Let go!

It is so important to let certain things go from your life, from your memories. To remove them… to cut loose.


People need to understand that here no one playing cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Life is not only winning or losing, it’s more than that. Its emotions, feeling, reactions, efforts, expression, love, peace, illusion, imagination, journey, destination, heart & soul, likes & dislikes, relations, giving…. But, don’t expect to get anything back, don’t expect recognition for your efforts, and don’t expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood.

Don’t expect anything as expectations hurt. Just complete the circles….. not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is that no longer fits in your circle, in your life has to go out of it to create a space for new things to enter in the cycle.

Start out with symbolic things like……Close the door, change the record, clean the house, and get rid of the dust. Throw away those unused clothes, crockery or for that matter anything that is blocking your house, your space, your life.

Stop being who you were and become who you are by let going past memories, clothes etc. and create a vacuum for new ones to arrive.

So today when this year is about to end I am also trying to release all those things that are blocking my path, my life, my thoughts…. With the hope that the new ones shall follow and complete the circle of my existence.

Sayonara…. 2009…. Let go with you all the bad memories …what remains are the good things to cherish….Happiness & contentment is all over as we wait for 2010.....with all that it has to offer.

Goodbye 2009 :o)
Jyoti

Its Party time now and I m gonna party hard today!

Nature at it's best!

Nature is an infinite sphere of which the center is everywhere and the circumference nowhere. Nature teaches more than she preaches. There are no sermons in stones. It is easier to get a spark out of a stone than a moral. Its present all over but still thousands of human eyes cannot grasp nature’s beauty in life time. We all Sees the beauty of nature with awe and oyez. We often fail to see nature’s beauty and to fully appraise. We often Falls short in description of Sunset & sunrise.


I am already struggling to describe my experience in words so here are few glimpses of it.

God is the Gardner for sure!

Clouds above, clouds below, path ahead!

Merry Christmas!

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It’s Christmas Eve and like every year its loads of fun, Secret Santa gifts, cake, decorations in office and yes Party time….. Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful… as if angles came down to decorate entire earth for Christmas.


Today I thought of writing a letter to Mr. Santa….. My letter to Santa starts off a little something like this: "Dear Santa, I can explain all the mistakes I did this year so please please don’t keep me in the bad list keep me in the Good or at least in naughty list …. Give lots and lots of present with biggest one being peace and love as other things have no value if I don’t have this ………. Blah… Blah…. Blah… Blah… Blah…… (And it continues)

Anyways this time I have finally figured out the colors of Xmas! Red for the blood, sweat and tears we shed, green for the money we spend, and white for the padded room we need.

Christmas is about the joy you spread to others, the gifts that cannot be bought or measured; and the heart in which we give and receive them all! Though I feel that Christmas, isn't only about the presents, it’s about family and watching faces light up when they see what is inside the presents. The Magic of Christmas isn’t present; it’s the time you spend with near and dear ones.

So here I'm wishing everyone that kinda Christmas that everyone always expects……and also those new years that everyone always regrets. My wish is for the unemployed to find employment, families to be together and this next year to be better than the last for everyone.

I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year….. as it is Christmas in the heart that puts Christmas in the air and hopes the same for everyone.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Jyoti

P.S:

And whoever read this have to give me lots of presents…. ;) …. remember Christmas is a time for giving, so give generously; I accept credit cards, cheques and cash precisely everything.

Piece of music

One thing that touches me every day…… knowingly or unknowingly it has become part of my life. So I thought of writing about it which stays with most of the time, whether its office, home, journey, solitude or with friends… it always finds its space to slip in…Its MUSIC.


Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul. Music is one thing that has the power to transform a person who is ready to devote all his senses to the soul of music. It takes you to a trance and relaxes as if you are in some other world … which is far better, far superior. Good music is not only pleasant to your ears but to your heart, your sub-conscious mind, your soul and create harmony of spheres.

Music has a definite effect on people, animals, and plants. In fact it can have a powerful influence on our body, mind, and emotions.

It can be a very strong influence. Some music can calm us down; some music can make us wild! It brings with it the emotions and life of its own…. When I feel sad and lonely one thing I do is listen to music ….slow and soothing music… whenever I am happy I listen to music…fast, trendy, romantic and my body dance with each beat of it either virtually or literally…..when I am afraid & in confusion…I listen to music…some motivational, and sweet music…..So music stays with me even though the taste changes with my mood…. And it is also other way round. I am sure it’s true for most people….

Good music indeed has a dynamic impact on our everyday lives. In many ways it helps us stay in tune mentally, physically, and spiritually. Music with a ‘beat’ can stimulate your body; music with powerful melodies and harmonies performed with feeling can make you weep or cry out with joy; Music can move the soul. As it is moving mine while I am writing here I can feel various emotions flowing in the air and as the song changes emotions & flow of energy changes…. So are my thoughts.
When you like some music…..it doesn’t matter which language it is using to reach you… As Music knows no language…… Sometimes I end up listening music in a language I never heard before or don’t know….but my heart likes that music and it becomes part of it. … Music can compel us to laugh, to cry, to worship God. It can calm us or whip us into an emotional foot-stomping frenzy.

Playing "our song" can trigger memories and nostalgic moods. At least in my case I do get nostalgic or start crying after some very touchy numbers. Recently it happened with ‘Tare Zameen Pe’ movie’s ‘Maa..’ song or Rang de Basanti’s “Lukha chuppi..” song. There are many more in old songs list. Music really bring out emotions we never really care in our day to day life.
Music is enough for a lifetime, but a lifetime is not enough for music… so there is lot which is still untouched and probably I don’t have words to express it anymore as music can be understood by experience only and not by mere theories. So have your daily dose of music and experience it your way.

The Collective Focus Syndrome

When we are interested in something… and not only our mind but our soul also thinks of it….then everything around us appears to refer to that thing.


The Mystics call these phenomena ‘Signs’, the Septic ‘Coincidence’ and psychologist ‘Concentrated focus’. Although I have no idea what Pragmatic people call it…. And I being bit of inventive prefer to call it ‘The Collective focus Syndrome’.

As this happens when different thoughts, things, people etc, etc… ends up showing us the same thing which our subconscious mind is thinking. Every thing ends up at that very thought. Its like where ever you go these signs, reminders whatever you prefer to call it always reminds you of the that thing.

I have experienced this so many times…let me give you very simple example of nail paint. Recently I thought of buying few nail enamels and I ended up picking few very tricky shades of green & blue (which I had never seen before)... so thought of trying something different. And guess what from that day onwards every day I see someone or the other with same shade…. It seems as if all girls in the city bought same colors overnight. But it can be a fashion of difference you never know…. Some models or actress might have promoted those shades that night which I missed. Never know…. So here I am with one more incident not as silly as my nail polish incident… but only a lil bit like me :o)

Few months back I joined dance class & at the end of the course we have to perform on a particular song in the show. So our instructor selected a song for us….. Ours was a peppy number but bit old…. But to my surprise every day either on radio or while browsing channels on TV, in cab, neighbor’s house, caller tunes, ipods…. From some where or the other that songs comes to my ear as if whole world around me is listening the same thing….. It seems that some one directing things towards me.

Some thing similar happened yesterday which provoked me to write this post......Few days back I made my mind about something very important about my career but had little confusion about my decision and guess what yesterday while walking in office lobby I read a sign which says what I was thinking and in 2 years of my job I never notice it that way... and then to my surprise I went back to read it again and this time it was not the same sign... at first instance I read only few words of the sign and it was exactly what my subconcious told me but that sign board actually says something else. And since I am a believer in these things I realized that it might be an omen, a sign..... and now I have no doubt about my decision its crystal clear... and will act upon it very soon.

These are just small things but believe me, if you start believing these unspoken signs will appear like unspoken language of Mother Nature. And yes, every thing can’t be coincidence…..& if it is then they are all planned.

Hence, this Collective focus syndrome theory works when you focus on something wholeheartedly, nature will give you enough chances to grab it….Its up to you to understand those signs & grab the opportunity… and if you do so, you will surely get what you aspire for.

Like the famous saying goes;

“When you want something from bottom of your heart,
  Whole universe conspires to make you achieve it”

So get ready to grab your chance, but before that check symptoms of your Collective focus syndrome.

Luv & Peace
Jyoti



P.S: Similar thing happened when I decided to write Blog, everything I do, think or read gives me idea of my blog…. In this process I cooked so many blogs in my mind….. some of them got conceptualized & are posted here, some are in my diary and some are still cooking :)

I'm just too shy!

Recently I read a poem which  touched my heart and taught me a lesson that ...…Life is too short to share everything and still often we hide our feeling, expressions for a later date but that day never comes and life moves on and when we realize it’s already too late to act…..  Really luvhly.



As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me
She was my so called 'best friend '
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it...
After class, she walked up to me and
asked me for the notes
she had missed the day before
I handed them to her
She said 'thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...



11th Grade....... ......... ......... ......... ....


The phone rang...On the other end,
it was her...She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her
love had broke her heart
She asked me to come over because
she didn't want to be alone, So I did
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine
After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips, she decided to go home
She looked at me, said 'thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...


Senior year........ ......... ......... ......... .........


One fine day she walked to my locker
"My date is sick" she said, "hes not gonna go well",
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as 'best friends'
So we did...That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step
I stared at her as She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes
Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!" and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...


Graduation.. ......... ......... ......... ......... ..


A day passed, then a week, then a month
Before I could blink, it was graduation day
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma
I wanted her to be mine-but
she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
and said- 'you're my best friend, thanks' and left...
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...


Marriage.... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......


Now I sit in the pews of the church
That girl is getting married now
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it...
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said 'you came! '
She said 'thanks' and left...
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...


Death....... ......... ......... ......... ......... .......


Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years
This is what it read:
"I stare at him wishing he was mine;
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him,
I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why...
I wish he would tell me he loved me ! "
...'I wish I did too'...
I thought to myself, and I cried...
"Do yourself a favour, tell her/him you love them...
They won't be there...Forever!



We never know what God has in store for us....but he surely does love each one of us.....we must never feel shy to show our feeling.

Jyoti

Winter Funk- 09: Khuch Khaas hai!

Dancing is always exciting, fun and lots of masti, recently we performed in winter funk organized by SDIPA. It was indeed a great experience to share platform with professional dancers & choreographers. Here are few glimpse of the event….

But now since the show is over and next session will start after a short break… I am missing my dance classes that early Sunday morning sessions when I used to drag myself out of bed just to dance and live life for that very moment. Though I never liked that at that time but now when everything is over I am craving for more. Missing my dance classes…. Hope it will start soon ;o(

Jyoti

Just say sorry, and pay up!

It’s a tale of two tragedies, both man made disasters barely separated by month, which shattered the nation 25 years ago.

Two tragedies – The Bhopal gas disaster & the anti-Sikh riots. One happened in Bhopal & other in national capital. Both claimed approximately an equal number of lives- 3,000, though Bhopal toll grew in leaps & bound to touch 20,000 figures.

But that’s not all it’s also a tale of a blundering system, which failed to deliver adequate judgment…. even for tragedies of this magnitude. Despite the scale of tragedy, we failed to render justice to the victims in both the cases even after two & half decades.

Delhi massacre which was the consequence on Sikhs after Indira Gandhi was shot dead by one of her Sikh bodyguard. Bhopal tragedy on the other hand, was due to the leakage of deadly Methyl isocynate gas from Union Carbide Corp.

None of the leaders & officials accused of complicity in Delhi violence has been convicted. All that they did was created a sorry figure & moved ahead…. Only 20 people were convicted in mass murder held in the capital. Still that is more than what could be said about the Bhopal incident, where trial is supposed to be still going on.

So, as there are several similarities in both the case…. In terms of... Lack of judgment, Scale of the disaster, Minority involvement….. But all similarities vanishes when it comes to compensation for victims of the two man made disasters. While victims of anti- Sikh riots received Rs 7 lakh those of Bhopal disaster got merely Rs 12,410 even though data shows that the incident claimed 20,000 deaths & even today many are still suffering.

Is this the law of the land, where most of the time government has only one thing to do, Just say sorry and pay up. And trust me its not just government....we common people… have we ever thought of our responsibilities as an Indian, as a Human. If not, then just think… Is there nothing beyond power, money, and selfishness? Do you think in any way our acts as a society are justifiable in the court of humanity?


Jyoti

Ref: TOI

Fingers crossed

“I am a very positive person & always believe in the ‘Glass half full' philosophy in life. I strongly believe that happiness is not something readymade. It comes from your own actions… And today somehow I made a wrong choice about my day… So it came up with lots of negative feelings. Some shades of it are also visible here in my post. So please bear with me….. I had a bad day” :(



It was a confusing and a creepy day… For few hours I had no clue about my state of mind….It all started in the morning when I was confused, then became upset, then confused, then angry with almost everything … then came this intuition that something somewhere is not correct.... And now still confused with don’t know what, but I am confused about being confused... and that makes me more confused... is that confusing or what?

Precisely I don’t quite know how I meant to feel!

Or is it because the most obvious answers are most often the ones we refuse to consider, as we always seem to see a trick in the question. Don't really know.

My body & soul were in disconnect…. But there was clear sign that something is not correct or something bad is going to happen….At one moment I felt that my head would burst into several small pieces….my body was shaking ....It was neither fear nor winter effect, I am sure... Maybe a residue of shock and or something else (I really don't know the word for it)...... And it took me 3-4 hours to finally stop shaking.

It was something unpredictable, but thankfully it is under control now.

Anyways... I am keeping my fingers crossed for the evening.

Please pray for me.

Jyoti

It's Complicated

When I was a kid just having a chocolate or a small teddy bear was enough to make me happy. Now, to achieve the same level of happiness I guess I will require a number of intangible and tangible things which do not include that chocolate or a small teddy.

As we grow old we widen our horizons. We start demanding and needing more. As taught in marketing, we discover (or made to) our hidden needs. Wants become so much profound over our needs that we consider them equivalent to needs. There is an old saying about the frog inside the well. He knows just about the well and has no idea about the outside world. This is, as taught to us, a bad thing. But can't we compare this frog to the kids who know nothing but are happier than the supremely knowledgeable human beings treading this planet.

Goodness! I want to be back in School again and want to learn and be tested and be told to follow a discipline and to take orders. It was just so so endearing and wonderful to spend time with your friends…those long pointless talks, those silly arguments, all that fun and frolic, that purity & innocence, … I am missing it.

Being grown up is not that bad but I guess, in this phase we start taking life and ourselves too seriously. We become the victim of our own needs. Needs which are supposed to bring happiness. Which in the short run do bring happiness but evaporate soon enough. Thus one is bound to slog hard throughout his/her life for that blissful state of mind. In the process we become responsible not only for ourselves but also for others. Then begins the cycle of compromises and subduing of aspirations.

But people will argue this is how life is. Hard, cruel, multifaceted and it's complicated.... So I guess God should send us with a manual of Life to find a way around for this complicated thing.

Jyoti