of the virus. Parents can be trusted to keep their kids at home....they are sensible not to expose their children at malls.

The government should give permissions to private hospitals all over to treat this flu and also get protection kits in mass to distribute to the people. In all major cities Government should be more careful as the chances of spreading the flu is very high due to high population. The government should have taken steps to restrict people coming into India with this disease by asking passengers to get a doctors certificate fit for flying from more infected countries, this would have stopped spreading up to some extent….but unfortunately it didn't happened and we have the results……But now as we have it in our country we all should be more careful and try to take precautions. Hopefully soon a proper vaccination will come for this deadly flu and life will be easier.

Stay healthy!
Jyoti

My Fav

Do you know…..I
Say a thousand words with my eyes,
Ask a million questions that arise,
Hide the pain with a smile,
Seek comfort that goes a long while,
Want to smile through my tears,
Need a friend to tell my worst fears,
Share a secret and never regret,
Want to meet someone I've never met,
Am scared of the dark,
Want to begin again, a new start.

My heart feels empty from within,
When night falls and mom doesn't snuggle me in
It hurts and remind me,
When was the last time we had dinner together.
I stifle a scream,
When I see kids holding hand of their dad.
I just hate myself for growing.

I want to
fly again,
dance to my heart's content in the rain
Lay my head on ma's lap,
and tell her the days' recap.
Feel the caress of a thousand butterflies,
Break the bondage, break all ties....

I dream of
Talking nonsense,
A beautiful house and a white picket fence.
Someone who'll amaze,
A warm hearth and a fireplace
A heart where I stay,
Leading life my way,
A gurgling bundle of joy,
To love and bind as the years pass by...

And when the time of departure comes
I 'll b at peace in ur arms.......


Luv
Jyoti

Nature's teaching

My day started bit early today and as I skipped my dance session today, not because I was tired or feeling lazy or something…..just coz I wanted to spend some time alone & rejuvenate.

I was sitting in my room and browsing though some of the books around me, just then I stopped on a beautiful sight of a valley with waterfalls, greenery every where, beautiful animals….. It looks like an ecstasy, an illusion……and on the very next page picture of a crowded city……….What an irony.......what have we done to this beautiful world created by almighty...Alas....All this made me think about nature, kind of disciple it pursue & lesson it is teaching us today.....with things like global warming, so many disease which our ancestor had not even heard in there wildest dream..... No, I don't want to give any lecture on Science n nature....I am sure we had come across that very often.......But apart from that there are so many things that this world in its natural state can teach us.

All animals, for a time, comes under the protection of their parents (including humans), but on the appointed day known only to the parents- it is time for the young animals to go into the world on its own. Even though as a young & less experience it may be dangerous for them. But parents know from the instinct passed down from the beginning of the time that it is more dangerous not to let their young learn the hard & difficult lessons that life and wilderness will teach them....Isn't it true for us as well?

There is a certain pattern and rhythm of the nature and its own innate erudition. The geese know the precise day & time to fly south for the winter & north for the summer. They all know how to fly in the formation & protect those birds that may be slower or wounded.

Nature revolves in a perfect cycle as long as we human do not interfere and break the harmony. It is important that we have a reverence for nature and learn to respect & honor its ways. Otherwise we have to face all the consequences...........as Mother nature has its own way of teaching things.

Stay in Peace n harmony.....
Jyoti

Blank......

It is a strange phenomenon that every day as I open the page of my Dashboard and stare at this blank screen in front of me I have no idea what is going to transpire, what will be the context of my writing and what if ever, shall I be able to put anything down which could be a mirror of my thoughts & experiences. I do not think or despair or work my mind into a subject. I just stare and wait, as I do now and something shall materialize, hopefully.

So far, its a blank mind and a blank page.… And this Emptiness is driving me crazy!

Peace.....
Jyoti

Sleepy!

Sunday and guess what after a long time it was a sleepy Sunday because no dance class today thou was feeling sad about it but sleeping part was really great!

I am feeling too lazy to write anything. Haven't slept Saturday night so its almost 40 hours feeling dam sleepy.......just bear with me. Puhllyzzzz....

Peace

Dance

Finally after five days of work it’s a weekend…and I just love them even more these days as I have my dance classes on Saturday & Sunday at SDIPA. I just love the one hour which I spend there…it fills me with new liveliness & makes me revamp. I feel so much positive after each session. Dance for me just like Love where you surrender to music. Dance is an art form, body instrument….and it's just about learning to play the instrument and master the art.

For that moment I forget everything merely dances as if no one is watching.. While I dance I can not judge, I can not hate, I can not separate myself from life. I can only be joyful and whole. Dancing is the loftiest, the most moving, and the most beautiful of the arts. For it is no sheer translation or abstraction of life. It is life itself.

When I started it was just together and second now it's so much more and more. Plie is the first thing I learnt and I guess it will be the last thing I will be ever master at. But still I do it as it is the beginning of the greatest art and trust me when you get that passion no matter how hard it is we will do it. So my Plie followed by Pivot, Shashe, Shaane, Jazz, Bollywood, Bhangadha (my fav), Hip Hop and its still going on and on. And I am still striving for more (…..some one listening). Because I felt during these days that learning to walk set you free, Learning to dance gives you the greatest freedom of all: to express with your whole self the person you are ( It will also make you look beautiful :P).

To dance is to be yourself. Larger, more beautiful, more powerful. This is power on earth and it is yours for the taking. Just one line can explain everything we call as dance……

"Dance is the song of the body"

Even now when I am writing all this like a great dancer….though I know I am not, I'm dancing to the music of the madness inside me. And so I think I should stop here because, Dance isn't something that can be explained in words. It has to be danced.

Happy dancing everyone.

Luv you
Jyoti.

A Talk with myself !

It's that time of the day! Quiet, alone and with myself. The city is silent even in the busiest of hours. People, traffic, high rise housings, commercial establishments, all abound. But they exude a disciplined quietness. And as I sit by the illuminated screen, that make belief comic styled bulb lights up in a bubble above my head and some music is going on in the backdrop and I begin to talk! Talk to myself!

There is a page, a DAY, a post, to formalize my conversation, to carry it at cyber speed to those that wish to listen in. As you discuss your thought with others you can find many reactions….Some come in silently, others with their own voice and opinion. Some with love and excitement, others with doubt and abuse. Some in disbelief, others with a diatribe reeking of cynicism. Some appreciative, others stern in disapproval. But when you talk to yourself things are quite different…you can express your heart and be the best speaker for the moment.... at the same time be the best listener yourself. You will be arguing at one point and at other point you will defend yourself. For me it act as a way to motivate my self, to measure my deeds, a way to express my self, to decide future actions, solving my dilemmas… and above all I become my best friend .....to talk with..whom I can trust blindly. An awesome relations & conversation.

As Diversity in existence is a healthy pasture.......so is this self talk.

Many among you urge me to write a book, a diary, an autobiography.....But I am incapable of all that. I am happy talking to myself and happy with those that come in and talk to me.
Its been a few hours that I have been conversing … did you get to hear me…no ?

Perhaps not…… I forgot to put the volume up .......But you can not explain what is going on within you, as these conversations are sometimes with and sometimes even without words….So just wait for your own chance when you can witness this beautiful gift and trust me you will find yourself solving some of the big problems of your life while talking to yourself.

With luv..
ज्योति

Raksha Bandhan

Yesterday the 5th of August was ‘Raksha Bandhan’. The festival that respects the bond between brother and sister…… Sisters perform a puja and aarti with a diya, shall feed the brother something sweet and shall tie a ‘rakhi’ on their wrist - a symbol seeking protection from their brother. She respectfully touch his feet and the brother shall give her a gift - something to wear, a piece of jewelry or at times an envelope containing ’shagun’; money which is considered auspicious. One hundred and one, one thousand and one. The one is essential in our custom. It brings on the auspiciousness of the moment. While talking about rakhi I just can't stop myself to utter few words from the famous bollywood songs….

"भैया मेरे राखी के बंधन को निभाना….."

A wonderful age old custom living through generations of our culture. The brother sister relationship has been very pronounced in all our films too and looked upon with great reverence. The relationship does not necessarily have to be of blood. Many girls tie ‘rakhi’s’ on boys they wish to seek as brother and there have been instances when these bonds have flourished and strengthened even beyond those of blood. The ‘rakhi brother’ or the ‘rakhi sister’ is a common reference in society of these relationships.

Even I have one such rakhi brother, he is so special for me. Even if I try I can't explain about him. So just leave it……. I also tied rakhi on his hand, did aarti and guess what as the worlds best brother he gave me the best gift any sister will expect. I wish he will be always there to help me, guide me, and protect me. As he is so exceptional for me.

I just want to let you know
You mean the world to me
Only a heart as dear as yours
Would give so unselfishly

Always be there for me brother. Love you so much!!!

Jyoti.

HaPpiE b'Day to Me...!!!

Hey 2day is my b'day......d day on which I opened my life in this beautiful world......got the best parents in the world......!!!! I am THE BIRTHDAY PRINCESS today… and singing…….

"Happy birthday to me……
Happy birthday to me……
Happy birthday to dear ME,
Happy birthday to me……"

All together a great day,…..started with a small celebration with friends at midnight……but guess what I cried on my b'day …..coz I missed you soooo much Mama Papa and you too sweety.....it's my 2nd b'day that I am not at home...missing my family.....can't enjoy without them......I know it was pretty too much but can't help it…and just couldn't control my self and busted.

But no more sadness now…after all its my b'day yaar….I did lots of shopping, party, dinner at my favorite restaurant and watched a movie about a cute little puppy. It was a great day minus couple of things. B'days r so special......even if u get a year older u still love them.

Thanks for all wishes. Luv you all.

Jyoti

Thank you GOD!!

It was a mixed day for me. In the evening I was down but then things got worse and then improved drastically. I don't exactly know what happened but, after all this I was just wondering why we have these extreme relations in our life. Why is that some people you find are so very sarcastic? For them what they think, say and do is always correct. They don't understand what's going on with some one else and goes on supporting what they think is correct. They don't care even if what they say shatters someone's feelings or flouting other person's heart. They never care about others. I just hate, hate and HATE these kind of people.

And I wish why everyone can't be like people close to your heart. They never ask for any explanation, even if we don't say any thing they know what's going on deep in our heart. May be because they can understand our eyes which always speaks truth, neither the mirror nor the lips. And only person who loves you can see this pain deep inside you while others believe in your smile. Even if you are far from your loved ones they can make out just by your voice that what's in your heart. They always guide you towards success and when you triumph they are always there to cherish your achievements. These kinds of relations doesn't always need togetherness as long as trust lives in heart. I am really lucky to have few such people in my life. (Touch wood).

Thank you God for making them part of my life….Love you all.

Jyoti.

HAPPY FREINDSHIP DAY

Yesterday was friendship day, and it reminds me of all my friends and bond we share. Friendship for me is so special, one can't imagine life without friends. I had some very beautiful moments with my friends which I always cherish. Where we shared the laughs, the love, even some tears & small fights. When you are sad, and you feel you can't go on. A tear well in your eyes and the pain is so strong. And you feel as if you are all alone in this big world, far from your friends, family & all loved ones, no one to run to. When all seems useless and you can't take anymore.

Remember...........You can cry in one ear, Just pick up the phone and share everything you have. When you are lonely and feeling so blue. Just forget everything because Someone is thinking ...thinking of you…and that is your FRIEND. It reminds me of few lines of a poem which I read few years back but it's so true. Here it goes….

Friendship is special
Like the flowers that bloom,
When you are down
And you want to get high,
Just take a good look
Up in the sky.

What you will see
Are the stars above,
And all you need
Is to proclaim your love.

Who you will find
And see so clear,
Are friends in mind
You want to hold near.

Whenever you need them
Just look up high,
Call their name
And see them fly.

Every friend you meet
Owns a star
And you can see them
No matter how far.

Whenever you are down
And want to get high,
Just take a good look
Up in the sky.

This is for all my friends. Hope our friendship goes on forever. Because Your friendship is special like the flowers that bloom, Hope we will share sunshine and rainbows; Sometimes, the rain and the snow; And We'll stand together through it, While the cold winds blow...............HAPPY FREINDSHIP DAY!!!

With LUV
Jyoti :)

A Rainy Day

It’s a rainy day today! I am sitting in the bay with a cup of tea and watching the beauty of rain outside. It seems as if someone is dancing and a soothing music is played in the backdrop. I wish if I could dance with this beautiful dancer and just overlook people around me. This is great sight! I love the scenes the nature has created today.

It seems as if, I hear leaves drinking rain,
I hear rich leaves on top
Giving the poor beneath
Drop after drop;
This a sweet noise to hear.

I Love the touch of rain
on my face and hair and eyes,
It reminds me of a big calm sea.
Light rain-drops fall and ruffle the sea,
Then vanish, and die utterly.
One would not know that rain-drops fell

With my eyes closed I can feel the joy of walking
Barefoot on grass with raindrops on them
my heart sings, laughs with this rain.

And when the Sun comes out,
after this Rain shall stop,
a wondrous Light will fill
each dark, round drop;
I hope the Sun shines bright;
It will be a lovely sight.
Scattering colours of rainbow all over.

At this time it makes you wonder what it was like when such a purity of Lord was untouched by humanity. I wish that this beautiful sketch of nature shall always remain in front of my eyes. As I am sitting in front of my computer and writing here I could feel these raindrops on my face, cold wind hugging by body & my feet getting wet with rain…..all reminds me of the nature's beauty I have witnessed today………...

Jyoti