When I was a kid I used to write things on a currency note just before giving it to someone... with a belief that it will come to me after all that rotational motion… moving from hands of different people without knowing their caste and creed, their culture and country, from rich to poor, from black to white, from old to young…… and finally it will come to me and show me a sign that signs does exist.
It's needless to say that I never got any of those back…. but I still believe in fate and will always do; because I feel that He always gives signs to us it's just that we need to see them and understand these sign.
Serendipity…….. Signs……. Fate…… Fortune……. Coincidence……. Chance …. Destiny! What ever you call it, you consider in it or not but I have always believed in it….. and hope future won't shatter my belief and trust. Amen!
Love
Jyoti
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Dark Nights
Some of the great pleasures of life are to bask in the glory of the sun. Most of us wish that we could bask in our own glory, but basking in the glory of the sun is apt and sufficient for me. The early morning sun they say is the sun which is most preferred, simply because the properties it exudes then are most beneficial. So benefit it did I hope, as I swung on netted hammock bridging two coconut palms, on the lawns of my temporary stay……. at my dreamland... in my dreams.
A gentle breeze, the pendulum like movement, the chirping of the early morning birds and undisturbed solitude could pollute even the most rigid schedules and coax them for a change, but alas that was not to be. I had to restrict my little moment of relief and rush off to catch up for office and dream shatter here…..as no one pays for staying in dreams…. So it can't continue…..and there is neither morning sun to make it a reality….. Its already afternoon n sun is at its peak…… nothing new for a nightshift person like me.
But today after so many days I had this feeling that I am hurting my self…. Rather torturing myself in all possible way by working in night and missing everything that nature has for me… that beautiful morning sunshine, relaxing evenings!!! Though when I had that opportunity to enjoy all of this, I never valued it… and as it is said that "Morning sunrays are special for those who has spent time in darkness"….. in true sense this dark night has taught me to value my possessions.
Today I am just missing sun rays outside my office window, that evening tea at home, those night sleeps … and deep in my heart I promised myself to stop this agony.... to end this darkness in my life and see rays of happiness ones again!
Jyoti
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
It so happened!
Light is considered to be the fastest, but there is something which can even work faster than light….. any guesses?
It it's our brain …… recently some incidents happened with in a single day which reinforced by belief on this…. I was getting bored in office with different activities happening around me…. I was just lost in my world of dreams & imagination… thinking something… and to my surprise it all happened as I imagined after some time…. not once or twice but almost four to five time in few hours…. may be a silent prayer got approved, or just prediction or mind has become influential …. Don't really know what term is appropriate for it…. But it so happened!
I look behind and after
And find that all is right,
In my deepest head
There is a soul of light….. a soul of my imagination…… I felt that someone has already told me this before actual occurrence.
Is it supremacy of brain? Or a natural phenomenon? A fallacy???? What ever it was… astonishment, actuality, imagination, hallucination….. But, it so happened!
Still in illusion!
Jyoti
Monday, October 26, 2009
Body vs Mind
After a long vacation it was my first day at work which ended up as an irksome day...... overworked and underlaid ….. with lots of presentation, lectures precisely a full of ennui ……and as I lounge here in my bed where in my body has already refused to indulge in any kind of activity….. but my mind is super active……. Tired body could not stop my mind to go n follow its path ……. And as it usually does…. in my seclusion….. it went to the place where it belongs to…. YES…. HOME…..Sweet HOME!
Away from the confines of…… home, loved ones, caring, safety and hearth…….in spite of a hint of fatigue…. Mind is hugely impressed and pleased by the moments of association and times spent together in happiness and joy with family. Moments spent sharing what was ours with them and what was theirs with us…….
I believe, that a mind that once did love, that once did show affection would never be able to entirely remove those endearing moments from within. There may never ever be an occasion to relive them. But somewhere deep inside our system there is a safe compartment that houses all these feelings……even it body seems to be left alone…mind can never get detached with these moments, feelings, emotions.
I guess……if the body cannot respond to the joys of nature and mind, it is best not to have a body at all……. I feel a bit despondent and tempted towards the latter. When all else around you buzzes with activity and achievement, when the mind is ready to soar involuntarily, when it lovingly coaxes you into acts of creative ingenious levels and you discover that there is no ‘body’ to acknowledge it, then it is that you want to disassociate yourself with all else and succumb to the misery that has been implanted upon you.
And even now when my brain is a free bird….. ready to fly even higher…. My body is loosing it all… I am but too exhausted to continue any further. And retire. But this is not the end of the matter…..Basically this is all because I m missing everything bout home, family... Wish time can be controlled or even bribed…..
Any ways.....I shall return and fulfill all that is desired of me, or else …
Till then Love
Jyoti
Away from the confines of…… home, loved ones, caring, safety and hearth…….in spite of a hint of fatigue…. Mind is hugely impressed and pleased by the moments of association and times spent together in happiness and joy with family. Moments spent sharing what was ours with them and what was theirs with us…….
I believe, that a mind that once did love, that once did show affection would never be able to entirely remove those endearing moments from within. There may never ever be an occasion to relive them. But somewhere deep inside our system there is a safe compartment that houses all these feelings……even it body seems to be left alone…mind can never get detached with these moments, feelings, emotions.
I guess……if the body cannot respond to the joys of nature and mind, it is best not to have a body at all……. I feel a bit despondent and tempted towards the latter. When all else around you buzzes with activity and achievement, when the mind is ready to soar involuntarily, when it lovingly coaxes you into acts of creative ingenious levels and you discover that there is no ‘body’ to acknowledge it, then it is that you want to disassociate yourself with all else and succumb to the misery that has been implanted upon you.
And even now when my brain is a free bird….. ready to fly even higher…. My body is loosing it all… I am but too exhausted to continue any further. And retire. But this is not the end of the matter…..Basically this is all because I m missing everything bout home, family... Wish time can be controlled or even bribed…..
Any ways.....I shall return and fulfill all that is desired of me, or else …
Till then Love
Jyoti
Friday, October 23, 2009
New girl in the city!
Went to see Wake up Sid yesterday and title above is inspired from the movie but body is undoubtedly a new-fangled…. I have written things about my two years stay in Bangalore but never published it…. Partly because of time, clarity & mostly because of laziness (this always comes haunting me)….. But before I make my mind for the next step in my life I wanted to pen down some of my experience here (rest for diary only).
I landed in Bangalore because of a college friend…. It was my first visit to southern part of the country….The first thing I noticed was that most of the people were dark complexioned (plz avoid my triviality) and above that many of them had blobbed talcum or something similar on there forehead which left a grey texture. I understood why Fair & Lovely was invented and still in market even after a decade. Most of the women were fat with flashy saries and lots of gold… but that’s not all it was just one side of the coin… there were people who appears to be extra modern for a newcomer like me… it seems they have just landed from abroad…. Even a kid as small as one year old was speaking in english this was quite unusual for a ‘Gujju land’ from where I was coming…. There people find speaking in hindi also bit difficult…. Though it was also true here.
That’s not all we came out of airport to take auto my friend told some unpronounceable name that’s where we have to go….… “Benagan….gali.. haaa…li”…. “Khagga…dasa..pura”... Oophs so difficult….. Ok after some discussion auto diver agreed on twenty bucks extra… it took 20 min to reach his place…… on the way I saw some big poster of politicians & movies. Political parties have kept poster like many people were forced to stand in a row and I don’t know which political party it was as neither the symbol nor the individuals were familiar to me……. As far a movie poster were concern there was fat hero with mustache which made me sick and I felt that all my friends & uncles can be actor in South Indian movies…. Anyways……..finally we reached…and driver asked for 200 bucks …. And then again a long argument… I was just a spectator with no clue….some english words and rest all Greek n Latin for me… 200 pay maadi… something something…… meter…. something something….. ask maadi….something something. And after a long fight we settled at 150. After all this I came to know few facts about the city that autowalas are like dacoits here……. And they are always ready to fool new North Indians... and there are many unpronounceable names which I have to encounter with…. I regretted my decision for sometime to come to this place… but amateur buccaneer in me took over & made me ready to face things…..
And this is still true even after two years… autowalas are still the same even those posters, those fat aunties and uncles with grey forehead…. And even me who still don’t know the language and all South Indian languages still sounds similar to me….. something something …. ‘Inder… pinder… Ponder’… (my sister’s version)….something something. But life has changed and things which used to be excited earlier now seems to me monotonous and boring for me… and I guess it’s the time for me to be a new girl in some other new city and challenge my self again…and explore new things.
Jyoti
Inspired by Two states.
I landed in Bangalore because of a college friend…. It was my first visit to southern part of the country….The first thing I noticed was that most of the people were dark complexioned (plz avoid my triviality) and above that many of them had blobbed talcum or something similar on there forehead which left a grey texture. I understood why Fair & Lovely was invented and still in market even after a decade. Most of the women were fat with flashy saries and lots of gold… but that’s not all it was just one side of the coin… there were people who appears to be extra modern for a newcomer like me… it seems they have just landed from abroad…. Even a kid as small as one year old was speaking in english this was quite unusual for a ‘Gujju land’ from where I was coming…. There people find speaking in hindi also bit difficult…. Though it was also true here.
That’s not all we came out of airport to take auto my friend told some unpronounceable name that’s where we have to go….… “Benagan….gali.. haaa…li”…. “Khagga…dasa..pura”... Oophs so difficult….. Ok after some discussion auto diver agreed on twenty bucks extra… it took 20 min to reach his place…… on the way I saw some big poster of politicians & movies. Political parties have kept poster like many people were forced to stand in a row and I don’t know which political party it was as neither the symbol nor the individuals were familiar to me……. As far a movie poster were concern there was fat hero with mustache which made me sick and I felt that all my friends & uncles can be actor in South Indian movies…. Anyways……..finally we reached…and driver asked for 200 bucks …. And then again a long argument… I was just a spectator with no clue….some english words and rest all Greek n Latin for me… 200 pay maadi… something something…… meter…. something something….. ask maadi….something something. And after a long fight we settled at 150. After all this I came to know few facts about the city that autowalas are like dacoits here……. And they are always ready to fool new North Indians... and there are many unpronounceable names which I have to encounter with…. I regretted my decision for sometime to come to this place… but amateur buccaneer in me took over & made me ready to face things…..
And this is still true even after two years… autowalas are still the same even those posters, those fat aunties and uncles with grey forehead…. And even me who still don’t know the language and all South Indian languages still sounds similar to me….. something something …. ‘Inder… pinder… Ponder’… (my sister’s version)….something something. But life has changed and things which used to be excited earlier now seems to me monotonous and boring for me… and I guess it’s the time for me to be a new girl in some other new city and challenge my self again…and explore new things.
Jyoti
Inspired by Two states.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Singing birds
Always keep hoping for the good. As the Chinese say - ‘Keep a green tree in your heart, the singing bird will surely come!!
I got this magazine which had this proverb...... as we lounged around in the day, not doing anything of particular importance. Hope and its manifestation in the Chinese proverb came across with some strength and character. Lucky are they that keep hope so positively alive. The good fortune of always being able to hope for the good may sound utopian in its belief, but if the Chinese are saying it they must have reason to say so. One does not necessarily argue with the Chinese.
But yes, the green tree of hope is symbolically within its right to expect the singing bird to arrive. For a perennial pessimist like me, the above may not make adequate sense and neither would it be acceptable to most that spend devotion with me, but it is an admirable twist of fate that despite these handicaps, the song of the singing bird has always been most sweet and melodious within my construct. Perhaps it was destiny, perhaps fate, but it did accomplish and reward.
I wish tree in my heart will soon be embrace by singing birds. Amen!
Peace
Jyoti.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Angels
These days I am reading a lot about guardian angels, Soulmate, Valkyrines, seraph, archangel and things like that….. after reading all these I just wonder if these things really exist or its just an imagination, a fiction… Don’t know but I always believe in things like these..... as I used to blv in fairy tales when I was a kid.
Anyways, when ever I think of angel I question myself…… Do they really exist? What are they for? How they look like? Do they have wings? Are they really messengers? And after all this I feel that where can I find mine...... in dreams, in my wonderland or in this world?
But if one tries to find his/her angel in this pragmatic world more often than not he or she will find a individual who resembles his/her angel…. Who will help her at every point… shows path like a guiding star and when you triumph he/she is always there to cherish your achievements and make your success even more meaningful.
So I guess its not wrong if we say that, we are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another. We all have angels in our life; some people just don't recognize them even when they are standing right in front of them.
Hope so I can see mine soon n able to recognise ... :))
Jyoti
Anyways, when ever I think of angel I question myself…… Do they really exist? What are they for? How they look like? Do they have wings? Are they really messengers? And after all this I feel that where can I find mine...... in dreams, in my wonderland or in this world?
But if one tries to find his/her angel in this pragmatic world more often than not he or she will find a individual who resembles his/her angel…. Who will help her at every point… shows path like a guiding star and when you triumph he/she is always there to cherish your achievements and make your success even more meaningful.
So I guess its not wrong if we say that, we are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another. We all have angels in our life; some people just don't recognize them even when they are standing right in front of them.
Hope so I can see mine soon n able to recognise ... :))
Jyoti
Saturday, October 17, 2009
The festival of light!
Happy & a prosperous Deepavali to all…. wish this deepavali brings lots of happiness n love in ur life...bright lights,brighter smiles….. Health, peace and good will. Laughter, joy and success. All these I wish for all my friends & family, for their loved ones and friends. May we all remain together in an endless bond. May we respect and admire our individuality. May we give strength to each other, be in compassion and love. And may all of this be with you for eternity.
This festival of lights, diyas, rangoli's is one of the most sought to be festival....... Messages, Phones are coming like anything. The decorative lights of Diwali are all up in every home, in every corner. The firecrackers explode all over the city, people are out in celebration on the streets, traffic is horrendous, but an air of festive spirit abounds. It is the hour of gaiety and laughter and expressing affection and cheer to one and all. Blessings are sought from the elders, gifts and sweet delicacies are exchanged.
There is warmth throughout and the Goddess of Wealth, Lakshmi is remembered in prayer and thought. The ‘diyas’ that are lit around the house, the lights that illuminate every abode are an invitation to the goddess to enter into our humble homes and bless us with her benevolence. Card games, mostly flush, are played in the evenings with guests that visit. Lakshmi is sought in all the winnings and they become an indicator of what and how the rest of the year will turn out for them.
May this festival of light brings us clearer air to breathe and less electricty bills...say NO to crackers and try switching off the lights after a certain point and keep the volume low! Plz ppl its my humble request...make an effort..it isn't that hard... Happy Diwali!
Luv
Jyoti
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Mystified
Ever since the first time I met you the sun has shined brighter and the flowers smelt better...Oh Chocolate! You are my true love….. This was a childhood expression that I guess most of the chocolate lovers like me must have thought........
Now I guess, one should not ask "What is God's will for my life?" ask "What is God's will." It's not about your life, but about what God wants.......Because only that matters........
Hope something good will is there for me in God’s treasure…..
Jyoti
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Miss confused
I am a little miss sad, little miss confused, little miss lonely, little miss lost + a whole heap of others coz I cant put into words how I feels right now.
I guess I should take out few things from my mind today as its over loaded.......n shows syntax error!
Jyoti
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
My new Art
I am becoming an artist these days…. (One of my friends told me)…… I some how agree with what she has said…. Poetry (bad hi sahi poet to hu), painter, Dancer, some times a singer (though only bathroom singer)….. But I love doing all these.
And here is my new art session this time instead of paper I tried it on my hand and see what I got…..
Love
Jyoti
Monday, October 12, 2009
SHOPPING
"Consumerism is all about selling stuff to people which they don't need but are made to want by fancy marketing".
I guess this one statement makes me shop over cautiously and judging the value of a goods over and over again before buying. This might sound to be a very prudent habit but it's not and now it does create a lot of problem.
Like a typical girl I just love shopping and till last few months I used to buy things like crazy… Every weekend one can find me in one of those big malls in Bangalore… shopping… some thing or the other. Every week I found something missing in my wardrobe and hence a shopping .... and like any female I ended up buying almost double the list. It happened so many times and after all those shopping's I had that guilty feeling. But it doesn't last long so I repeat it again and again and again... shamelessly.
Till one day when I was cleaning my wardrobe and realized that, "I have so many thing with me which I don't use… almost 70% of my cupboard is filled with these kinds of stuff". Some not even tried once…. Earlier Mom used to scold me for this but this was the first time I realized this and I felt so bad that after that I haven't done any shopping (I mean big shopping) till date. And now I just hesitate to go for one……
Yesterday I went to buy a digital camera.... as I got this new hobby of photography..... But I guess I was living in Stone Age with respect to the price range of cameras which I expected. I thought would buy a Sony/ Samsung camera with a max budget of 7 to 8,000 INR. All my hopes came crumbling down like I hope Modi's government will in the near future. I mean all decent Camera started at that range.
The ones I liked: 2 Sony, 1 Nikon and a Samsung ranged from 9,000 to 20,000. So being the ever so cautious and judgmental buyer… (At least now) I came back (for the 3rd time in a space of 7 months) without a Camera. Sigh.....
But today I again went as a gallant Viking to conquer the castle (here, Camera;)) and again came back empty handed. Found a Kodak camera with a great look but an equally disappointing picels @11000INC.
This was not the end though since I managed to blow up more than 10k of my Dad's hard earned money in other items. Which now sounds so irrelevant.
1) A business Suit from Peter England
2) Jeans from Levis
3) Nike Shoes
4) Costly Spectacles
5) Oriflame Perfumes & Lipsticks
6) Some funky handbags
7) Lakme Lipsticks & Liners
OMG! The list is so long that I really feel embarrassed to write it… But, Frankly speaking….I am quite satisfied and happy today. As Mom took me for Diwali shopping.... It's been ages since I bought so much things in a small span of time without thinking about its value and worth and prospects in future and this and that... And it felt great.
I hope I can show the same immaculate form while buying a Camera next time.
Wish me luck...
Jiya....
I guess this one statement makes me shop over cautiously and judging the value of a goods over and over again before buying. This might sound to be a very prudent habit but it's not and now it does create a lot of problem.
Like a typical girl I just love shopping and till last few months I used to buy things like crazy… Every weekend one can find me in one of those big malls in Bangalore… shopping… some thing or the other. Every week I found something missing in my wardrobe and hence a shopping .... and like any female I ended up buying almost double the list. It happened so many times and after all those shopping's I had that guilty feeling. But it doesn't last long so I repeat it again and again and again... shamelessly.
Till one day when I was cleaning my wardrobe and realized that, "I have so many thing with me which I don't use… almost 70% of my cupboard is filled with these kinds of stuff". Some not even tried once…. Earlier Mom used to scold me for this but this was the first time I realized this and I felt so bad that after that I haven't done any shopping (I mean big shopping) till date. And now I just hesitate to go for one……
Yesterday I went to buy a digital camera.... as I got this new hobby of photography..... But I guess I was living in Stone Age with respect to the price range of cameras which I expected. I thought would buy a Sony/ Samsung camera with a max budget of 7 to 8,000 INR. All my hopes came crumbling down like I hope Modi's government will in the near future. I mean all decent Camera started at that range.
The ones I liked: 2 Sony, 1 Nikon and a Samsung ranged from 9,000 to 20,000. So being the ever so cautious and judgmental buyer… (At least now) I came back (for the 3rd time in a space of 7 months) without a Camera. Sigh.....
But today I again went as a gallant Viking to conquer the castle (here, Camera;)) and again came back empty handed. Found a Kodak camera with a great look but an equally disappointing picels @11000INC.
This was not the end though since I managed to blow up more than 10k of my Dad's hard earned money in other items. Which now sounds so irrelevant.
1) A business Suit from Peter England
2) Jeans from Levis
3) Nike Shoes
4) Costly Spectacles
5) Oriflame Perfumes & Lipsticks
6) Some funky handbags
7) Lakme Lipsticks & Liners
OMG! The list is so long that I really feel embarrassed to write it… But, Frankly speaking….I am quite satisfied and happy today. As Mom took me for Diwali shopping.... It's been ages since I bought so much things in a small span of time without thinking about its value and worth and prospects in future and this and that... And it felt great.
I hope I can show the same immaculate form while buying a Camera next time.
Wish me luck...
Jiya....
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Home
The flight to Ahmedabad was peaceful till I slept to catch up on lost sleep. A kind and considerate friend took care of all my belonging while I was in deep slumber; it was a bit cold in the flight. Closer home there were feelings, thoughts, flashbacks…. and then home. Again.
Most of the day was spent in catching up on what the others were up to.
Everyone (especially …AUNTIES) was interested in knowing everything……I must say….. Women are like the police. They can have all the evidence in the World, but they still want a confession. But any ways, after so many months all this is acceptable.
It's a relief to be back at your home after all those tiring months…nothing can make you so comfortable. Enjoying everything about home. Hope this time never ends.
Luv
Jyoti
Almost missed it!
Tomorrow..... oopsh Today....... I have to catch flight @ 10 AM so need to leave early from here around 5.30 as airport is very far, & due to excitment (or may be fear I don't know which one to blame) my adrenaline level is shooting up..... I am not able to sleep.... I tried sleeping twice but all in vein...
Excited!!...obviously, for going home after a long time and Fear.......of missing flight... either because of sleep or traffic or something like that.... I don't know why but this is killing me.... everytime I have to catch an early morning or late evening flights/train I find myself stuck in this fear... and an incident comes in my mind...which make this fear double.....
As I can't sleep any ways so let me put that incident out here as it happened...........
"14 August night as we all know is one of the longest one in Indian history….n it also became a longest of my life also in 2008. It was a very exciting night, one which I can never ever forget in my life……….C'oz I almost missed my flight
On 14 August 2008 entire Bangalore seems to come on roads. Not that they were celebrating Pakistan’s independence or staging a dharna against it, but they were all rushing to their nests in their hometowns. It was that long weekend, which each employee eagerly wait for…. And the preparation for the same starts months before. Same also happened with me, I planned to go home.
As on all vacations, trains seems to be running high on waiting list and the travel agents mint money with people ready to dole out huge sums for that tatkal ticket… so in order to avoid all these last minute mess and train issues….I booked my flight ticket in advance……..and….started my shopping…….packing……..as I was really very excited because was going home after 5 months this time……….AND Finally, came the D-day the 14th August. My Flight was at 9:00 pm and I heard a lot about Bangalore traffic but luckily never encountered it.... (lucky me).....so, thought of leaving early………..
I started my day early @ 9.30 am as I was left with some end moment activities…some shopping, visiting a parlor, some office work and all that. Went to office finished off my work around 1 pm. Then went for shopping and other stuff and guess what I could not get things which I needed....... so had to browse some more shops......and then when I step out of parlor after all last minute things it was already 5.15 and I was sure that I can not reach home before 6.00.
By the time I got ready and was done with the final packing the clock struck 6.15. It was at this moment that I realized I had misplaced my flight ticket. And while I was searching for this, I happened to stumble across the older ticket and pocketed it, else even that I would have left back. Then When I came out to take auto I realized that I don't have money so need to go to ATM first. And then finally I started my journey towards airport. Half an hour passed and I was still pretty close to my house. Another half and hour gone and still the airport was not to be seen. Half an hour passed and I was still pretty close to my house. Another half and hour gone and still the airport was not to be seen. The best they could help me was to refund me something in case I missed my flight!! Done with all this, my watch told me it was 9.00 and I should press the Panic button.
Finally I was off auto and running like a mad…it was raining heavily and with my best of luck my shoe cracked at that very moment I had no time to take out other one from the bag so I was just running without shoes. It was so embarrassing running without shoes on that dirty road but trust me it was real..... I haven't thought of this in my wildest dream...
And all around me I could see cars, autos everywhere but none of them could move. And when my legs gave up and I could see the turn for the airport. I just forgot everything, and gather all my energy and started running even faster. Finally reached there at 9.15, I was treated as a VIP on that day…and then at last after security check when I board the flight I was sure that Ok I am finally going after all that mess. And called everyone at home informing that I am finally coming. "
Alas! What a day…things sometimes goes out of control.... and make you believe in Him even more.
And I am still here struggling to sleep and its already 3:50 AM....so I guess I should do my packing...and get ready for my journey.
Jyoti
Excited!!...obviously, for going home after a long time and Fear.......of missing flight... either because of sleep or traffic or something like that.... I don't know why but this is killing me.... everytime I have to catch an early morning or late evening flights/train I find myself stuck in this fear... and an incident comes in my mind...which make this fear double.....
As I can't sleep any ways so let me put that incident out here as it happened...........
"14 August night as we all know is one of the longest one in Indian history….n it also became a longest of my life also in 2008. It was a very exciting night, one which I can never ever forget in my life……….C'oz I almost missed my flight
On 14 August 2008 entire Bangalore seems to come on roads. Not that they were celebrating Pakistan’s independence or staging a dharna against it, but they were all rushing to their nests in their hometowns. It was that long weekend, which each employee eagerly wait for…. And the preparation for the same starts months before. Same also happened with me, I planned to go home.
As on all vacations, trains seems to be running high on waiting list and the travel agents mint money with people ready to dole out huge sums for that tatkal ticket… so in order to avoid all these last minute mess and train issues….I booked my flight ticket in advance……..and….started my shopping…….packing……..as I was really very excited because was going home after 5 months this time……….AND Finally, came the D-day the 14th August. My Flight was at 9:00 pm and I heard a lot about Bangalore traffic but luckily never encountered it.... (lucky me).....so, thought of leaving early………..
I started my day early @ 9.30 am as I was left with some end moment activities…some shopping, visiting a parlor, some office work and all that. Went to office finished off my work around 1 pm. Then went for shopping and other stuff and guess what I could not get things which I needed....... so had to browse some more shops......and then when I step out of parlor after all last minute things it was already 5.15 and I was sure that I can not reach home before 6.00.
By the time I got ready and was done with the final packing the clock struck 6.15. It was at this moment that I realized I had misplaced my flight ticket. And while I was searching for this, I happened to stumble across the older ticket and pocketed it, else even that I would have left back. Then When I came out to take auto I realized that I don't have money so need to go to ATM first. And then finally I started my journey towards airport. Half an hour passed and I was still pretty close to my house. Another half and hour gone and still the airport was not to be seen. Half an hour passed and I was still pretty close to my house. Another half and hour gone and still the airport was not to be seen. The best they could help me was to refund me something in case I missed my flight!! Done with all this, my watch told me it was 9.00 and I should press the Panic button.
Finally I was off auto and running like a mad…it was raining heavily and with my best of luck my shoe cracked at that very moment I had no time to take out other one from the bag so I was just running without shoes. It was so embarrassing running without shoes on that dirty road but trust me it was real..... I haven't thought of this in my wildest dream...
And all around me I could see cars, autos everywhere but none of them could move. And when my legs gave up and I could see the turn for the airport. I just forgot everything, and gather all my energy and started running even faster. Finally reached there at 9.15, I was treated as a VIP on that day…and then at last after security check when I board the flight I was sure that Ok I am finally going after all that mess. And called everyone at home informing that I am finally coming. "
Alas! What a day…things sometimes goes out of control.... and make you believe in Him even more.
And I am still here struggling to sleep and its already 3:50 AM....so I guess I should do my packing...and get ready for my journey.
Jyoti
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Magical Festive season called, LIFE!
"Life is not a rehearsal. Each day is a new show. No repeat no rewind, so give your best short in all your worthy acts as the show goes on & on…"
These are the words sent by someone very special…. And it left me in questioning mode… Questions about life in general, my life, past life of people including me, future life, mysteries of life, decisions in life, relations in life, Attitude towards & in life, Ups & downs in life………. And so many it just seems endless. There are so many things about this life which are still unanswered.
In life one faces different situations and each situations seems to be unique in its own way….Sometimes you feel that everything is in your control and nothing can go wrong from here…. You are the master of your life…….. And the very next moment destiny plays its part…and takes all control from you and you feel it was just a dream.
It makes you feel that, Life is sometimes never fair, but what you fail to understand that the times that is never fair you learn the most. Unlike our schools where we learn a lesson and then give exam, Life always takes your exam in its own unique way and after that teaches you a lesson….. for situations where every one of us arrive, at that time of life where one have to learn which bridges to cross and which ones to burn.
Sometimes when you want something the only person stopping you from taking it is you because life has its own means and mediums for every accomplishment. Everyone wants lots of things in his/her life….and while doing so most of the times we find that life does not gives us everything we wanted but trust me it will always give you things you need and even more than that……
Having a place to go is home, having someone to love is family, and having both is a blessing…. And if life has given you this blessing then you should be thankful as everyone on this earth is not so lucky to have this. So, make sure to thank Almighty for all the blessing He has given to you.
I am a no philosopher or poet or saint or a politician…. so I can not memorize all these philosophical things in real life… So there is only one thing which I keep in mind to assist all my actions……i.e.….. "Life is like a coin, it's your choice how you spend it, but you should remember you can only spend it once"….. So live your life with no regrets, only happiness & memories of the lessons you learned and time you spent with loved ones. This is the way I see this magical festive season called, LIFE!
Peace & Happiness!
Jyoti
These are the words sent by someone very special…. And it left me in questioning mode… Questions about life in general, my life, past life of people including me, future life, mysteries of life, decisions in life, relations in life, Attitude towards & in life, Ups & downs in life………. And so many it just seems endless. There are so many things about this life which are still unanswered.
In life one faces different situations and each situations seems to be unique in its own way….Sometimes you feel that everything is in your control and nothing can go wrong from here…. You are the master of your life…….. And the very next moment destiny plays its part…and takes all control from you and you feel it was just a dream.
It makes you feel that, Life is sometimes never fair, but what you fail to understand that the times that is never fair you learn the most. Unlike our schools where we learn a lesson and then give exam, Life always takes your exam in its own unique way and after that teaches you a lesson….. for situations where every one of us arrive, at that time of life where one have to learn which bridges to cross and which ones to burn.
Sometimes when you want something the only person stopping you from taking it is you because life has its own means and mediums for every accomplishment. Everyone wants lots of things in his/her life….and while doing so most of the times we find that life does not gives us everything we wanted but trust me it will always give you things you need and even more than that……
Having a place to go is home, having someone to love is family, and having both is a blessing…. And if life has given you this blessing then you should be thankful as everyone on this earth is not so lucky to have this. So, make sure to thank Almighty for all the blessing He has given to you.
I am a no philosopher or poet or saint or a politician…. so I can not memorize all these philosophical things in real life… So there is only one thing which I keep in mind to assist all my actions……i.e.….. "Life is like a coin, it's your choice how you spend it, but you should remember you can only spend it once"….. So live your life with no regrets, only happiness & memories of the lessons you learned and time you spent with loved ones. This is the way I see this magical festive season called, LIFE!
Peace & Happiness!
Jyoti
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Ooopssh!
Ooopssh! …… I nearly fell asleep in today's long long meeting cum training cum lecture cum downloading session…. (I have lot more to add to it)…. And that's why I just hate these business meeting with lots of downloads.
And Here I am in the office and blogging… just after that boring meeting…. But then, hats off to Google. At least blog is one thing which can make me contented even in office.
Hmmm… I now have a reason to stay back. Stay back longer ... of course.
Now only one more thing could make me happier, if someone read this. :-)
jYoTi
And Here I am in the office and blogging… just after that boring meeting…. But then, hats off to Google. At least blog is one thing which can make me contented even in office.
Hmmm… I now have a reason to stay back. Stay back longer ... of course.
Now only one more thing could make me happier, if someone read this. :-)
jYoTi
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Uncluttered
I deleted all the conversations from my mailbox & Orkut today….everything…the good….the bad….the best….the worst …without any partiality… I removed all unwanted stuff from my cupboard, my kitchen…. All unwanted new, old, good, bad everything which is now useless for me…… and I have so much space now….. every where in my cupboard, my kitchen, my inbox and even in my mind…… it seems I have uncluttered my mind & thoughts….. It feels great!
In meeting today, I started sketching something in my notepad, though there was nothing in my mind……. I just started drawing...I finally ended up drawing a few squares and a few absurd figures which I do not recognize. Then I picked up the pen and started shading it. My friend found it a useless piece. She said “You are drawing like a kid!” “That is what I wanted to feel like for now”- I said.
I bought few poster colors, few brushes and few sheets which I bought few days back planning to do something with them. There is nothing in my mind lets see what I get this time...
Peace
Jyoti
P.S: Gmail says- “No conversations in the Trash. Who needs to delete when you have over 2000 MB of storage?! “ But believe me, it is still advisable to throw the garbage!"
Monday, October 5, 2009
Retro music
I was listening to some old Hindi movie songs and was simply carried away by the music, lyrics, voices…. It was a great feeling. As such I love music any music that makes my soul happy, but I have this special corner for old Hindi movie songs… especially retro music. Not only retro music every thing about retro is so nice. Those flowery dress, bellbottoms, eye catchy makeup & hair styles…. Dance moves, which in today's era seems so weird... But you just can't stop yourself dancing on that music.
Even I feel like dancing….. its such a fun to have a flashback even for music.
Jyoti
Even I feel like dancing….. its such a fun to have a flashback even for music.
Jyoti
Friday, October 2, 2009
Monsoon Girl!
This was a great week in terms of weather out here in Bangalore …Every day in morning it rained and by the time lazy people like me wake up sun comes out and its rays coming out of those dark black clouds looks beautiful as if some one has put that silver cover on sun and its trying to escape…. Then by afternoon Sun starts this hide and seeks game with us… some times shining brightly and the very next moment it's just lost behind those clouds…..
At the hours of daylight when Sun should be at its peak, Sun is just no where and it appears as if morning has just changed to evening leaving daylight far behind…. And I just wonder who kidnapped the sun and replaced it with a river of rain?!
Gust of cold wind replaces the light of sun… cloudburst and it starts raining…and I feel like slipping in my blanket and enjoy a hot coffee…. ALAS! …. Dam this office ruins my entire dream…. I wish I could just bunk it like college and spent this breathtaking moments in the lap of nature….But unfortunately I can't….HUH
However I am happy today because I know better days are coming. They're called Saturday and Sunday. Hurray, I can enjoy every moment of this magnificent weather….. I simply love walking when it drizzles… dancing in rain… In short I just love everything about rain….. I guess I am a Monsoon Girl!
Luv
Jyoti
At the hours of daylight when Sun should be at its peak, Sun is just no where and it appears as if morning has just changed to evening leaving daylight far behind…. And I just wonder who kidnapped the sun and replaced it with a river of rain?!
Gust of cold wind replaces the light of sun… cloudburst and it starts raining…and I feel like slipping in my blanket and enjoy a hot coffee…. ALAS! …. Dam this office ruins my entire dream…. I wish I could just bunk it like college and spent this breathtaking moments in the lap of nature….But unfortunately I can't….HUH
However I am happy today because I know better days are coming. They're called Saturday and Sunday. Hurray, I can enjoy every moment of this magnificent weather….. I simply love walking when it drizzles… dancing in rain… In short I just love everything about rain….. I guess I am a Monsoon Girl!
Luv
Jyoti
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Blast of Thoughts
A day with lots of planning, Thoughts, Ideas, some execution and lots of work! And now I am dam exhausted not in mood to cook anything…will manage with pizza.... Oh, Mom missing you. :((
Anyways, today in office we had this brain storm session about an upcoming project and as usual I talked a lot but after that when I was recollecting things…. I just felt that…. How wonderful to be in a capacity to share and grow our thought process, without allowing our ego to come in the way. There is something to learn from everyone. No one is inferior in thought and feeling. Each one of us is gifted with wisdom. Some get an opportunity to spell it out, some do not. But just because one did not get that opportunity, does it put him or her down? Does it permit others to look at them with an attitude of superiority? No, it most certainly does not.
All this made this made a blast of thoughts in my mind.... about Thoughts........As rightly said by Mahatma Gandhi, "A man is a product of his thoughts what he thinks that he becomes" ….. That means what we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday, and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow: Our life is the creation of our mind........But, Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings - always darker, emptier and simpler. And as feeling can't be control so are thoughts. Thought is free like this air..... Then how to deal with all this?
But sometimes I feel that, lesser the traffic of thoughts in your mind, easier the journey of life. But the other part is also equally true that since we think we are human otherwise there is no difference between any other living being and human beings….. Man's greatness lies in his power of thought.
These thoughts are really uncanny....if you have ever notice, Thoughts are powerful....Thoughts which comes to ur mind...can become Blood pressure, Cholesterol, heart problems and if directed in correct direction they lead to happiness, Life.... in other words, whats happening in your conscious mind has more impact then whats happening in your genes.
OMG…This Blast of thoughts..... there are so many things at the same.....all in disconnect..... I can just go on & on.....but I guess, its time to stop here......give some rest to my mind as well.... so that I can direct this blast of thoughts to Happiness & Life.
Happiness
Jyoti
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