Simple pleasure

There are days and then there are some days. Today was one of those. You wish for nothing to happen and nothing happens. It is not lethargy, or a lazy demeanor, its just that nothing happens. From the time you realize that the morning hour approaches, you begin to wonder what the day would be like. You look forward to nothing, for nothing is happening. You wonder whether it would be desirable to take a shower, change the clothing, look fresh and clean and the answer comes in loud and clear from within - NO !

But then suddenly things starts changing and the day which was earlier a lazy day now becomes Another day of uncertainty, of unknown circumstances and idle wanderings. So many things starts all of a sudden some in this world and some in your head.... and in notime Feeling of nothingness is replaced by the mess.

I felt somewhat similar today...... Feeling of mess... as if so many things going on in my mind....don't know where to start......how I wish I could ctrl+alt+del things that aren't important. But I know it won't go anywhere..... I wish I could climb inside my head to sort out the mess. But I was scared of loosing it all... and fear of going to a blackhole of emotions made it even worse.

But then again with some external force things around me seems to be bit calm and peaceful. And after travelling from nothingness to confusion now I landed in this beautiful feeling of goodness. Now it has turn out to be a day when the sun shone for that one short moment. And grasping the opportunity I sat out, taking in all that it could offer through passing light monsoon clouds. The burn on the face and skin felt good. Cold wind seems to pass my body giving a tight hug and taking away all the tension and blackness.... in no time I was relaxed..... I have to admit nature has a power to heal the soul and I was witnessing it.

 I sat there for more than an hour. Just looking towards the sun, eyes shut, taking in the vitamin, Hope, Light whatever.... Until the dark presence of rain sent me scuttling in...... it really healed me.

Simple pleasures of life.... are difficult to explain but they are always there... just that we don't notice.