Claptrap

Just thinking (Jyoti Chauhan thinks!), what to write… from last few days I have become a slow blogger… even though I have so many things in my diary which I can post here… but somehow I am too lazy for that…. Sloth is the Sin I commit almost every day.


But today when I decided to write something.....I had few ideas… but the moment I started writing nothing was coming out on the screen…. As if a blackout happened in my mind….Ooophsss…. I don’t know, why I am saying this.

If I don’t know what to write, why am I forcing myself to write? What the catch?? Am here to find it out. I think it’s to make up an image….but is this really a place to do so???? The way I want it to be? And by the way what are my plans to do. Why am I writing it here and not in my personal diary?

hmmmmm........ OMG so much for my little mind!!!

Is it because...with every passing day I am getting insecure and wondering about the significance of my existence on this planet....... I think so....I think writing anything down gives a sense of solidity and permanence. Writing here helps or at least gives a feeling that it’s going to help. Helps to make a space for yourself. Even if it just e-space. Permanence. Yes, each passing moment seems ungraspable. Permanence can only be brought with the help of friends, relationships, memories... and blogs (really or it’s just my insecurity making me think so... whatever but I can safely assume this!!)

Now that I am clear as to why am I writing, the next thing would be to write something…BUT, MEANINGFUL this time.......I guess I have written enough…. Claptrap for a single day!

Jyoti