Fountainhead

RMZ Infinity, Bangalore

A stressful day, fully tired just feel like sleeping, had lots of downloads today in office. Nothing much to write. Same old office to home kind of day…….Don't want to do anything now just want to rest & complete the end of the book which I have been reading these days.

Now since I started about this book called "Fountainhead", just can't resist myself to write something about it. A good piece of work & actually got impressed by its characters & philosophy. It is about an individualistic young architect who chooses to struggle in obscurity rather than compromise his artistic and personal vision. The book follows his battle to practice modern architecture, which he believes to be superior, despite an establishment centered on tradition-worship. The novel relate to various archetypes of human character.

While reading that novel I felt at many points that characters depicted there are more or less available around us. Though heroic being with independent mindedness & integrity are rare species and "second hander" who are dependent on previous category for every small thing, are available in every nook & corner it's just that you don't know there story. Apart from all this it is also a perfect love story, one of the rarest of rare kind.

I just love it. Really excited about the end………

With Luv

Jyoti

Art & oblivion

Its 3.00 am and I don't know what is happening with me………….I feel totally isolated and feeling as if I am carried away by all other people around me and is totally drown in music, dance……..though am writing here but my soul is dancing. It's an awesome feeling; I really do not understand how strange and wonderful to be in the presence of creativity and to be moved by it emotionally, you just seems to be some other person…..a child who is lost in his own world. It is a mixed emotion of happiness & contentment.

A great piece of music, an exquisite art work, a moment in film or that ecstatic spell of dance….it can be anything or all of these. And you feel as if something moves within you and the tears swell up, the hair on the hands rise, a physiological reaction takes place. An abstract unconnected entity generates a physical moment inside a human body. I have often wondered what causes this phenomenon. There seems to be an invisible connection through the waves in the atmosphere that when touched, almost like the wires of a stringed instrument, convert themselves into a harmony of feelings which are capable of touching our hearts.

I don't know what this means in science but what I think is that, subconscious mind take control of our conscious senses you can feel these. Now how that happened…..As far as my experience goes……when we immerse ourselves completely into what we see, read, hear and feel, it carries with it the ability for us to become a part of it and maybe the physicality of the moment converts its energy into an emotion that invades our system. Once there, it overwhelms us with all its qualities and we are compelled into a reaction. The reaction could be one of appreciation and therefore happy or one of disappointment and therefore make us repel it.

I honestly don't know what this entire means but its really unconscious mind speaking and difficult to understand by own conscious mind. So I guess before it goes out of my control I should stop it here & try to feel things…… Good night.

Jyoti

Mah Sweety!!

As long as we have memories,
Yesterday remains,
As long as we have hope,
Tomorrow awaits,
As long as we have our dear ones,
Each day is never a waste.

Today is my sweet sister's b'day and it's for the second time I am not with her. Really missing her……… m totally nostalgic…….Just can't stops writing it here. It was like a flashback happening like ny other bollywood movies….Starting from the first time I saw my sweet lil sister……..to how we used to fight n treat each other as our punching bags & then protecting each other from mom's scolding……..those dancing sessions together……n then those dark room long long night talks…sharing secrets…….It seems as if it was just a matter of few months and we didn't noticed how we grew up so early…n everything went off so early ………And now we are playing puppets to our destinies, meeting each other has become something for which we have to plan and think now! And now- I miss all those fights and scolding sessions we used to have!! :-)

Miss u my sweety! Dearest, May God bless u with all the perfect things throughout your life!! Loads n loads of Luv…….muahh…..